Good morning to you wonderous humans you, here is to be hoping you have a day of production, from reading the new book and making sure I get lots of that book read and move onto the next one. However I am really enjoying this book. The Valley Of Fear by Sir Arthur Conac Doyle and it is ever so entrancing. From his mind is a beautiful and haunting levels of despair new to me. He was a truly magnificent writer.
With the birth of the day, making things like this has become a part of my joy and part of my love for life. To share and have a way to see you in ways that I have always thought impossible. Why I would love one day to have a chance to just talk to some people who are willing to hide nothing. Not a therapist by a human who talks to others like the scared humans we are. It is not a fear of the people or the fear of the things flying in the sky, it is the fear of existence itself. For without the existence we have then all things could not be felt.
I would want to have them know that not a word to be spoken, written or communicated in any way to the world or existence in it. Secrecy to the grave and beyond, even the greater beings beyond us would not pry the words spoken to me. That is what I would love to offer, just listen and then talk little then listen more. Just to have a chance to see through the many eyes of our world. From rich to poor, from ones who love greatly to those who love to be alone. Just to have the words of so many help me see a new world every day.
However, I am not oblivious to the lack of trust in the world. Telling secrets is a way to proclaim advantage over another. For me the secret is not the thing that matters. What the secret is, or where is came from, just the power of that secret in your life. What it has done to you and what it has changed forever in you. That is the human I wish to chat with. For its honesty is its greatest secret, I wish for them to have a chance to be honest without fear of subjugations by the secret.
Good day you wonderful people. I hope you and all loved ones have a wonderful day and that the darkness in the world has not cast you in the shade of loneliness.
The day is just starting for me as I am working through the night again, not all that bad as I am happy that I can do reading and make things at night so I am not being bugged by human noises around me. Not their fault as they are just living life and have things to do and I require quiet so no noises get picked up. So that way working on this stuff at night makes is so much easier. Also tonight is the start of the The Valley Of Fear, by the most talented Sir Arthur Conan Doyle, Of course being a Sherlock Holms book I am excited to start it tonight. Being the time to eat I am thinking that food is required soon. As I am feeling the hunger sickness and need to eat and take my crazy pills and move onto the nightly duties.
One thing too is reducing my coffee intake so I can maybe sleep better but here is to loving coffee and all its wonder. I drink a lot of coffee and I should not be doing that as it is not healthy, especially for me with weak arteries in my brain case, I really don’t want to die just yet. I have plans and want to die in the woods with all the animals I have made friends with. To decay and become a part of the world again. That is a dream I have, to become part of the very thing that allowed me to become a conscious being.
With the day just started and breakfast being made and eaten I am thinking of all the things I wish to get done this fine night. I might char with peoples of the world. Just randoms who are up for it. Just to say hi and see how they are doing in this crazy world. Just to have something to think about as there is no real way to have that experience myself in person, so just chatting and finding new lore of the world. Just to have a chance to gain the lore of different parts of the world.
I do have to depart, and I am off to make sure things are being taken care of and I have to get ready for recordings. Till later loverly ones
Good day humans, I hope your life and the things in it are as wonderful as ever. Things that are happining for me, I want to quit smoking, I am doing alright in that department, then I want to have a chance to be the kiwi cat that is inside all of us. The kiwi cat is the thing we want to be, content in its existence but knows others are wishing to have the things in life that make you a kiwi cat. They will never find it though, for kiwi cat is the secret to all things that bring joy in life. It is letting go of the past and not giving the future a sense of depression. Kiwi cat is the knowledge that no matter what you do in life no one person will remember you in 100 years. Knowing these things and not having the truth of the lack of importance you are to the world. Kiwi cat makes the world that needs the kiwi cat. From reading to strength, from knowledge to the ones who never just give up. That is the kiwi cat way.
Now what is the cost to become a Kiwi cat, that is easy, stop being stupid. Now the action of not being stupid has become quite difficult these days, From ocular injections of pain and death of a nation, the devotees standing in groups are ocular desires. Thinking with these injections that we must choose a side. The kiwi cat way is to close your eyes and tell the masses of ocular injections, the lies that are turned to pictures and the hope that ones eyes remain that of a convincible cat, you must be kiwi cat and not fall into the observable deaths and disease. That makes a mind decare the righteous is the ones who show you lies in pictures first become your devourer of your sympathy. Then you hate for no reason then a picture being a lie.
The kiwi cat must always be ready to act but not act in the name of others. For when the pictures become truths the kiwi cat is in the pit of the actions are those for they are honest. The world can lie to the very essence of their god to have a chance to be in the grace of heaven. what make you think that kiwi cat is not being lies to every second of every day, they are lying in more ways then one. Ones bound to the bosom of the lie then when the lies cry pain in exposure they call upon the ones who gave up their kiwi cat to be part of a mass with no name but hate. Hate for not being them, hate for the exposure the things that binds them. Truth is not the killer, the killer is the cats who fear not truth but exposure.
Kiwi cat must not hear the words of many, but the words the many repeats in divinity of their being. The cats fall into the blessings of a mortal being, how is a being breathing the same air have divinity over kiwi cat. The exposure makes them mad as the truth is no cat is above another, nor is kiwi cat above them, for the truth is that the distain of both the ocular and the pictures from the kiwi cats have lead these groups into a facinisem of glory beyond the breathing. To have a kiwi soul pass into the greater realms, they are wrong and the truth is they are not delivers but takers. For in the kiwi cat is the truth, being kind to others and taking not what is not bound to you, is all it is about. Kiwi cat has no fear in their soul as they know, just being kind and not taking what is not bound to you, that is enough to please any greater being worthy of thought.
See Kiwi cat is the thing we all fear and the thing we all wish we could be, but the world would hate it so the fear of isolation is greater then the fear of the aftermath of it all. That is the true killer of life. Of everything.
Good day to you, As the world turns and the 5 great explorers are heading towards the moon for its wrap around, for this I have found hope in the human existence once again. As this will be a great moment for us. I wish it will lead to have the world come together to become better for all and not the ones who see modernity as a god, and the human condition a curse. For truly it is the other way around and modernity is the curse that only humanity can break. For it is in the human desire to be better, but only the ones who know human desire is not to be bolstered with the machinations of technological divinity.
I however, just want to see the world be bound together by sensations of grandeur when finding the way to make fusion work, to see a world that bathes in the warmth union of exploration. We have done this before as a species and we can do it again. Just takes people who have a history to tell and a future they wish to create in peace. To make a world that the things we find beautiful are not in the power we make but in the desires to the stars in the future. A hope that the world can see such dreams before it is too late.
It is a world we live in and if I ever get to see the future I hope it is in the glory of exploration in the great void of space, to the depths of the mysterious oceans both here and on planets with more hope then the foolish of man or woman who wish to only see the things we are become the best things we can be and not what we are.
For now that is all. I am going to attend to other things.
Good day to you interesting humans of the most beautiful kind. Just was able to get more rest today and I was able to just chill. Brain operations are not recommended. They hurt for a long-time afterword.
I wont say the way waisted and I was able to suffer in the silence of the realm of dreams. I shall take that and will run into the distance awaiting some majestic idea of sleeping mind. I am happy to have the day though, been a long time since I can say I had the day to just shut down and not have top think. That also is coming from a person who has a hard time thinking at all on days like this. the burning and odd needle like pain that radiates through my head is lots of ways of making a man insane.
Other then that, not a whole bunch has gone on, I am hoping to have the mental clarity to have a chance to read the new sherlock holms (new to me) just because I really like reading and reading out loud is a new skill I wish to master.
All in all I know this post is not huge and I know that UI could do more but the head is just not agreeing. So, I will be back a some time, perhaps later.
How this day is moving along lovely, not the temperature or the weather, nor does it bow to the amount of coffee or general caffeine intake. Nor is it drugs or the new fur animals around here. It is all to do with a decent sleep. A hope to get better at things in my life that I have needed to, and now with those things mastered I can come back here full time and do move book readings. Just because I do enjoy both very much so, I also realize that I have to take care of core mechanics of life before branching out. Just the smart thing to do.
The cutest of puppies, they are doing wonderful and have been loving up all the attention they have received being so cute. That and momma is doing great as well and has not been too overbearing or to las se fair about them. That makes it wonderful to have them around as sometimes the first batch of puppies can make a momma very protective. However, she is doing so great, I am so proud of her.
I managed to get the cleaning done I wanted done completed. The house is a bit cleaner; the chickens are happy and so are the fur babies. Just a happy bunch of critters who are very loved.
I must depart and get more done and get more recorded, I shall be back again, never fear.
Good day, for the day is still becoming a day and I need to make sure that I am still alive. That I have not given up on the idea that I am still going to be a forest dweller. I am just a happy little ginger, trying to get through life with half a brain and trying to understand the things in this life we have. Oh and I have some surprises for you as well.
Things are wonderful with the arrival (had not idea that she was preggers) two puppies. Just was working on some recordings then heard some puppies crying and turned around and saw the babies. So, I am taking care of them in my room. They are doing amazing and have a chance to live in a well-loved home.
One of the big things I will have to do tonight for them is to make sure they are happy and have new and fresh blankets for them. That way the old stink and such will be gone and they will have a blanket just for them. So many babies around this placed that I am going have to ask you lovely people for names. Just because I suck at naming things.
All in all, I have much to do and will be back later today with more updates and baby pictures.
I am unsure if anyone has these things going on in them. Suffrage of the body and mind have been heavy on me as of late. I wish I could show the world how it is but I can and that is also another reason I find it so hard to just exist. It is weird as I feel cold exuding from my core. It feels as if a ice build up has formed in my body and its slowly melting. It feels like I slowly melting it but I can feel the ice/water mix into a slush is slowly being moved to my limbs. Slowly chilling my body while trying to melt the ice.
Though this feeling slowly dissipates and I begin to warm, my mind slowly becomes aware of the things inside. A odd feeling of not being there but are there is my legs and fingers. They start to mess up and I can’t seem to make them work as they should. Right now, fingers are working but feel stiff and not as mobile as they should be. My feet feel numb but still working, moving my toes is a weird kind of pain. Like stressing a elastic that has not been stretched in a while. You can feel the strands inside pop and snap to allow the still remaining stretchy tissue to be free again. Calves and the front of my thighs are in a wired empty feeling that does not take away walking but makes it odd as I am working with a shell of a get and the inside is a hollow that is filled with a vacuum of not matter but essence.
Wearing 3 layers of tops, 2 sweaters and thick ass wool socks and very (at one time) polyester fuzzy pants. The cold is almost sealed inside and warming is taking a long time and hot liquids are being consumed to help as well. The temp of the room is 27^c and in all means I should not be cold yet I am still shivering time to time. Perhaps I should go and make fresh hot fluids to drink and see if I can become a bit more aware of my existence. So I can dee if this body is hungry and or craving something unknown to me right now. I am trying, truly trying and it is taking a lot from me right now. The neck is also giving me some issues.
So the neck is something somewhat new, just feeling empty in the left side where the tumor started, like I am losing the ability to tell if material exist inside the neck and I am losing the feeling of sensation and it is replaced with pain. hair growing makes it feel as if the hair is ripping out the tissue under the skin, growing from the things the roots of the hair are eating to grow. The eye brow has been more and more stabby as of late and sight is fading more and more. I don’t tell anyone these things as I have a huge fear and unknown reasons I have a hard time talking and being around people. They scare me with a unknown fear. I am terrified when I am around people, I wish I knew why but I am.
The fear of people is the hardest thing to explain, and doctors say I should not be like this. Say., thanks doc I did not know this they tried to convince me that people thoughts are not to be feared and most likely not ever about me. I get that, I really do. However I fear something else then that, I fear their existence, I fear that they are thinking that they are going to hurt me in ways I don’t get. When it comes to reasoning and fulfillment of the humans essence, I fear that they will rip it out of me. To take what “essence” I have left in me is being consumed by the very existence of people around me. They all have shadows that laugh at me and rip into my soul taking all things that matter to me and eating them as favored memories in flavor. It takes not long to start feeling like my essence is dying and being consumed by the people, by their existence. Then I want to run, fight, to just exist.
Good, wonderful day to whom finds this place of love and lore, how I have come to a great time today. Just a good day with the kitties and other animals, the birdsong outside is enchanting, the chickens are ever so happy with the warmer weather, just a good day and the feel goods are strong today.
With the past couple days being used to catch up on some other things I have now taken some time to rest with the days becoming more and more spring like, things are just good. Without a chance to stop I think burn out would be a major issue so I would not want that. So tonight I am trying to learn and use clip champ to make sure I know how to use it. Just busy and now that I have the things done that, I have some time to work on learning.
So that and I am learning the abilities of the modern pc, I have not had one for about 23 years and this this is unreal. I have only had used laptops and now having this I think I have changed the world I work in. So tonight I have 6 hours and 45 mins of reading the book “the boats of the glenn carigg” tonight and I am happy to get it finished. Soon after it is done, I will be reading the next book in the large list I wish to have read soon. All non AI reading but there is a few mistakes I have made but it makes is more human.
All in all I think the day has been wonderful and though I missed you I hope that your lives are ever so wonderful.
Good evening you wonderful being called human, how I hope your day and evening has been wonderful. Waking up and having the night to work on things that need to be done on the internet. From reading and making sure to try and finish the book tonight, Then I am going to try to find the next book, I have to try and find a way to just to be better at life. I want to help, in a lot of ways but I am so, well me that I wish I was better. Though I am getting there, I have much to learn and not a whole lot of time to get there.
Moving onto the plan, I think I have but a few chapters left in the book I am reading, as they are long. I am just content to be here and typing this. The only issue being I am not able to hold this spot in life that much longer, so many things are changing, from humanity to the simple idea of a kinship that I could rely on. The world burns for a reason beyond me and I am not sure we can put the fire out. Then again, who am I to ponder such things.
How ever as I sit and have these delightful cookies and sip away on my soda. I am just happy to live I guess. to have a chance to make sure I get things sorted out and then the long sleep happens. Quaint how that is, with all life means and the will to be, in the end we are still just a micro moment of existence. Is that the greatest tragedy of life, to know the end is the answer but the answer is not in this realm. Such minds. Such beings. I am unsure if we are true to life or lie to it long enough that the life becomes maligned to being.
Good day w9onderful beings of life, how the day has started with greatness and hope that things are not as deadly as they seem. From the walk of life and the desire to make sure that that the world does not overtake the mentality of the individual. The world is slowly changing into something that seems to burn with more ease than it is A film strip that is burning and the film is the time left for the human existence. I am just feeling that something is coming and it is not what we expect. Something is off in the universe, and it has chosen to correct it.
So, the day moves along like a wonderful crawl into the hours of warm sun and lovely breeze. With the seasons changing I have found that the hope that we have still lingers in my heart. I want to have a future were we as a race are not bound to the creations of the past. I just don’t think that we have enough humanity left to do it.
Enough with the miasma of the current style of life, we are all living in today. I am wondering how much starvation will be shown to us. Not just in the human body, but in the ways that matter just as much. Pondering the things like this are ways to drive one insane but I am already there so I don’t have to worry about that. Just have to be me and things should be ok. Should be.
So the pizza is cooked adn I am hungry so I am off to have some lunch adn then who knows. The day is just here and I love it.
Good evening you creatures of life, how time has been on my mind for the past bit. Just thinking about the past and how things I have done seem so minute to the life I have now. Here I am trying to become a reader of books and writer of life, yet not so long ago, I was a tyrant to the world of peace. Drugs, women, drink and soul were all things that I found easy to get and easier to lose. Driven minds thinking life was not to become a chore but a dragon you chased to the end of time. Sometimes when you touched the tail, you got to see truth masked in cocaine candy. A dream that only ends with the drugs.
Now I have a mind that I wish was clearer, A body worth being in, A lost child who never found home until the drugs took their time with the husk that was left. Like a doll on strings, I danced and tore my skin off for the feeling of being human when all I could feel was like a god when so high that I touched stars. Never to know until too late, when you reach for them with false means, you are burned by them as the tasks you should have faced were burned away with the smell of melted Styrofoam. White yellow rocks of disturbed thoughts and fantasy being a broken inhaler, times when I would sell a soul, to whatever devil would answer, just to ride the lighting one more time to the dragon’s tomb of decay.
Now in the times I have become clean from the hard shit, stick to my weed now, I have seen many things and have had times when I thought I had the answers, maybe I did, I cannot remember them. That is ok, as when I think I remember them I fall into the fear of the simmering plastics that became a fear inducing smell. Then I realize the cost of false knowledge is the soul and all its honor. I am just happy to know I seen it once and I am happy knowing I can’t remember it. For I have the feeling inside it is something that is more costly than anyone could afford.
All in all this was something I just needed to talk about, for some time now this truth has been hidden from ones who I feared would take it and run away from the man I am trying to be now. A lot of things I am not proud of, but I am choosing to face them with a pure honesty to help myself be less derived of self happiness and have the world know that their words hurt far less then the things I have called myself.
Just to say after this, We got this as even through the dammed world of lighting rides, when you get of you are not alone.
It has been a long time since I thought of you, not as a person but as the thing I have most dreamed about in the past. Dreams that you never became the distant memory of the past, that when I sang into the battle for you, you heard me. But that is not the now but is the foundation of the now. A solid and mature means of understanding the seasons of the human heart.
I have not had a moment in a long time to think of the things you have seeded for me, From thistles to the rose, The handful of seed you tossed into my life grew into many things. Some most beautiful, I fear I shall never again see such things as beautiful as those flowers again. However, my fear is always abaded by the scars of thorns and hidden spines of decay.
For not do I ever wish you pain or the decay of life or limb, I wish to you the, life you want, for that is what you gave me through it all. A greater understanding of the flowers of humanity and the thorns of the human soul. Forever is the beauty in my mind that you have given me when I look at the world. Never forgotten is the pain of the acidic sap that is used to grow some of the most beautiful things in the world.
With this I wish to have you know, I hate not you, nor the choices made, I despised the memories not, for they are the things that have formed me into the thing I am today. I am not a broken man, but a wiser one. I am not a man of greatness, but one who has seen greatness. For these are things only found in the most wonderful of things, the most beautiful of things. Just the day it comes when I find these flowers again, I will make sure to check for thorns.
Good morning most wonderful being of life, how I hope your day is not too troubling for you, that the gift of grace is given to you in this day so you can make it through. The day has started quite well for me as I am up early and have a grand thought of the day. What I plan to do today is much but never too much but also never too little. Just enough to make sure the day is used well. Just to keep up things that are needed and never abuse the time I have in this room we call life.
I have a bit inside to take care of today and I want to make sure the inside of the house smells nice, Doing some dusting, then off to make sure the outdoor animals are happy and fed. Then check on the babies and might get a pic or two of them for you wonderful people. Just because they ate precious and need to be shared.
Now being up for a hour I am thinking of what to start the day with, dishes or dusting, I am thinking dishes first so I do not worry about getting them covered in dust. Yes That is the plan, dishes then dusting for now.
I will be back later and visit with you lovely people, Because you are all so beautiful.
The day has been good in the sense that I am happy with how the time was allocated and not just given to the wind to eat up and dispense a sense of waste. From cleaning the floors to loving up the dogs and other animals. Things are just moving along as a time pressed life should. Regard the time pressed life being one of the essences of life is known not to have immortality, but to have mortality as a reminder that each day is not meant to be, they are chances of existence.
Honestly, I think, often wonder, that the things we have on this planet are things of divulged species and not of a congruent means of becoming better than once was. I know we could do better but in the choices of future endeavors, they are limited to who is allowed to claim them as their own. Thus being that no human I have ever met is capable of seeing the benefit to all over themselves. I fail to see a future that this is possible.
In example, not a leader nor a person of interest, nor a great chief of people could ever see beyond the means of the manifestations of the gods they have and all others wrong. I just see that humans have not become aware enough to become better than what we are. Still we kill over resources and over titles, we maim the innocent in claims of land yet let the ones who gave everything to give the title to their command, the people are left with nothing, not even memory. Humans are slain by their own ideals long before the ideals of others clash.
The morose and decay that is thought to be found in my post are the limiters to the ones who cannot see past this concept of the human desire and must be bound to the reality they make, as they are the ones who are right of course. This letting the division of morality and constitution as if someone is one thing, then the others must create a notion or belief in the opposite. Just something I have noticed, we all kill for the same color, just different shades of it. Most cannot see this, so they cannot see they are but another shade of the same thing, but the hatred of shaded eyes are the only reasons we fail to progress as a species.
Then again what do I know, I am but a brain damaged ginger.
Good day to you, How this day is chilly but gives me a chance to have the things done inside the house and such. The Animals are all tucked in outside in their heated tent and chicken house. So they are all good, the other animals are inside watching the wind take the snow off the tree limbs. So this gives me a day to clean the house and make sure it is smelling good and looks like we are civilized. Just because I want to make is so the day is not waisted.
The dogs are a happy bunch today, the were able to take the nice day yesterday and have a lot of time spent outside. Today they are in recovery mode and being lazy, can’t blame them as they have not been able to run the great outdoors. Now they are tuckered and taking advantage of the easy day, now they are watching me clean the floors and doing dishes. Like good dogs do and making sure I do not miss anything.
The dishes are now underway and the floor are going to be next, the house will smell so good when I am done. So that makes me quite happy. Just the wonderful smell of a clean house and animals that are ever so lovely. Just because I am happy with the outcome so far and the day still being early I am going to have a chance to get more then I wanted done. This is good, very good indeed. So, with all that I should depart and focus on the coffee I am drinking and then off to the rest of the duties that the day task me with.
Rise and shine you majestic humans you, for I have the most wonderful of news.
More Babies!!!!!!!!!!
The momma known as Stinky has had some babies and they are all doing very well. The babies are happy and warm; the momma is happy warm and has lots of food and water to keep them safe and happy. Juss a good time in the household of fur nuggets and their love. That and the puppies are doing great themselves, a very happy bunch of animals who are just happy to have the home they have. I am grateful that they find the house a home. They are worth every second of time I have them in my life.
In other great news, I have to say the weather is warming and the snow is melting away and making the days more and more exciting to start gardens and more veggies on the grow. Just to have a chance to take the labors of the soil and make it into the food for survival.
More and more the world turns and is taking more lives than being born in some places, That the world is risking the death of a planet over the pride and misplaced sense of divinity and much like gods of past and present, they are right and all others are wrong. To contemplate anything else is the greatest sin and that thought must die in fear. I am very disgusted with the human that bathes in the dampness of the blood of others.
However, I must not devolve into a mass of hate of kin, but to ignore such arrogance and move along in my life. The ones who kill without their own pain of taking life that is not their own is a curse that is bound to the ones who find themselves debating their worth as little without the begging of others to spare them. A value that is worth not.
But I must depart and partake in the life that takes care of others and shoe the fur and feather nuggets are doing well.
Good evening you wonderful things of life and breath, how the gift of time and essence. The past couple days have been very busy but I have gotten the time to visit with you, just because I miss you guys so much. You are wonder people and I am so happy that I am able to talk to you wonderful beings of life. Just that I do hope that you can see it as well. Just that I am doing what I can and I am getting better at that, for now as I am looking to have the things in my life come together. Much like the ends of a 10,000-piece puzzle, the buildup and completion is the huge win.
My one downfall is that I got the car stuck today and I have much to do and the car was needed. So I am seeing if the neighbor is home to see if I can bug him for a pull out of the mud. That or keep going out and lifting the car with a jack then put more wood under the tire. Lower the jack and then back up with more lift and then again, more wood under the tire. Over and over again until I am able to get it high enough to make sure to get the car out of the mud.
This is part of the reason I have been gone for the last little bit, The Momma gave birth to the cutest bunch of kittens and I have loved them so much. From a distance of course. Even though momma lets me love her up to no end is a very snuggly kitty. I don’t want her to suffer due to my actions or because she is stressed in anyway. So she is well taken care of and so are her babies.
However the day is moving along and the night is upon me and I think I may do a large amount of reading tonight with you lovely people, If you can find me but now that the week is fresh and I have a chance. I will be making a list here. Just has the tail end of the winter show up and she was a cruel mistress.
Alas, I must depart and have a chance to get the rest of my plan done tonight. For it is a mighty plan indeed.
Good day you wonderful people, How I hope you are having a wonderful day, for the days are warming up and the nights are giving fresh scents to the air. The mornings are starting to get brighter and brighter as the days grow longer and the nights come to a short term. Just happy to be alive today.
The morning dew, ever so shimmering the morning rays of the light dancing in the globes of water that hang from the tips of the grass blades. Refractions of the light born from a fusion of atomic means that is millions of miles away, turning the ever so graceful water into the steam and fog to the mornings light. Breaking from the liquid form to dance in the evenings so they may come to rest and return to the globe of water that hangs so heavily from the grass blades tip.
Breaking from the news and the social media has given me a time to understand the meaning in life, not the meaning of life. Just want to be a better being of life, of the conscious mind to take forth a meaning that is of kinship and desires of the world. Not the conscious beings we call humans, for we have given up the ability to hear the wild to manifest in the molded shapes we create to have a sense of control. This is the reason of downfall if the human being stops being and is more human.
So, the day is wonderful and I must not take too much time being here as the world does need to be amended and taken care of. I am just a content ginger today, I am not sure why, but I will not spoil the fruits of the day. The day is too precious to leave it to stale and become crumbs of the loaf of fine bread from the ovens of gods.
To take in the day, I think I will go to attend to the bawk bawks and the mew mews. They need to have a check on food and the water. The change in weather will bring them joy and hunger from getting out and about again. Food is not hard and must be given freely as they give us eggs so freely. Such good birds.
Though I love to stay and have a chance to have more time with you. The tasks of the day demand of me, and I shall not disappoint it.
Good morning you wonder beings of life and adventure, How I hope you having a great day and the time ahead is brining you joy. For the day is wonderful and is melting the snow with +12 out and life is coming together nicely. The washing machine is turning out the dirty laundry so I can have a fresh bed, brings the best sleep forward.
The day has a lot of thinking to it, from the thoughts of what I want to have done this summer. From making sure the house and such is worked on, to the outside being cleaned up. Just a day of making sure life is on track and the plans I have in place manage to work out as planned.
Morning snuggles from the best puppy, as he is the arrow and is exactly what you need when you need it. A pure soul that is in a very snuggle dog that loves so much. He is something special and he is about 16 years old. Still has all kinds of gumption to him and loves his time snuggling and running around outside. With that I should be thinking of doing his nails and trimming his nails. Just give him a puppy spa day. He has earned it easily.
The day must go on, and I need to get up and move into the gear of getting thing done. I am hoping that you have a great day and you have a day where loved ones come close and you have a day of love and life.
Ugh the night is mine to live in, so I am stuck up with the memories of the nightmares of trying to just have a short nap earlier. Then I got caught up in a very shitty set of nightmares and not able to get away from it. So, I was tormented and killed thousands of times by various things and stuck living in it. Each time burned to my waking mind. I can vividly remember all of them. I sware I can still feel the blades, fingers, being pushed up from under my skin. I can still smell the burning of my flesh as I am impaled by a red-hot steel pick. Each digit being torn off by hungered wolves and insects pressed into my skin until they burrow under my being. Just more and more I can remember them all and now I am stuck for the next while trying to burn them out of my head. Ugh not a good afternoon.
Now I do wish to have a chance to have a moment when I am going to fight off these things that own my thoughts and feelings and take back my mind and my body. Takes a lot but I am unsure if anyone suffers this too. What do you do to help pull out of the demons’ grip. Anything would help and I will credit you in my next post.
Until Later.
Much Love
Your Friendly Ginger From The Woods.
P.S.
I am know this is a short post but just having to share to help deal with the darkness.
Good morning wonderful beings, I hope your sleep was wonderful, that your night was not disturbed. That your days are not tasked with the trials of hardship and pain. That it is much like mine, though the night was long and the day is starting with a brow ache. All in all, could be worse and I am trying to just be a happy and content little balloon that is floating close to his coffee.
The clouds hang in the sky with a darkened aspect to the day, not in a sad or dismal day. Just a day with the head and neck being a little extra sore and not wanting to work quite right. With that said, I am going to have a day of reading books and working here. I am just a content clam as I am waking to a world is fuzzy and not warm but almost, like the day is taking the liquid in my face and warming it before it runs into my face and the skin. An odd sensation but a sensation that is nifty to feel.
Becoming a bit more awake I need to have one more coffee and a bit more time to wake up and get the day under some sort of motivations. Might have to get the world tidied a bit, at least the world I inhabit so I can say I did something. The world still turns no matter how much I want to have a day of nothing but coffee and love but that is not a possablity. That is ok as those days will come in time. I must depart though, coffee needs refilling and ambition needs to be built to get the day moving.
Good day you wonderful people, How I hope you and your day is as wonderful as mine is. Just a happy being, I think it has to do with the idea that my mom is home and working in the front office. Well, living room and office. My mom is the best mom and beats all other moms out of the water in who has the best mom, just saying so you know.
So the day has a couple things left to do but is not a huge rush, I got wicked face aches today so I am doing more computer work then anything. Just to have a day where things are still getting done and not left behind. Yesterday was a busy day and now I have more boards done for the boss man, (step-father). That way he has what he needs for his work and making shipping boxes. It makes life for him easier and I have things to get later so that is the plan so far.
I am a happy bean today and just having a day where it feels like I am going to get a bunch done and not have to rush. So far at least. That and I have to make sure the day is used fully, that and I don’t want to have the day wasted. That would be a very terrible thing and I would hate to have a thing like that would happen.
I am still sipping on a coffee and have a chance to breath easily and not have day when I waste coffee and waste time, both things are not easy to have together.
However I must depart and get the day so I will let you lovely people go and have a good day.
Rise and shine you wonderful beings of life, how I hope your sleep was worth of the word and your minds have a chance to have a rest. Through the minds of the world and the hopes of the many, I hope one day we find the yonder.
The egg incubator is running and is warming and keeping the eggs happy, I have a neighbor that has different breeds that I will see if I can get a dozen to have in the incubator to see if I get lucky. I have many boxes to have a second stage done and ready, so they are all ready to go outside. I am just happy to try and raise the little fluffs. As they are cute as all heck and make me happy.
Other than the small changes and the big one being the computer makes my life easier, that is making life better, and I have much to be happy. The day has a plan to it, from cleaning and putting new shavings in the pen, I also have to make sure that the kitties have a clean room too. Well not a room but the tent, just to they are happy and warm. It makes a huge difference in the happiness of my world.
From the fur nuggets to the feather nuggets, the time of year is here for the babies to start showing up and have the coos and bawks of happy bird family. That and the mews of the baby kittens are always a huge deal to me, as they are a sign of the parents trust me. I find it extremely rewarding when an animal that is not of spoken word, they trust me with the most precious things. This lets me know I am not so bad as a being of the world. If the unspoken trust of animals is given to me, maybe, just maybe, I am a good person.
The day is going to be a good one and I am just happy to be alive, more is to be done, and more is to be thought of, but the mornings are mine to think. I am thinking that another coffee and another few just to ponder the existence of all things.
Things are heading into the spring, so I gathered up the days eggs from the chickens and see if the rooster has been doing his job and have some babies in the next month. I am excited and might have to get some quail eggs from the store and see if I can find any that are fertilized. That and I might have to check out the internet to see if I have the chance to have breeders in the area. Maybe see if I can get a couple turkey eggs. Just to see if I can hatch a couple turkeys for the winter’s food.
On top of that, I did a thing. A thing that has cost me a lot of money that I now have a loan for. However, this is the main reason I had to depart for a bit.
My laptop died, so for the first time ever in my adult life, I got a brand-new pc. This is amazing as I am so excited to see what I can make with this incredible new device. This thing has so much more power and ability that even doing recordings has become something that has more ease to it than ever before. I want to have a night tonight that is a huge recording session and get the book I am reading done. Hmm I should somehow figure out how to link it here and have you wonderful humans a chance to let me know how it turns out. Just because you are all such wonderful beings that I hope you like it.
The day is wonderful and I have much to catch up on with the spring coming so quickly. I have gone out this morning, just around the house and gotten some stuff that has been frozen in the snow cleaned up. I am a happy clam that is ready to take on the few tasks of the day and a touch more. Just to be productive in the hours of the day and keep things moving along.
I know this is not a huge post, but it is a quick update and letting you know that I will back with more sooner than later.
Ahh the morning is being sipped away, the coffee is being wonderful and delicious. The day is starting with a good sense of getting things going. Even though I was up all night again, because apparently having a good night’s sleep is not a thing that is to be mine. Just going to have an easy day and not push too hard. Not only the lack of sleep but my neck has been very stiff and has me a bit worried as that is where the most damage from the brain tumor was done. A lot of nerve center damage on the base of the brain stem and the bones have some break down from the tumor. Just have things that worry me when it is in my neck. That and my face has been giving me nasty spikes in pain again, takes my breath away and feels as if my bones are being crushed in my left orbital bone. I am just going to be taking it easy for the day. Still get lots done and have more to do, just the heavy stuff I will avoid.
What is the plan for the day, dishes and laundry, then have some shoveling to do and salt some ice away. The end of the winter is always the same here, warm days lead to cold nights that freeze the melt off of the day. The walkway has been cleaned up and now has the ice from the freeze last night. That is fine though as soon the melt off will take place even at night and the days will be down to sweatshirts and jeans. The almost best part of the year. Then the next to bring out of storage is the rack and lights for the baby plants. That is a big part of the early spring.
I should be getting out of the office chair and get my ass in gear. Lots to do and never enough time to do it. Especially when I have been having some troubles with me sleeping.
Today is a good day, Slept well and I have a drive to get things done and have some chores that I want to do. How strange is that when most days are of the bane of such things. I am just happy to exist and have a life worth living, just a good day.
Anyway, the work to be done today requires me to attend to some snow and make sure the day is not wasted on the few things that are not changeable. That is just the tasks we face in life sometimes, We face things that are wrong and we know them to be disastrous to the mainstage of productions. I rather be the one in the right while the people or whatever burns to keep me warm. Sounds odd to say things like that in this world of self-sacrifice and it being wrong to care for oneself, to have a mindset of reality and not the concepts to make the world better by force.
In time all things will come out as they always do, I am almost excited for the burning embers of the old wars to be relit to the current world and have the paper reality people live in burn down. Think of it this way, when the times come, and they are. People will cry for the strength that they called toxic when they are under the boot of their own actions. It is rather funny how they cry for peace but never willing to sacrifice anything for it. They force the world to change for them and call people the worst things in the world, then when those very same people face a greater foe then them beg for help, but the help was killed long ago.
I do often wonder what it would be like to have the people who cry for their own existence and yet when challenged by a greater force they are using the ones they subjugated under them to fight for them. This is hilarious, as the ones who don’t care will watch them burn and be kept warm by the coals of the once doctoral.
However, when this day comes, I won’t weep as things we face are not to the individual we are all facing, when the many want the few want the many to burn for them in the stead of the ones who fueled the embers, I rather just be warm.
However, my mind is not fully finding the road to words, So I will be back in a bit once the road to words becomes more suited for driving.
Oh. I am not quite as happy as this adorable goldfish, but I am trying. Trying to get the things done, trying to get the house clean and being taken care of, always trying to do better but the world is not. So, it is a one-sided war and today, I won this battle and I am not giving up this ground I have gained.
The day has the wonder I have been looking for to, it is a day of production, a day of doing better. I am not going to push it and have a day that I am not going fall behind in effort, so I am just staying in the lane I am in.
I got the driveway cleaned up and that way the humans can get in and out without issues. That has been the day so far as I am waiting for the humans to get here so the dogs won’t bark and be caught up in the recordings of the day. I am going to try and make sure to get at least 4-5 hours of book reading and recorded every day. Slowly move that up to more and more hours as I am trying to become something in the endless monotony of life and existence.
With the day being a good day of recovery I think I am to make much more progress in my own being. Trying to have a better posture and hold my own mind to the risks of the thought process. For the process of thought and the manifestations of minds, they are places of great evil and great good, to what each one is, that lays in the mind of its creator. A discord of the real is not what the world wants, they need a calculated sense of control. This is what gives people the ability to live mindlessly. Look as the world burns as the thoughtless become the majority. Then when awoken to an existence determined to eat up the sleeping ones.
Questing in this world is not of a great effort but effort, that is not to the mindless, created motives of the many, but now they are the stories of the ones who lie in the blasphemy of thought. An odd thing to say but note that the world has not a reading mindset, the world wishes to be told the corrected reality. A world were time and age are not the things we fear, but being seen wholly is a task worse than death.
I am not a man of answers, a questing man of the world who has begun to learn to read the memories of the dead, the machinations of the now, and the decrepit thoughts of the rich.
It is a day and a half right now, just been a hard time the past 48 hours. So much so that I am having a bit of a hard time breathing,. very heavy weight on my chest, just cant breath. Then walking is very hard as it makers me very dizzy and like I am constantly falling. do not recommend and I am not grumpy. Just have a very hard time existing right now. That and over all just weak, so I am not sleeping well and just having some time to myself away from the world of thought.
The back of my head is feeling weird and sometimes itchy, so I am thinking of nerve damage and its evil ways. I am just not holding up the best and wanted to have some time with you wonderful people. Just because I am trying to be ok in a not so ok state.
However I am still going to relax and work on recordings as sitting and reading is not hard. Just words being spoken I think I can handle, at least for a bit and then I can say I did something today. As I am not going to be doing much else. Just for tonight I hope. Its even harder then I thought to think and have thoughts. Its weird to say but I am hurting from thinking, like thoughts are needles in my brain, Jabs of pain with each tracing set of words that transverse the grey matter.
I will be back in a bit, It feels like you are the only ones I have tonight.
Good day humans and non-humans, how the mortality and existence tasked me today. For the sense of the of sleep evated me all last night and I passed out today for the day. That is ok as the jimmy is on nights too, so me and the jimmy can hang out tonight, also so some long form recordings to escape the world tonight. Just to have some happiness spread across the world with a little bit of love. Just because I am the way I am and will not sacrifice myself to the demons of humans’ needs of standard sleeping patterns. Just to make me sound like a bad ass and hope the world does not see the facade. I am not having a simple thing like the shift of night and days mess me up.
I have had a bit of a hard time with humans again, how they task me so much, however it is me I think and my brain, just having a hard time understanding you things. I have my own life in great examples. From the ones who once judged me, now they are getting married to their first cousin. After having my tumor diagnosis that I was not to be around the kids in the family, for what reason my tumor had to do with kids I do not know. Then the ones who tried to run and then they decided that the life they ran away from still follows them down each mile. So I am just struggling with humanity and why they do what they do.
It just bothers me that the world lives to its own titles given to the ones who created them. I don’t know much about any thing, just enough to make it be even I know that the world is greater than I. Think of the world and the people in it and wonder why it seems that the world has become more and more retarded. Not lacking anything in that word, truly a retarded growth that the people are living in. Then again we still have to put “don’t drink contents” on car batteries. Honestly why and if we have to, then I think the world would be better off without us. I just do not understand why humans are so, well, stupid.
So with all of this, I have one cinema way of explaining it, The Village, Decent movie, but holds something true that I have been looked at with concern or laughter. The only reason the whole thing failed, why such a great system to raise family and have a small town to maintain themselves. They kept a retard, hate me for saying it but the whole point of the movie and the downfall of a dream to have a world where peace and neutrality are common is sympathy for the weakest of the group. I am not here to say it is what to do, just we suffer a lot at our own hand. Just a crazy world we live in with self-induced pain, suffrage, dismay just to have a reason to speak.
Rise and shine you wonderful being you, how I hope the day has been kind to you. That the day has been rewarding yet hopeful for a better future for you.
The day has been interesting, and I have a good start to it. From the chickens being happy cluckers, the cats being loving as always and the doggos are napping after morning breakfast and run outside to evacuate the biological waste. So, things are moving along wonderfully, and I have much to be happy about, the only thing I have to worry about right as this second, so I thought I spend some time with you lovely people.
With a lot going on around me and the world is turning, I have begun to find things changing, growing. From the resolution of my heart to the bounty of the written word, things are just content. I rather not have a sense of the worldly happiness, as that is a fluid concept that is never possible to hold long. Where in the land of the content, the times have become barren of the joy and enveloped it the discord of humans need to give human aspect to everything. A rather tuberous means of existence but one that death and misery is the only teacher as the world now has lost its common sense.
Broken are the means of family, burned by the shadows formed of secrets and disloyalty in the family. The basket of nourishments is no longer share to the family but burned so the carriers are and secret holders are the only fed ones. If I am to be so wrong about this then why have we killed kindness with obligations, why have we begun to bathe in the tears and pain of the young. Why is the world so content with child abusers and rapist leading nations. To be honest, it’s because the majority of humanity has lost its humanity in sacrifice for imaginary values created by the molesters of innocence. People do realize that right, that the people who hold out moneys value and the ones who determine it are the ones we say should be in jail. Such hypocrisy, we want you in jail for the crimes but still want you to give us the means to have an income system based one pedos ideals. That is humanity, sacrifice the ones to the shadows so the light can be comfortable.
The tress of humanity and lineage have now been burned to ash by the ghost’s flame. The truth spoken though the dead have become our means to realize are killing us and only the ones who have spoken so kindly with the shadows keeper know of this truth. That the human race rather the dead speak the truth silently, while the living gives the words to the dead to speak, but never be heard. I feel not sympathy for the living anymore, but for the dead who scream out in silent truth so we could live a better life. Being ignorant is just far to easy for people to really care though.
That is at least my thoughts and how I tend to ponder things time to time. I must depart as I have tasks to take care of, they won’t take care of themselves.
Good morning you wonderful people, how I hope your day is as wonderful as you are. As it takes time and effort to be wonderful, life is really a river of crap and we have few options when dealing with it.
The day is planned out as a few things to be done and I have a lot of desire to get things done, That and I am also starting the quit smoking ark of my life. To remove the desire to just live better and have more energy to bask the world in. That and I want to live past a few people in my life as I have plans for them as well. Not dark plans but just plans.
So the day is starting with the current ideas for the day, I have to plain down some boards not just for the wood shavings but I have to make shipping boxes for the step father. I want to be able to have at least 50 boxes done today, just to help.
What is the next plan of the day right now, one more coffee and then the dishes, makes for a great start of the day. I am just a content ginger who is happy to exist. I have thoughts I wish to share, some may be stupid, some smart, all honest.
I shall be back later and I have much to do I just need a few to wake up and have the day prepped for me.
Good morning wonderful being of life, how I hope the day has been kind to you. As the days have past I had to attend to things that are not digital, various things but they are done and I am a happy ginger right now. From the days of deep cold to the hours of warmth we are now feeling, the time of existence has been wonderful.
The “Why” Of it all that i meant to post is the “why” we do what we do and why I find great hilarity in the musings of the human race, from the worldly issues, to the issues in the human condition and the human desire. Two vastly different things that are mixed up constantly.
So one of the major things humans have to realize is that the most according thing that makes people do what they do is a base fear. Think of the fear like this, I wont do this thing because I fear being caught or the fear of the ones in your life to find out. Then the fear if loss of money and wealth, Why would a low paying person risk the things they have as they don’t have in excess is money so they cant risk court, they cant risk being shunned. So the crimes are not of the rich and famous. For the soul reason they have the ability to pay or have the means to keep others silent are they able to so the abuse they do. Also one thing we cannot reduce in humans, is the craving to destroy.
So with all the people on Epstein island are shocking people, I have yet to be surprised, they are what they are. Most people who have over 1 million in the bank and have access to kids, as the whole world does, they will start destroying the things they can never get back. Just to have the ability others can’t have what you can never have again. They take little girls virginity, little boys pride in being a boy, kill and eat them out of the desire to take away the things these things because people are not allowed to have what the rich can’t have. Once a taste of that power, people just wont stop. It gives them a god complex as to take the innocence is the closest thing they will ever be again to any sense, so they must destroy what makes them ugly.
Why do people do the things they do in heinous means, because they can and they want too. A person with no fear and money to make things go away, they will do what they want. Even with all the people on the list being released wont fear a thing. Drag them to court, they will never see a metal bar in the prison, why, because they are the directors of the movie we call life. You really think anyone would not take advantage of that, then you have a blind view of the human condition. Every person is capable, has carnal wants but it is the very few with the greater mentality are cast aside. For mentality of care and kinship is not found in humans, it is only found in the pain and the isolations of minds who refuse to become what that majority are. Animals, filthy, raping, killing animals. Everyone seems to forget that, we are not above the ape, we are not above the animal kills for lust. The only thing that makes us different in any way is language. Pathetic to those who cant see that.
Until later
Don’t listen to those who are selling you anything, from car to ideal, from a god to a answer, no one has the answer you want. They will sell you a lie to manifest truth to it.
Good morning most wonderful humans of the digital existence. How I hope you are doing well today. I have many a plans to get done today but I have to gain the ambition to start. First of course, I need food as the energy levels are low. So I need carbs to gain the energy for the day. with out that nothing will get done.
There I just ate and waiting for the food to hit, the guts then off to the races to get things done. Already feel the foods start to turn in the tummy and soon the energy will be back. Then I have to get up and get some basic things done before stepping back to the Chibis book. I have to get some shavings made for the chickens and then make sure they are happy and I can move along to the next thing. The inside of the house is not bad but can use a touch up and maybe some extra things done, just because.
So the morning so far has been good, the puppies are napping on the bed that remains unmade, the snores are adorable. I have the fan on and the cool breeze is turning the air nicely. The sense of turning air and the smell of the candles lit. Just makes me a happy critter and a happy critter gets lots done when it comes to chores. I want to also make sure the birds are happy and the cats are good. Oh Oh, I wonder if I could insolate the bird house. Sounds like I could easily but the winter months make a slight difficulty as I done want them freeze when making adjustments. The pretty birds deserve better then being cold like that.
Ahh the stomach is now churning like a cement mixer running smoothly and turning out the best feelings when seeing a clean happy pour. Just a good feeling and I have another half a omelet to go and I am saving that for second breakfast. I am just happy to exist today, a odd feeling but a good feeling.
I do have to depart and get the day started, as the things to be done will not get themselves done on their own. So I must attend to them, Just hope you have a great day as well.
Good morning you wonderful beings of life and chance, How I hope you are having a wonderful day and take the things that make you feel whole with a touch of grace.
So the day is going to be amazing as I have been up for a bit and the coffee is good. The days are warming up and the days have grown longer. The times are changing and I could not be happier in the existence I have right now. From working on the visual novel and this, to work on the chores and having the power inside to make sure the house is clean.
As the morning is moving along and I am on the tail end of my second coffee, I should be thinking of what I want to get done today. Other then cleaning the shop up a bit to help in the productions I am part of. Just so the clutter does not overtake walking space. That is a dangerous thing to do. Oh and I want to get the shavings out so I can make sure the girls stay warm. That is a very important part of the day I want to do. Cannot have the feathered queens get cold as they will not produce eggs and that is a major issue as I need the fats and protein I need to keep warm. As I burn about 2000-2500 cals a day just staying warm and burning energy to get things done. People in offices and such do not worry about those things, I also find the same issue with them living that way is major depression. I have never seen a truly happy office worker, but I have seen a truly happy woods man.
Oh I do need one more coffee, I just did the morning stretch out and the brain asked for one more. So I much indulge the brain, and get one more coffee. That way I can work on this a bit longer and then move onto the days tasks. Not a whole lot to take care of first thing as I wait for the day to warm up just a bit. I will not be wasting time as I have the inside chores that need to have handled.
From the dishes to the floors I would not mind getting ahead of them and have them done for the day. Just because it is nice to be able to work on the project with out worry of chores.
The day is starting with a bang! The bang is the progress I have made much progress in the book and now have things set up so I can have a way to make my recordings better. Just making another step forward in my attempts to make something of myself. Just because I want to matter to me, not to the world but me. So I shall get there one day and with it my imagination will be enjoyed.
I have much to work on but this little bugger is becoming loved deeply by me, a being of determination and creativity. A good Chibi-Tulu who just wants to be part of the earning world too even though many consider him a harbinger of pain and suffering. Really, he is just another soul that feels misplaced in his life and wants to have a chance to prove he is more then the rumors and idle talk, he is Chibi-Thulu, and has the right to live in the minds of millions.
Moving onto the better things that are to be delt with, the dishes are ready to be done, the laundry needs tending, the cats need the foods and water, same as the chickens. Not saying they are out but they need it to be filled at all times or at least a bit. Just incase it gets a bit colder and they need more calories to make the body heat needed.
So the birds and the cats are doing wonderful and so is the jimmy next door. That brick house of a dog is so loving and caring, aggressive with the slurps but all in all, a very good dogo. The puppies inside the house are also finding there way to the morning nap spots they all have, mostly on my bed but who can argue with the cute puppers. They all have love to give and I don’t mind the love of a half a bed to sleep in as they take the rest. The midnight snuggles and the times between the morning and the dark is something of a time of rest and love. Beholding that luxury I have with the animals, I am a very lucky being.
So all in all another day of happy and making sure the sire of my mind still holds strong and the tasks of the day do not become a pretentious existence.
Good day you wonderful being of life and love, how I hope your time and life has been wonderful. As the day moves ever so graciously I am in the world of thinking of getting some things done that I am little behind on. I want to get the one set of images all put together into a comic and get it uploaded here. Other places as well, but here first.
So I have a bit top do but in all regards to the real amount of work tasked to the day of others, not all that bad as I am just a happy critter with no real means of pain. Except my face, that always seems to be a pain. Just doing some work on the book and hopefully get to the ability to have some recordings done.
This is the best pair to ever exist, well to me at least. They are to me what the sun is to the planet. I have been ever so lucky to have a mind to create such things and have them develop into a story of the ages. To be honest to develop such a critter is to have a grace that is bound to me. I know a lot of people have their opinions of AI in the use of making are. I am a shitty artist but have a story to tell. If I was rich then I would pay to get it done, sadly I am a not rich and cannot afford to pay a artist or I would.
So the day is set in a type of soft stone, ferm but still has a chance to be molded into something different, but for now, I am just a happy critter who needs to get some food as I am starting to feel the illness from the hunger.
Good morning you wonderful beings of life and love, How I hope your day has been as wonderful as you are. See what I did there, if your a dick I hope you get a dick day. The relations of words is wonderful as you can say so much with such little words. Just a great thing the we have created, a combination of back handed compliments and passive aggressive comments can be amazing. However they are a power never meant to be abused as this will be a scenario where the word gifted such power become nothing but pustules of rot. We already do that enough to fill a pool, lets not corrupt the best of us with the most “lacking” in the world. The things we have become are not the best of us and not the worst of us, just a melodramic version of us with no direction. A crossroad if you will that will become the outcome, thing is people don’t see the cross road.
As a thought I have had for a long time and have tried to break through is that we have a chance to change things as long as we looked into the mirror. A chance to see the changes we can make is clouded by the worlds sense of Right, wrong, decent, indecent among various other words that could describe the current existence. I guess I should explain what I mean, So the best way to do that is the vague idea we have any sense of the true right and wrong. We have a very messed up sense of right and wrong. We have dictated the right and wrong from a human view and not a universal view. A good way to explain it is the bee effect. We will die without bees, they are a key development in the pollination of the flowers. However we have not given them a second thought as a species. We just burn through time as a being of importance but the importance is a false narrative. We are a product of the environment and yet the environment is something we burn.
Now to say I am a tree hugger is a far cry from the truth, as I am not blind to the needs of the human form and know we need the earths mean of food. However, through the simple observation of the wild and the industrial trying to mimic it is a fools errand. Though not being a biologist, it is easy to see the downfall of structures of food production and yet they are hidden behind a curtain of media fomentation. They bask in the sugars of this sweet world but when turned to a bitter alcohol we blame the compounds not the actions we took to mix the compounds. We blame what we do not know for the actions we take, it is a weird excuse.
The collations of the world to create a darkness that we think we know about but know nothing about really anything. From worshiping the pedophilias that have eaten children and worse at the alter of the t.v. and when the truth is finally shown to the people, they don’t care as it was not the worshipers who suffered. That is the greatest example of the human condition. They don’t care if people are eating and raping children, have things done to the youth that would take your soul and turn it black. They don’t care if infants are brutalized to a point that it would make the crusades look like a birthday part for a child. Yet still on our knees we beg for them to tell us what to think, believe, worship and what to do when they are questioned of means. Kill detractors, and it works, have you not see them dropping like flies. Have you not noticed the death of so many that all they asked was for the people to reflect on reality and not narration.
Its kind of sick in a funny way. People become the worst to make sure the best cannot be seen. Such a human thing to do.
Very short introduction but I am working on a visual novel that will not have any words written but all things being expressed through the art. Now I know its AI, but all the work I have done is creating the story, having a idea of all the things to happen. From the future to the current creation, Chibi-Thulu will be our Guardian.
So this is it so far, getting the hang of disxcriptions and how to talk to AI. All in all I am very happy how this is coming.
Well there is something I have been working on lately and I am happy with how it has turned out so far. I am trying to make a comic that is different then the types that have been produced a lot. So I have made a Chibi-Thulu comic, so far it is only a couple panels long, but it is in the progress to be all wrapped up. Just trying to make this one to have to do with night and that is it. Then the next will show the day light over the night happenings. This is just a happy little project I am working on and I think it is going to be awesome.
This is just the first of the many I have done so far and I am very happy how he has turned out so far. Just something that I have made and it makes me happy to have this little project in my lap and I want to keep it going for a long time. For he is the choices we can make but chose not too. Just a little critter that is better then us but is also the exact thing we can become if we just try. A simple endeavor but all in all a important one for me to have done.
So I have many plans but I am trying to find the one who is best for me, a life long journey for all of us.
All in all things are going well and I hope that the day is going to be kind. I want to make sure the day is used to be productive and not reductive. Just to make sure the day ends in knowing that I was able make things better. So there is lots to do and I am not able wait much longer to start as the coffee needs refilling and the story needs to expand.
Rise and shine you wonderful creations of life and love. How I have become armored in your vast thoughts of the world. With the ever turning tides of the oceans and the rivers flowing so that the world moves in grace and humility. With the sun giving us the value of universal ideals. The sun is the key to the life we have, the solar system is not unique and is something of vast chance and obscure motions of a universe that is not cruel, not kind, but exist in its glory of absolute random events.
With the toils of the world at my minds back door, a thought but not of any true concern, humans do what humans do. If the end comes then it comes and what more then trying to live, trying to make it through the day with a grace that is not found in humanity, but in the nature of the universe.
So I managed to get a sandwich made and had breakfast, coffee of the second cup type has been brewed and is delicious, The dogs are fed and happy as they take the morning nap on my bed. Just a harmonious and lovely morning with all the things coming together to have a good day. Just a day of productivity and might even have a comic out today. Just to have a chance to show I am still here making things.
So with all that I have much to do today and still have much to complete that is awaiting daylight. Not that daylight is required to do such jobs just that I like the daylight to give much enthusiasm to the requirements to the day and why I must attend to these things. With the music of the past filling the air with a peace and harmony that is found not in the notes, not in the existence, but the combination of notes and the universal harmony of the universe. Though complicated and something that has become a gift to those who are able to hear it. It is a joy that is unequal to any other presence of tune. Just a good morning to help the mind to find love of being and existence. \
However the comic and the tales of the future are far from written and to commit myself to them, it takes time to do such things and must attend to them.
Good morning you wonderful beings of life you, how I wish you the day you have earned and nothing more and nothing less. With the morning being born kindly and the coffee is being delicious as always.
So the day is tasked with only one thing other then the usual, just have to do some plaining to get boards down to the proper thickness. That way the pops can get stuff shipped and stuff. Just something that has to happen so the world keeps turning on its current course. Even though the course may not be natural and may not be part of he nature of the universe.
Good times today I am sure of it, as it has become warmer out, giving warmth that the small birds are out and about, giving me the song of peace they sing so beautifully. From them to the chickens clucking about and enjoying the longer and warmer days. Soon they will be eating bugs and such as the days will be warm enough for them.
The dogs are going to need some extra love today as I just feel they need some extra love today. Dogs are great and they do have the most wonderful way of showing love, from kisses to the slurps that leave you what just happened as you recover from the slurps. Might see if I have the ingredient’s to make dog bisques.
So I have some of the day planed and I am hoping that I am able to get a bunch of recordings done so I can upload them as well. I am just in a good and productive mood so who knows what the plan is. Oh oh one thing I should mention is that I am going to see about working on comic book about Chibi-thulu and his adventures. Just to have something else that is being produced and I have pride in as I am earnest to make something I am proud of. Just because I am loving the idea of giving the little dude a life of adventure and chaos.
So that is going to be the plan of the day and I will be back to bug you wonderful people. May the day be kind to you.
Good day to you wonderful human you, how I hope the day is as kind to your brain as the picture above. Just a happy little brain who is happy to be alive and not stressed. It is not hard to be stressed this time of year. We are just getting out of the darkness of the deep winter, the days slowly grow longer and the nights grow shorter. In the darkness of the night I have found many things but only in the day are we able to dance in the wonders of life.
So the day has been wonderful in the sense I got the morning nap in after bein gup for a while last night, so I am hopping that I am able to get the day filled with the goods of getting more of the things I have been missing out on. Like this and recording more books. Just got brain clustered and had to realize things are not piling up like I thought they were.
So I am just going to get another coffee and come back and see what next profound thoughts and world changing ponderings I have, kidding of course.
Woot woot got the plants watered and dishes done, next is going to be floors and the frabreezing the living room so it smells all lovely, Just a good day and getting things done. The next thing I should attend too is the chickens and the out door cats need love too. Even the dogs are getting a bit extra love and having the extra pets.
All in all the morning has been wonderful and I should focus on some other things and might be back later, unsure.
Good day wonderful humans of the digital persuasion, how the night is wonderful to me and I hope that it is wonderful to you as well. For I am in a thoughtful state and I am pondering much. From the unnecessary to the profound in my views. From the simple pondering of the snow flakes that fall upon the ground, to the request for honor from the most devious monsters of the world. Just having a chance to see things I never thought possible.
So I have been pondering the human example of what is human, what makes the things in the world so powerful over them and why the same thing confuses others. Just wondering the world in my mind and thinking of all the wonders out there.
One thing that has made me think of the ones out there who suffer with no one to talk to, no one who they can express fears and hopes in the mind with others as they stand to only have the views we impress upon them. From the rich to the politicians, to the social important to the ones in great ventures that are filled with gold. When is the last time they ever had a chance to truly talk to someone. When is the last time they could be honest with another human. A human who seeks nothing but conversation and to understand, I often wonder what lays in their minds.
I would love to have the chance to be that person, I dont have a active social life and I do not want to gain money or gifts. I would just love to converse with them, give them a out that has no means to used them, no means to abuse them, or even threaten them with information. No lawyers no ndas, I rather just have the trust of a human given to me so I know they are ok.
Just the thing is, I am curious of the human condition in them, IO cant see them being ok truly as i fear that they have a fear of people and trusting them in any way. That is not fair, though they are rich in money, I would fear they are poor in a chance to have a person who only cares for the being, not the beings worth. \
I just think they have a to offer just they are afraid of the world not getting what they want out of them, as the people who praise and condemn them are the only friends they have. No one is there to just listen to them.
Good day to you wonderful beings you, how I hope you have the best day that is laying a head of you. For the day can be of many things, From getting a head start on the things that matter, from family to dishes, we all have a task that beckon us to the world at hand. Many times over the years I have had to taken time to calm the brain. Sometimes it becomes a task and a half to jusdt get the days done and not having a shit day. What I am saying is that the world can be a hard place to live in, fighting your brain and the world around you can be very hard to live in. Just take the time and help the brain breath again. Sometimes the day needs to be just yours, just to take a few days and have time to heal up. At least we can do that in the existence we have. Take that as very lucky as many have not.
Even went to the shop this morning got my smoke and then got my subway, just wanted something different today and got it. Not too often do I go out and do something for myself, so I did and now I am just in digestion period then get wood and start the fire. Just a happy day that has much to it but all is good.
So the day is planned out and I have a good feeling that it will be a great day to get things done, from the chickens to the cats. All things will be in the book will be check off the list. Oh and chickamaroos got the new lights in and they are much warmer. I did not want the wonderful egg producing ladies get cold. That is just bad juju and you do not mess with the bad juju. Like hurting a baby kitten or puppy, that is the kind of shit that gets one stuck in the worst hells available. I even think that is too kind to those bastards. Not saying they are not redeemable, just have to change a lot to become welcomed into my heart again, perhaps never. Forgiveness is not mine to give. It is a quest to those who seek it.
The world is crazy and I have much thinking to do when it comes to my future, as I am at a impasse, I need to make the choice that is going to be the choice for the rest of my life. Just because, I do want to have a chance to have a life but I am wondering if the life living is the one I want. I am just contemplating that fact that the woods have given me the most happiness in my being. Though I know that the world is not a kind one in the concrete in cold and only happy when heated by conflict. The woods are just a different type of the world I am hoping to die in but worry the world will inject it desires into my life. Just to demand the cooccurrence of the world and not be a being in enticed wonder.
However I am in the need to get up and take off to get things done, As things are awaiting for me.
It is very chilly out today, so to hell with going outside and dealing with that cold weather. -33 with Celsius and -26 Fahrenheit. So in other words, bone chilling cold with a touch of losing digits if you are out there too long. So I rested today and now I want to do something but I am unsure what I want to do. Start a fire, clean who knows, I might even sleep some more, just to catch up on the rest I have some of that to do.
Just have been having some really hard time getting some sleep and now I want to make sure I am good to go. That way I am good to go and make sure I don’t have lost sleep and have the day messed up. I am getting tired and exhausted from this very messed up sleep schedules. It is a wear and tear on the strength and tolerance of my mind. I wish I could blame it on shitty sleeping habits and inappropriate time for coffee. So I have to make sure that I get that figured out. Just don’t wanna go cray cray to early in life. Just a little cray cray for now.
All in all I am just happy that life is moving along and I should get up and get the fire going and have the house warmed up, just so I know that the toes will not become chilled in the night. For if the toes get cold, then that is just a terrible morning or what ever time of the day it is. Or night. So the plan is I guess that I will be starting to get the house warmed up, the night will take the task of getting the house cleaned, the things done that have to be done so I can have a happy fam. I am just trying to make sure I get the times set straight. Soon enough it will time to start the world outside. As the world is not but a clay we must hold and design to help the wild and the city become something worth being proud of.
All in all I do have to depart, stories need reading, voices need to be recorded and my sweater is calling my name to be wrapped up in. So I will work on that and soon have the next book ready to go.
Good very early morning most wonderful beings of life, I do hope your night is as good as mine. For I have found a peace and love in my life that I am just happy to be alive. That is a odd thing in my books as having a terrible time with things in my head at times. I am happy I have been on a great track lately. Just the voices are not as bad as they usually are, no longer being bantered inside my head by memories of a worse time and he fight I have with myself when the noise inside gets bad. So I just want to share my joy about this.
One of the many things I wish to attend to today is chickens, cats, dogs and such, just to have some fun with them. I might make some trails in the snow so they can run and play. That and I might have to build a igloo as well. Just because I can and it is great exorcise in the winter, as lots of the people in the western world have become fatties. I will not become one, I did that when I was a teen and now, no hotdog pack neck, extra chins, forehead flap, Fupa having, back tittied, rub burn between the legs, nasty sweaty bitch for me. I was there, so I can say that shit. lol.
So the morning is wonderful, just perfect for the brain and body, a good day, a ginger day. So the plans are going to be simple while I am up, floors, kitchen is still clean, living room, get a fire going and have the house warm and happy. That way the dogs can lay in front of the stove and snooze, I can work on this stuff and reading more books online. Just a overall good day, a day worth living. Not saying other days are not worth living, just that this day is extra.
So with that onto you loverly people, I hope you are doing well. As I know the world can tax you in ways that leave you feeling disillusioned with the promises of the world. Though the child like view we once had is a lie, the world is not here for you but exist for the time you are here. Bad times come and go, much like bad cases of having the diarrhea. Things will pass and life will move on. I have many a tales when in the past I could tell, times of struggle and times of confinement. They are but the past and have no weight on the being I wish to be. As not the past is giving you a future, your choices in the now does.
The world still burns the souls of many people, for the is the human way these days. We thing we have become better then we once were but that is a lie. Slavery still exist and is more popular then ever, we hate more now then 20 years ago the skin color of people, we are letting crime and human casualty become currency. We claim more and more ownership of concepts and ideals that we want to own people in souls. Religion has become a murderous cult again and now we are facing the crimes of the past. We have given so much to the ones who are above us in the sense that we are willing to give our freedom and sense of choice away for habitual lies and cornification of basic sense and decorum.
Some may ask why, and it has become self induced, Think slowly and of all the things we have laid before us, equality and sense all are equal (just not true in any way) has taken away the majestic view of humanity, we once were able to see beauty in all things of the person, now we only see beauty in the ones who seem to be casted from jealousy and vitriol for the ones who seek beauty in the different.
I rather have 1000 different personalities to death with as 1000 beautiful things can be thought of and not one would be the same as the others. Yet now we stare into the void of similarities in all, devotions to art in none. That leaves us with nothing but a past to wish for and a future of pre-selected pain and grief, kind of a state of child like results of not getting their way with mom and dad when they had a summer with grandpa and grandma. The people have no desire to be better, they had everything they wanted in the past and want it back. Not caring that cost or the implications that we are becoming more like babies in the sense of whining until we get what we want. The things we get though, are a poison to all life.
So I just wanted to say, work for your time and don’t work dictate your time. We all have one thing in limited source. Time, we cannot buy it back, bargain for it, we can’t work for more and we can’t beg for it back. So take what time you have and make sure it is not burned in the fire of obscurity.
Well, Good morning to you, I hope the day has come to you with kindness and the truth that the world is more a lie and conscripted to a narration that beauty is a standard and not a opinion. It is weird as the thing we used to believe in was the unique view of a human was the most beautiful. Then I decided to go down a very disturbing rabbit hole. One with a very dark history, path ahead and outcome.
So this was the first thing that I looked into and how the very thing being advertised, monstrous beings of human decay. Found that over the past few years that the people who are called actors and actress’s. I find the majority of them clowns but that is here nor there. I am just, well I don’t how else to put it, but they are now becoming a 1970’s horror villain looking thing. I mean the word thing, as they look so inhuman that I am wondering if they even are something that is really human at all. They have gone on drugs and under the knife, so much so that algorithms have begun to look to create images that look like them is to be pretty. Just disturbing as the things that have to face a mirror and hate the reflection so much that they have to become insect looking thing. With out a doubt a very insect looking, that one picture of Miley Cyrus or whatever her name is, looks like a damn grasshopper from a bugs life in the face. What the hell is going on, Are we seriously meant to be attracted to such things. I rather not have interactions with such creatures as they are something that is very wrong with them. A serious manifestation of self importance and disguised horrors as beauty and some kind of being we are supposed to want to be. Nah, I rather be a mildly unattractive ginger then even come close to those “things”.
Second is the concept that the world is slowly becoming sexualized and the desire to be more youthful and more desired as younger ages. This is a sickening concept as the human race is almost trying to molest the youth out of the children. A jealously that is slowly turning the world in to child predators and have been making reasons to say why it is ok. To the ones who do this, are you in sexual desire of the world of youth, or has the reality of your being made you hate the youth so much. I find it sickening that the beauty found in the youth is being raped by the decrepit old and the surgical manipulation into a plasticine like look. Not long ago we wrote books of horror and disgust about how the new age looks. Completely in-human, they have become a creature that is insectoid and further and further from human in any way.
With the desires to become perfect in the eyes of this digital manipulation, to become everything they are told to be and when they become 25-30, they are left in the cold and are no longer desired in any way. Not to feel sympathy for them, they ate what they were served, they are now plastic and faker then the ideals they follow.
Now I could go on but the things I would say are repeated in all of the basic knowledge of how we don’t stick unnatural things in our bodies. We used to have a song about that in pre-school. Do we have to send them back to that. Then again I would not want to have them emotionally broken and phycological immature around kids. Just disturbing and kind of fun to watch people claim they are beautiful with the most disgusting reflections in the mirror.
But I have to go and get more recordings done and see how the world turns in the chaos of it all.
Good afternoon to you and all of your beings of life and limb, to the ones with out limbs, I am sorry for your loss. However, I went to understand the world as a micro and not a macro. Why things have developed into a intellectual decay and into a recorder based species. We no longer pass down the things and discovery that once made us a species of true development. We are not just recording the information and using it to develop minds. We are just a old VHS tape and we are recording over and over again just to have the information but without understanding the old information. So the information is fragmented and never understood as it is not but a memory that is pieced together from things we think are memories but are just manifestations of a clueless thought.
So what I mean, as a species we have not become as developed as out technology has. The times have shown that we live in a world that celebrate the mediocrity, we have become the very thing we use to clamor about years ago. Things like children protection, development of science that is not changing the world without proof of the outcome before dictations of use. Such a odd thing as you would think the development of tech would allow us to do more in the world as a good.
I am curious as to why we have become such a aligned with the decrepit and use the technology to become more dark in the shadows then bringing light to the world. So I was just thinking that we are something special and we can make it through the times we face. The truth is that we are not special and we are not here as a gift. We evolved into a being that has the chance and once had the chance to be better, once had the chance to show that we are capable of thoughts and feelings more then skin deep. Then again we still struggle as a species with others of our kind, we struggle with the very basics of humanity and struggle to make it through.
I have often wondered why we hate so much, why we have become a species that is something that chooses to hate. We hate through the means of skin color, we hate through religion telling them to hate, we listen to the ones who tell us how we feel about the world and not just give us the information and allow us to think for ourselves. It is something that confuses me a lot. Since I thought we were meant to discover and not just sit in past discoveries. It is a very odd thing, to sit in the refuse of the past so the future is predictable.
I am still just stuck in the thought cycle but I am seeing the cycle over and over again. How we are still in a place when personalities, skin tones and thoughts are enough to kill and take the place of the ones who are not “on the list of approval”. It is a hidden way that is laying in plain sight, it is very confusing and I am waiting for the world to snap all those lines they have created and I can say, I told you so. I am exciting awaiting that day, when the people I have talked to and tried to show the reality of things. They just refuse to see what it is. So some may say its cruel, some may say its not nice, some even say its wrong to say I told you so. Well one thing they all have in common is two things, One is that they were told and did not listen and got burned and hate being reminded about it, and those who know they are the ones who fight against the truth but they are too scared and afraid of the truth and hate those who try to explain it.
This is a truth in time, a obstante and stubborn people are the ones who lead us and yet are the ones who are most guilty of these crimes of prevention of human development. So why let them make your life burn and why let them become your leaders. To me leaders don’t exist anymore, they are people who we hope make a difference but in all honesty, we know they only care for themselves. So why listen, why become a subrogate to a system that wants you dead or so close to it that you just fall in line.
I honestly don’t get it, why people choose this line of life, then again when I get thinking, I do get it, I really do. They don’t want to try, they don’t want see truth in pain and it is becoming clearer desire to become a forgotten essence just so no one can judge you. We face the judgment of the real world when it burns because we all know how to stop it from happening, just we refuse because it would make the ones who stand, well it makes them look crazy and broken. Even though so many understand them and see the same thing, they fear the truth and how much it burns. The bridge has become nothing more then toothpicks holding up a train. So I am just going to watch and when some come to ask why I chose not to help. I can say with clarity, I tried to help, I tried to give ideas, in the end, the ones who come in those times, are the same ones who said I was so wrong I must be retarted or something. So why would I help the ones who cursed my name before hand.
However I am just pondering and need food, I need substance to make sure my being does not fail. Then I am off to recordings, just to make sure I keep up.
Something that has a latch bore into my mind, a lock and key that holds closed a door, a door simply enough that it is not a door to another world. Nor to another dimension or timeline, nor to another thought, or another god. It is a latch and key that the world is incapable of opening, as it is a key found not in material or kinship, it is a key found in the written word of obscure and the most obscene creations of humanity in the written words of honesty, of the truths that are not in the lies of humanities, but in the truths of the word written in the dark on parchment of secret truths.
Downfalls are not in the character of man in this world, but the character of the cities and countries. When they are falling mankind just burns through it, at the cost of all things we once had in stored knowledge of the written word. However when the downfalls call, it calls forth the many into a harvest of skin and bone. You can see it in many of the so called cities of the world now.
Its is the forced breeding of cultures and religions into lands that are already home to the religious and cultures. We have become unaware that the deaths of these creatures of gods, gods don’t care, the people will burn and be skinned in the name of their god. We can’t bring to another nation the complexity of the original nations. Have we not seen the blood stain the grounds of all the people who fight for a god that had turned their back on them.
We fill the silence of thought and reason in a mind with no ambition with a mind filled with the declarations of the ones who fanatically become leaders. That is a wrong, leaders is the wrong word, more of a inbreeding of not people but ideals without the friction of a thought or the manifestations of reasons. They kill without thought of why, They reason the hate with words of the ones who told them how to think. Have you ever noticed how we have forgotten all the times this has happened. From smokey the bear and so on, we created mascots to drive solutions of the time. If you know the lore then you know that Smokey The Bear lead to a massive issue with forest fires the toon tried to prevent. Without cleaning of downfall and degree under trees that is constantly used by campers for fire. When we were told that campfires were scary, and not to be trusted, well that lead to a massive buildup of all the material unburned and when lighting struck. The fuel was endless due to the precautions of the few held over the many.
Such things are the main state of the world I live in, things are no longer true or dictation of facts are forbidden to the mind of the people. It would show and give us the clarity that the past 35 years has been nothing but lies told to us and justified by, well nothing but the words on the shinny box, tv.
From HIV lies that broke up families in the 90s, as it was heavily broadcasted that you could get HIV by touching a family members hands. Seriously, they broke apart families for the fear created in obvious lies. To the bacterium test when they dusted subways with a active bacterium that now has indicators in the rise of disabilities and the mutations in babies developing. We have taken a shot recently that has for ever changed the structure of your very being. To the point that women are looking for non-vax sperm. The cases of down syndrome and autism have come close to doubling in all vaxed. Yet the many still listen to the salesman and take everything they are selling. I think that is a bad case of retardation of the masses.
We give so much to the world that has destroyed us in almost all possible ways, and still creates more ways to wrap everyone into silence and a comfort of lies. It is devastating that we are in a want it mind set, we are in a mindset of the “please take me Mr. government and tell me how to live, even though all sciences are screaming don’t do it.” I have many times looked at the people and wondered why the world has become consciously retarded. Without the notice of the many we condemn the few who just want to be left alone. Maybe because they have a sight you cannot see, a thought that others cannot manage to think. All because it was not fed to the few, but the few went to the wild and found out things on their own. The few become the wrong now, but become the ones the social devout come running too. Thing is this time around, we want nothing to do with the many. To be honest the few more often then not see them as a problem waiting to happen. The many will always be the many, once a greater power comes and says sit. They will sit and behave against the ones who saved them as they are told they are wrong, even though life was saved by the few.
I really am thinking the few will be all that is left, as the many eat each other, literally, the ones who think food comes from grocery stores, the ones who think that fresh water is everywhere. Thirst will consume you to killing others for the liquids inside, for the forbidden meat that lies in the neighbor. Sound extreme but is not the outcome seen a million times before. Has this not be documented over the historical time lines just as much. Yet the blind have become the leaders we must follow over the edge, because we were told the blind have great insight.
I am unsure of the crazy world, but I am sure I am not going to walk over that edge as so many have.
The world turns ever so much in a way that confuses me, takes my wonder, my desire to see the human future. I have come to a point that I have not only self studied the time of humanities but have taken time to understand the self decay of the human essence. I am often pondering what is left for the future, what is the remainder, what is the lesson taught. That skin is the definer of the human capability, that the means of crime is innocent as long as it is one color on another. Such a pathetic and meaningless fight, why I am so glad that my refusal of the world and living among the trees has been the best thing for me. It has given me the chance to study the reality of humanity. The reality is that people are really really stupid. To the extent that people are believing the most absurd things. Why, I think it is because the humans have begin to realize they just don’t matter, they have realized the only way for them to even have their name shared it to destroy things that matter more then them.
They come and go like a cold but this disease is more of a STD of the mind, as a syphilis type of illness that rots the very inside of the human core. In a way that the humans have become the very disease that will kill them. The human cause is no longer in sense of wonder, but a sense of control so the thoughts of the few are forced into the homes of the many. Even in faith people have edited scripture in the past few years to match the times in burning, not to have the original means of kinship and development. To have a city built on the insecurities of the few so the many have to decrepit their minds to even be on the same level. To have the entire society in a retarted formulations of thought. Not in the slow growth like the trees around me, the flowers being bulbs then just one day they flower. Not force the flowering.
Then again the slow growth and understanding the soil is no longer a fear and worry of the human world as they have lived too long on the isles of false nourishment. Humans have become indolence in obscurity and given means to hate and do so with pride. The break down of the true is not something that happens with time but malicious cruelty to make sure the confused stay confused. That the world in its whole is becoming a special education teacher leading a bunch of handicap kids into a fire. When they cry and say its hot, the teacher yells at them it only hurts because you are different then the teachers view. That way they can say the pain is justified and a cure to the problems. Burnt flesh is the outcome of desires to make someone be as you are, you killed the many so the ideals of the few matter more. How very creative you are. (obvious sarcasm)
A lot of things are in lies and decrepit means of thought, the trees and grass don’t lie to me. They tell me things that are in truth and the reality of the living world. A disease is fought with great efforts of both of mine and the natural world, in kinship I have saved many lives of plants and animals. I hold no loyalty to anything but the very nature that I have become part of. If ones are to think I am in the land of insanity, I question them, what do you fear, what are you worried about. I worry about nothing as I created my own world, I fear nothing as fear is the inclination that you are not in control and you want to keep on doing the very thing that drives the fear. Not educate one self on why the fear is there and understand it. So they just kill it, How child like actions have become the standard. If I am to face a creature to challenge me in my fields of living, I will study it, observe it, become it, then if all manifestations of thought and desire of the creature is hostile for no other reason then to kill. Then I have done more then mankind has done in over a thousand years. Try to understand something in a different skin, something in different speech, something in fear we cannot see as they are struggling just as much, just differently. Why kill the ones in fear, for when their kin sees this, then they will become the shadows you are told to fear so you just naturally kill them. How a thought is processed is beyond me, you must eliminate all minds of self and thought of reason must be destroyed before such things could effect you. Has the human essence become nothing more then to kill itself so it can have the designed thoughts impregnated in them.
How sad is that, having thought raped from you just to have demanded reptation put in its place.
Good day humanoids, how seeking meaning in your existence brings me a chance to see the world as it once was and what it will be. The thing in the end though, after watching, listing, and seeing the past. It is apparent that the world (Humanity’s existence) is becoming a record player just on repeat. We have become nothing but a refuse of the pre-modern, the reasons are plenty and more and more are born every day. One of the ones that is really noticed but never talk about, the manipulations of the mass by the very few. The most observant and generation crossing is global cooling and global warming. Not saying it is not a thing, environment changes over time, from the north pole being a tropical forest now is a frozen tundra, however, the clinical insanity that is the modern means of change, my parents face global cooling and now we face global warming and changing again. Why listing to the words of the few is so damn annoying. If we did this for everything, then everyone would be transgender, the men would by choice have children, kids can consent and I can turn into a attack helicopter at will. See how they are insane when put plainly.
I have seen wars declared by god, deaths and murders dictated by priest. The leaders of worlds declare that one nation is a murderous cult as they have a system of beliefs that are opposing to the statistical occurrent religion. Why is it that the oldest thing that is in the mainstream culture. We use it to dictate what all things are and are not, weird as we have come to a place that religion is not the answer we are looking for. No god nor goddess can give us the clarity or the divine knowledge that is now needed. What we do with the time we have on this planet. I have come to the terms that we have more and more in common with bacterium in this existence. We have the greatest chances to become more then what we once were, however the great cleaning wipe will come for us all.
Next thing I have noticed to the grand view of the end of this thing we call humanity, the devolved means of intelligence and mastering self thought and having a basic knowledge of the fact that everyone lies and it becomes a great cleaner of all things. We are told so many lies that the human race has become zombified in a judgment of reality. You are all in fault of this, we just have to take the time to understand the reality and how we live in it. The things purposed to us in ways that are dictated to a means in the end. One example is how dedicated to the easter world as I live in the western world. We have now dictated that the world must act in a way that is one of either. How infected cultures are now becoming a molested view as it once was. How can it be so complicated to just be human and not a essence of a lie to kill and maim. Such a Neanderthalic sense of what should be and what is. How a sky daddy or mommy should tell us how we live. How we treat others of the same species, how we are to treat those of different language and science are to be killed due to the wrong way they found out how something works. They are killed in the millions due to a difference in sky daddies and how they see the way to get to his side different. So the trails in all ways to the sky daddy/mommy is always coated in the blood of who they consider wrong.
The last and most obvious things that we hold in conscious seperation is skin color. I never heard of a more idiotic and simplistic way to hate on someone. This is the most obscured and low IQ take on reasons for hate. Seriously, a development to help peoples skin be protected from the sun is a reason to hate. Really is the most retarded thing that could ever be thought of. You are a different shade them me, you must die. that is so insecure.
Just so we all know these are human things created to kill other humans. Non of these things are developmental as one race might have other means of doing the same thing but are now gone as they were murdered for not willing to change. Not all nomenclature are true in the knifes edge I give. Some cultures and religions are worse then others. We don’t like talking about how all religions have means to have sex with children and kill other people who chose a road with no innocence paving the way. Just a wicked and lack in any morals means of even being close to good. I have seen good be the call to arms to protect a home, to good being used to validate murders of the young and old.
So save the good that these things say they are, if I have to be told something is good, then it is a lie. Good is subjective, it is not true to any course of action. Good is just a way to feel good about actions that the opposing team would see as evil. Who are we to be such dictators of means of things. For us as a species that cannot tell what a boy or girl is so we just say you can be what you want. Wants are but a desire of the rich and the ones who wish to dictate the thoughts of others as they cannot do anything but hate. Love has been removed for universal acceptance. Such a brutalist and inbred way of thinking. Just sad to see such a species with once great potential become nothing more then a skin suit to cover up depravities.
Then again I am just a Ginger with a broken brain, what do I know.
So, apparently I did something to my eyeball. I am unsure what I have done and to be honest, not surprised as things tend to happen. All good as I still have much to do and the eye ball is not hurting too bad. I am just happy that I get to have a great day, sleeping and being up at night, I am just a happy being and not constricted to a timeline that the rest of the world. I can spend time with the Jimmy and have some playtime with him.
I should get a nice picture of the Jimmy, just to have a good picture of the big guy, just because he is a awesome boy and he is very lovely. That and I have to catch up on reading and getting things posted. Just happy to be alive and holding onto the time I have here and making sure the animals are loved and holding onto them with love and care. They are precious to me, they hold many things that are the very parts that make me human.
The cutest and most adored crown, for it is the one that leads all other nations. Not the one who wears it, but the crown it self rules all with its fluffy essence. I do love the cats, they do get a bit annoying when they get pushy with the need to snuggle when I am trying to light the woodstove. I don’t want them hurt or burned, as that would be very much sad and I would feel like a bastard.
However the snow has become deeper and I have snow plowed today and I have much to do in the sense of the outside work. I also need to get more chainsaw oil and gas to make sure I can get more wood cut up. I really just want to have a chance to get more wood for the house. Just to have the house kept warm, as wood heat is the best kind of heat to have. It is penetrating and has a much better way to hold a sense of comfort.
What else is the plan for the night? Well I have to get a bunch of reading done and I am going to try and post at least Three more vids and have them ready for the people. I have a lot to do in those departments but I am joyous to have the chance to even be able to make them. I have many things to do and many things to think about. Just life is short and I am wondering what it would take to become a life worth living. All good as I am not daunted by such things, more less just time to make sure I am on the right path for me, the right timeline.
However I need foods and I want to make sure I am intaking Enough carbs to keep on going.
A soft waking to the end is the one thing I think I have done, not the end in the species, but a end in the human. As a humanoid is what now exist in totality, a being of success found in steel and glass. They are not the conjecture of the humanoid is to the ones who are willing to deny the human and the ones who seek not the steel of a god that gives us what we want as long as we bleed, sacrifice time, family and soul. I think of a truth that is not one of the world but one of the being. We have all forgot how to be human, so we call the ones we want to be human, not what we already are.
It is in the times now that we have discovered that technology, steel and concrete is the very base of things to be considered human, dirt trails, crying winds, whispering water. These things have been left behind so the person matters to the crusted timeline of conjecture of production of product when the human soul is the raw material used. We have become a set of beings never to be remembered again as memories are now distilled into digital markers on a screen, a emotionless and stale reflection. Not a endured and loving part of life that remains unforgotten as it is a core of who we are, they no longer exist as they are replaced with the flashing images of swiping to the next “told to be” existential crisis you have to deal with as you are told.
Living in the truth of past, a pre-modern past, when the flesh and bone have been rewarded with tensile means of human being. The flesh is to be what embraces us in the night of the darkest days. Not to have a chemical defiance in pill form, skinless, boneless, beingless way to stay in a world once bone and flesh but now steel and false memories to keep people not happy, but in false content of human desires that are dictated, not felt. When is the last time you have ever truly touched something. Even in the simple touch of a cold pole of structure, warmth only comes from the human form, not from the steel, so we harness the power electrons to manufacture a false human warmth.
We seem to have created a disease of mind and steel, we are to not find comfort in each other, but in the dimming screen of a recorded set of nothing, nothing remembered, nowhere to be remembered. We have not seen the end of humanity, it ended when the steam became more then just boiling water, when metal became a bringer of life and death, concrete that slowly calcifies to show us one thing. Show us the greatest truth of all things, we strive to be remembered in stone and steel, when stone and steel is the most forgettable things in the universe. To be remembered in the parchment of scribbled inks, yet those inks never last longer then the required language to read them. We as a set of beings have become corrupted by memory, to have a life of such magnificence that it is eternal. Yet all that is truly remembered is the blood required for that wealth.
We ravish each other in a being of two backs to allow a continuance of the conveyer of modernity. Sacrifice the being we create in lust of progression leaves the being bloodless and hollowed by the cost of being born, born to a world that sees them before consciousness is burned into the soul, they are and will be forgotten by the stone and steel they make to be remembered.
Darkness and the night is not a horror waiting at your door, it is a truth we destroy with light and falsities. It is the truth we don’t like to be reminded of what we once were, a scared hairless ape who seeks a malformed sense of meaning and remembrance. When really to be remember in eternity, is as easy as just waking to a means of life not to be remembered, but to be forgotten. Then those who have become aware of this truth, will be forced to remember those who became before us. For they are the ones who will live forever in bone and flesh, by the scar they chose not to make, by the cities not build but the dreams of many manifesting into nature the greatest love of all. Just existence, beautiful shameless existence.
Good day great ones, Ones who have found the light inside, ones who have found the reason to create, Ones who have found the truth of the means of life. Each time the reason is found in the human form, a captured essence of the world, silence is profound as each reason to their own, a personal foundry of perfection.
So the day moves forward as it should and dishes are done and the floors done, fire is going and the house is starting to become summer warm. Like when the suns rays in the middle of summer bring a warmth of no other. To have the many and the few moments we all wish for but are really just our own means to forget them. From standing in the dew warmed by the morning rays, the bliss of a feeling of dew on the silken grass. To have the coffee of a great thinker bring forth ideas both simplistic and yet some of the most profound thoughts that gods even find them tantalizing.
I have much to do but just wanted to spend a couple extra things I wanted to chat about. I have found this wonder that is taking me into the galactic cores of distant marvels. I wish to have the consciousness of a traveling entity that can dance between the stars. A true manifestation of the energy we dazzle at without knowing what it is. All in all I want to have a shower and have clean jammies to put on. So that means I must depart and check laundry and such. Just to make sure my plans to have a good day and getting things done is perfected. That and food. I want food.
Good day humans!!!!! Ghaaaaa it is a good day today, for my mind has woke without the hatred of life and the existence of bargaining of thought continues. The exceptions of the mind are not those of malice or discord, those are the things I faced in the negligence of my laziness. After nights of pain and idle minds of consumption, I have face those things that stood before me and won. For that is my tale of the day, I fought through my own creations of discord and now face a day with hope and a decree of making the house a home.
To make sure the humans are happy and that I wish to hold a thought of sincerity in my hands, yet to do such at thing would be to tarnish such a existence. I am just happy, just happy knowing I woke up again, I was able to find sanctuary in the dreams. As many times the torrent of dreams of mine are thrown to the winds of gluttony and salvation in destruction. It becomes a essence of depraved hatred for nothing but the very existence of humanity. I know I face this thing never alone as many in the world have face such a demon, they have face themselves like I had too. Just some people look in the mirror and are blinded by pride and cant see the monsters we all are. Mind though, not all monster are hideous or out to hurt, some are just monsters as that is all they can see themselves as.
All in all this is a wonderful day and I need another coffee then I am off to get the day rolling and have a progress inducive day, as I hope yours it.
Bequeath to me your wisdom of the basics, show me the things you could wish to be, tell me your history so I can hope to see your future.
-Whispers to the hydrogen atom-
Behold a day that I may have become a bit more insightful and of the minds of not the many. I think therefore I am is how that goes right? Some how thinking is not a determination of existence, but to be in the outcome some kind of atomic buildup that gives you thought. We are not a construct, we are a collaborations of timeless endurance and testing. From the plasmatic strikes to the freshly crusted earth, the downfall of the sopheric rain and the consumption of material into the core of this un-named burning spheroid. Water to become its tears and land to become its scars. The acids and the bases mixing in the depths of a blackened sea of putrid Sulphur burning with flames of brazened means. The mixture of atomic structures and the heat of a slowly settling planetoid.
To the time the crust was torn again by a once friend in orbit but not a collective of mass that takes out little home and breaks it once again, soon even that will cool and become the very thing that allows us to be born into existence. The moon, a quiet but essential part of the means of life. To master the tides and to bring stability, the mass that lights our nights with reflections of the thing that creates all things. A star that takes our friend, takes the most wonderful and loving thing ever to exist, our little hydrogen atom into something more, something that is greater then all of us. Turning it into a doorway into the things that life will be born from, planets to be constructed by, that existence is even given the chance have a thought. All from a thing we as a mass have very little understanding of.
Like a loving relative who comes with great wisdom and yet it is misunderstood until our right age to see its worth.
Good Evening, How I hope the day is kind to you and the world at this point has become slowed down and ready to rest. As the many rest I like to stay up and have a chance to see the world in its base form. With the creatures slowly falling asleep with wisps of air becoming light snores of the minute species. Little wheezes of the baby birds who find the latest and most delectable source of nutrients from a loving mother, they now lay under her with the dreams of worms. The night becomes something more then the light could ever be. It is a time of the ones who become more likened to the wondering minds and souls that find the light over baring and seek the darkness to allow for the minds of the veil to bring forth thoughts and deliberations.
The day is coming into action I have to make sure that I get some things done before the time comes to making food, and having something to eat and have the night ready for readings and having some time to become digest the foods. Just to make sure that I am good to go and I don’t get weary in the mid of the night. Hehehehe se what I did there. :).
I have much to do in the sense of doggos and chickens. I have some things to think about, my future and what I have planned. As I am unsure of what will becoming of my life when I age. However I am still in the mind of making my own home in the woods. I have much to work on and I have a few things in my way, mostly people who have no rights to the land but act if they do, so once they die it will become better. The land owners (imitate family) have no balls to tell this person to fuck off, so I will have to wait till he kicks the bucket, can happen any day now if I had my choice. People need to realize something really important about the western world now. Men, a lot of men that I have chatted with have come to this point, if they found someone they really wanted to kill, they just do it and admit to it. What is the worst they will do where we live, life in jail, oh that is not a treat. In jail, prisoners are given more money, more education, more food, more degrees, more respect then anyone on the outside has ever offered. Seriously, prisoners get paid more then the ones on disability, (who need it) veteran’s who gave your land safety. That is the most surprising and how disgusting humanity has become. let child molesters, rapist and worse, have a greater life then the ones who gave you your freedom. That is the most disgusting and unforgivable thing we relish in when we convict them to a easy life in comparison.
All that to say I must be off as I have plans to read more and have some time to figure things out. Just because I am always pondering.
To the ones who are here and have found homes in the textual means of communication. I am here trying to find the darkness that is ever so welcoming, like a musical tone that is matched to the mindset of the wondering and the ones who seek knowledge. Just to know all the information of the day has become written in word but the machinations and the sights of the night behold a great wisdom that many fall from. Either from fear of the disrupted shadows that become the shapes on the inside. The time is here for us to see the infectious night tranquility is to be given to the ones who see not the dance of demons and night wolves become locked in the air as a resonance of the beauty of the night. Just as the day gives glory to the many, I rejoice in the darkness as the few who hold this time in their hands. Share a much bigger part of the pie of imaginary, discovery of fantasy, hope of the ones who fight in the dark so we can live in the light.
Much time is not to be rendered to the impossible, but to the drifting time in the midnight fog of wondering mist. To have the time to have a chance to walk the dark and foreboding bogs of the world and have the sounds of the sleeping ones who trace the globe in the light. They speak of the worlds long life as they are the ones who have seen the world though eyes of ones that see a thrumble as a mountain, who see the blades of grass as towering spires of green, yellow and brown. It is not us to decide the value of life, that is so human to do. Become what the ones who see the world as it is, the cultivations of minds and natures bosoms.
Behold not the means to kill or to the ones who enslaved the minds and bodies, we are better then them in many ways. However, in many more ways we are just the same as the ones who take life for the means of a spiritual acceptance. So I become the nights fool and the moons dancing partner as we dance into the night and speak of all the wonders of the moons children who find the night more part of them then the light of the day.
Good evening wonderful existences of life and wonder, your brains are a such a wonderful thing, I get such wonderful stories and tales of the world. From the glory to the dismay, to the ones who are deadly to the mortality of humanity, chase the desire to take life. You have given the people in the world to chance to observe and learn about all types of the mindsets. I have much to learn and much to discover but having a chance to devour the mind sets and the monsters inside others, they are full of things that make my mind twist and turn in the chaos of thought.
The world is turning and the people on it are so, so, just not thinking at all, and I get to watch it all burn down in its own way. I do find it funny that people think that they have a answer to all things and have a direction thot would solve all problems. Yet in the end the world turns on and the ones who think like this are not but the next to become the grounds new nutrients that are found in but death alone. That the world more then likely thinks each other are stupid or have a low IQ. When honestly, the ones who desire to have greatness in name, seek not to have a reason for actions, just want to see what it can do. This is not a great thing or a bad thing, as this is a component of ta system that has become our lives. We need the stupid to test what the smart know would more then likely maim or kill them. From sciences, nature, medicine, war, protection from war, the downfall of countries as the poor weep the ones who have designed it this way, have become wealthy in tears.
Just that we have become a constant and craving to have all the things in he world sound as they should be by each owns mind, reality is that the world is far more cruel then all things one could imagine. As ones who have taken to the written words of the past have taken the ways people win wars. then turn the blood and pain found on those fields and brought them to our living rooms for entertainment. Those who wish to castrate this idea should really require a test of reason and nature. To have some things we have become obsessed with such as death and victim hood from something they watch, to the suffering being told that the suffrage they have faced is their own doing yet demand recreations from a generation who has never seen the world of reality. We have become a fantasizing and obsessive set of individuals that demand reality to their own conceptions and kill or dismiss the reality of the universe. Sadly this is the future of mankind as the hairless, emotional stunted ape, born into greatness, yet sell greatness for minimal means of life, what we would like to think is the most advanced species on earth prideful sacks of flesh that has a 5 ish pound fat mass in our heads that makes us think we have importance. The life that has long passed and broken down and now is burned and turned into the various products of oil have more importance today then they ever did when they existed. So millions of years past and yet they are magnificent creatures, now used to run machines and make plastic and we see it more important then current life. So if you think you will be remembered as a great and noble warrior of your time, before you wish to become a leader of great nations, that even after millions of years we seek not but the best ways to use something for our benefit and not bask at how we live off the backs of life millions of years in the past.
People who seek importance in the world of the living and in the world to make a change, what we are matters most only after death and that is the only time that we become human, is in the death of others who we see as immortal. How is life so precious and yet only missed when gone, why is life so wonderful yet we fight to never see the lives ultamat goal is death, in death we could seed things that will be discovered in a million years. Yet we have to see ourselves matter and become a reason for others to exist, to become more of you living in the world. When really we will only truly matter when we become a black substance that heats a home of creatures who did not even know you ever existed. Have hope but stay humble, we are not as special as we think we are, but still we can be beautiful in all our thoughts.
The world calls out in a maimed beast tones, a belching of forlorn and gusto that is more from the decline of the senses and a rise into the world of emotional and devotions of machinations and not reality. I am happy that the world (Human Kind) is not healing but becoming a example of the world that is devout to the machinations of its own creations. A sickness that is not of the worlds creation, not a cold, not a disease of mind, soul or body.
I hold no animosity for the world of man, for all species have the worldly chance to progress into something they have the ability to move up on the chain of worldly command. Though we have become able to climb that chain up to a creature that can dominate and devour the world and yet choses not too. That is what the dream is, but however we missed one very important thing, emotional development beyond a frustrated puppy.
We fight and kill for resources, land, false narratives and idols of the imaginarium of mankind. All these things are second to common sense, and not the whole of reality, but the answer is used in force and not in understanding. We create the devil in the things we want to change, not in the view of true evil. To the bounded I find the greatness in the study of the devoted machinations that I see in the world and able to dismantle and view the parts that were used to create such things. I love to see what reasons and the manifestations of man and woman around the world to justify and manifest reasons to become so indictive of hate and destructions of themselves and the world around them to become closer to their creations of devotions.
I am a foolish man who seeks not answers as they leave the world bland and the majestic must not be babelized but enjoyed and have the scents taken in and let the wonder of life become the reasons for the study, not for what use it has then disposed of by the next day. That is a curse of the mind of people who have not become aware enough to have the words of the unspoken heard by all. Its a curse as it will devour the minds of the many, as traditions and peer pressure is not a binding means of progression but the reasons for the many to follow the few in collaborations. To be the few in the minds of unacquired or the ones who have tasted and devoured the manifestations of others without the eons of understanding that allows them to taste without being poisoned by the infections that come with mind sets of observed gluttony.
To the world, thank you for the chance to learn and see these things and have them become a page in the index of study, not to become one who fallen into the crimson falsities of desired gods and outcomes.
I must depart and learn more of this world and seek not more told information, but the information of the observed.
Good morning you wonderful creatures you, How I have missed you and have no real reason for not uploading with the exception of busy times with family and people. Can not always have what we want but sometimes we are tasked to manage the chaos inside when fed so much. So since my chaos demon was a little too well fed and I got eaten up on the inside for a while. That is my fault as I should be able to fight it and not have my world disturbed. I think that is what I am most envious about losing and seeing in others.
So the day should be a bit better but one thing I have been dealing with is the break down of sleep and having a of awake time but my mind is being eaten by a disease of consciousness. That is not to say I am suffering from a great disease, just that the mind has become miss managed I think and I have to get a better grasp on things. It can be many things that I need to focus on, thus I should have realized that the original mindset I had was the best. To mutilate and devour what works, that is a insanity, so I must become more likened to a stable rock in a river of madness. Madness is constant in this world, I wish to be the rock that is never moved, only contemplates the passing water. Though the water wears on me, I shall become stronger with the coral that will grow on my ever steady means.
So the holidays have been ok, I have not a reason to say bad but it got a bit much, I love my family that takes care of me and helps me through the rough times. They are the best, even only being two in a sea of souls, they always glow the brightest. Giving me a light to focus on through the world of disturbed and diming souls. Gives me a sense of joy that the world is not just a blanket of ideological means of persona, but has a few that take the blanket and throw it off in a glory of self disciple. No longer being bound to a pre-existence that give false narrative of hope.
The day still moves on thought even in the early hours, I have much I want to do today and I think I have the time and clarity to do it. Though I am not the one who should be taken a seer of the right and or the mighty mind to seek the wisdom that is beyond us all. I am just a weirdo who tends to have the time to think outside when others are bound to the structure of standard thought. I am just someone who has a chance to think when the world hates giving time to people to think.
The out door animals are dong wonderful and have become a great part of my life. The days grow longer again and I have great hope that they will bring forth more days of progress and making things better for not just me but the world as a whole. To have the chance to become a better people and better harbingers of great change, So that when the change happens, it is done in grace and humility.
Alas my coffee grows cold and need to refill it, as it is the gift of all things great.
I will be back after getting some things attended to and wish to have you here again.
Oh how the day and night became a mixed again, how I have found that it is not a matter of if the time is born with sunlight but is born with the will I have to get things done, so the days and nights matter not. Just happy that I suffer existence and that with that suffrage is not in pain, but in discovery.
The night is not for the celebrations for me as I am working on a many things. The new year is meant for the youth to pretend and for the old to see the youth become more drunken the the sailor of old, then laugh as pain is the price for “jovial carousing”. The day is not in any significance in reality, just a passing of a marked spot in the orbital plane. It is a mark of the time we use to mark along our means of locating a set spot in a expanding and yet closed system we call the universe. Just a very human way of making us matter when we can identify and mark something with our makeshift minds. Not saying its wrong, just that we have determined so much with so little understanding of it all. Just beautiful and yet so multi front disease of the unknown. We are proud of what we have done, I think it is time to study the current knowledge we have acquired and then take the next step.
I have to keep this one kind of short as I am trying to get my mind organized on the next thing. I have come across some thoughts that both bother me but seem to be a solutions that is not in cruelty but in aversions of decline.
Good day to you wonderful creatures of existence. How I have found peace and love in the twilight of the nights birth. To the world and to the people who live and breath, it is a wonder we exist at all and yet we have a immoveable and determined essence to exist. I am unsure how to continue on in this life as I am not a creator of the existence, I am not the creator of the bounded ones who dictate how existence of all things. I am just a weakened existence that is happy to be from a host of consciousness, to have a mind that can record the events, the ones to have a chance to become more.
The day is coming to a end and I am just waiting on the nights dinner to finish and I am happy that I get to do a bunch of recordings early tonight and have a chance to just read more and more. I am finding the written word has become much wiser then the ones who preach the days light in the modern era. From 1652 I am reading a book that has become a great reviler of the world that was once stoic and reserved for the ones who fought. The ones who refused to make it a part of their lives to become a involuntary gear in the machinations of ones who see the many as fodder.
The night has started with dinner and a coffee, something that is a great way to think about the world and the endless nights vale into the universe that holds the greatest mysteries yet to be told to us. It is the last thing I see in the great mystery holds for us. It is beautiful and chaos, life and death. Something that I am hopeful for and something, something I hope has the last chance to bring humanity together. One day maybe, just maybe humanity has that chance left.
Good Morning you wonderful beings you! How I hope the day has been kind and not holding you hostage in the hours of the day. That the night can bring in mystery and tales of the midnight hours that have both none and yet all of the reasons, that fear is so primal. The darkness is not a harbor of misery, they are feelings set for the day. With the light setting fear in the stone of the night, when night becomes the comfort of those who fear the day. Evolution has taken many trails to get where we are, to see the outcomes that have left us all in the denial and refuse of meaning.
Morning is here again, I am sorry I have not been here, just been busy and we got a crap ton of freezing rain. I am worried that it can cause some damage that could be very expensive. From trees falling on the house, to the cars on the road sliding off road, thus hitting a hydro poll and taking out the power. That would be a very crappy situation, So lets hope that the weather melts off soon and we are safe from icy accidents. Not just for the power, but for the people who can get hurt, that would be very crappy.
With the time moving along nicely this morning soon I shall have to get up and make coffee, just as my cup is beginning to get empty and I miss the hot coffee when I am working through the morning. Just have to make sure the things I want to work on gets done. One day I hope that the vids and recording make it so family is taken care of. The almighty dream, as a man to have his family taken care of and know they will be ok after I move on to the twilight of death.
I must be off and get another coffee.
I shall be back later. Too nasty to work outside today so I will have more time to get things done here.
Rising to the morning that has housed the cold for us to wake to, the creaking and groaning trees, the moans of the wind, the frost that pricks the finger tips with a reminder of the fragility of the human body. The value of the morning is never match to anything, for it is a chance to change the world of one life or change the life of the world. Who really knows what the day will be and how it will be when we will call for the blankets of warmth.
I had to make a Purrlock Holms as I have the idea in my head for a while, and I am happy how he turned out. Just a happy kitty pondering the world though the bubbles of obscurity. Some lost to time and some floating into the vast desert of lost thoughts and dream. Times past would give us a mystery in death and lies. A 1950’s book cover transformed into a mist, locked into the dreams found only in a everlasting bubble of time.
In the world is many of a dream and many of a night that is dreamless but those are the nights when laying awake brings to us the mysteries that the brain plays on us. Ponder into the veil that brings us the ideas the times in daylight cannot be found. I am happy, happy that the night has gifted me with such things that I am very joyous that the day has given me the night worth dancing to. The night is something that has become a chance for me to dream under a moon reflecting the trace amount of sun light, never its own light but with it, a transformation of light to mystery. Every impact crater, every fracture, every dream cast upon is the moon has listened and responded to many who have taken the nights vale and listened closely.
With the morning moving along with great grace and great hope for a day of hope and desire to master the time we have in the light. Just so before the cold dark comes in, we have made the light worth every second of it. I am just happy to exist and have a chance to see the light, to see the transition to the mysterious twilight, to the silky black vale, we get to witness them all. Something just majestic to the eyes and mind.
However I must depart and take forth the day. It wont be here forever.
Rise and shine you wonderful creature of life, how I hope your day is as wonderful as you are, things can be difficult and sometimes you think you don’t matter in the vast existence. Find people who care now and love now, don’t think about who will remember you as that is a moment of failure. Become the thing that the ones who love and care seek you out for help and love.
Oh how this day is starting so wonderfully that I come with dreams of the day not just in the devoured hours of the night in sleep. The days are not suffrages and not in the decline of dreams. They can be the devout calling into the night to comfort in the bliss of dreams, they can be the hours of mystics and collaborations of the unknown and the cerebellum. Torn before us is the pages of dream and hope from the book of life and delivery. If these things in the world were easy, then we all could be leaders. However, leaders no longer exist, they face the darkness and wield the torch of dreams and hope. They have no longer been born among us. They have all died out and now the torch is cold with no desire of any of us to pick it up.
To lead us through the darkness is to have all the things the darkness habituates, to have them shown to the rest after the leader has given greatness to the people to face the devouring machinations of the darkness. We now have people who take from us our humanity and dreams and feed them to the darkness and the veiled monstrosities. They take the hopes from the children and the dreams of the adults and turn them into the most delicious meals. Never seeing them as human but as a food source to feed the darkness, to give the nameless the desires with no hesitations.
I have not become stale in the observations of the meals being fed to the silky means of hidden, I have desires never to be taken from me the desires to feed the minds of youth and the learned. The ones who have become wise with age to hear my words and have kinship in them. To have the youth hear the same words and see the veil for what it is, nothing but the imaginums of fear that has been fed by disassociations and hate perpetuated by the ones who fear the void.
The youth is the key to break the veil and to the means to give light to the young and aged. To the ones who become part of the void, you have no sympathy as the void is a choice, it is the easy way out to just become what comforts you. A lie of silken sheets that never leave the eyes of the forlorn, they can keep such sheet. I rather the cold truth of humanity then the warmth of social adaptations to the veil.
Who knows what the world holds and I am only here to help bring the youth back from the void with the knowledge to teach us all how to push it back farther with humanities and the cure of division’s by devotions’.
But I must depart and take care of the house and make it a home.
Morning is the time of a muse, the bliss that comes with the decline of the human presence and soon becomes the slow and entrancing movements of the universe. The base of the very material and motions that are a functional relationship with life. To see beyond the machinations of humanity, to the ones who know that transfixed sense of the stars are not lost to everyone.
Beauty is not classified as a thing that the milky strands of our galaxy calls out into the void. It is a volume of the greatest imaginations and fears bound together into a collection of some say divinity, some say the sight we see is a micron of what is out there. To me, I think I see the end and beginning, a birth and death all in one. To say the night sky holds the travesty of death in mass scale, but also the essence of life birthed once again to shape the imaginations of billions. To think we are special is a greed like no other, we are gifted at best, for to be special is to become something greater then the existence its self. We are all born into the corrupted life of consciousness and unknown reasons of existence. To think we have a grasp on things is a fools errand and has no place in the volumes of interstellar depictions. Life is so unusual that the usual designs of the world are not of life birthing material, according to us. I just think we have given the term life and our own means of it, is very shortsighted.
I have begun to ponder if existence is real or have we been a thought in a greater beings existence, as if we are a dream and the dreams we have are but the small tales of things we are not the machines of. To the wicked and the bazar of the connections and developments seem to almost be phase like. One day just things are moving along and the shift of molecular existence is removed by a passing sleeping hallucination and or existence is no more. How can one perceive existence without the ability to see beyond existence. Much like turn based games, if our turn is no yet then we die in the combat, as the consciousness of the character no longer exist when not in play, then did they ever exist as the game moves on with no memory of the life it once housed. Does the universe truly exist or are we filling in the blanks of a game and we are just the background to add some kind of ambience to the worlds that are floating in the mindscape of some creator of not divinity, but of just thought. How far does thinking go in the choice of things, does each choice bring new plains of existence, or is it our preview of what we think we see and we are the thought and not actual existence. Just a random thought.
As the coffee cup becomes empty and the morning is moving along with a grace rarely seen, I must depart and move with it, for the day waits for none and the sun burns for not us, but the entire collective of the system we live in. Its a lovely one, a cherished one.
With The world turning and the rain strong here, I am suffering a headache from the pressure and I am just enjoying a coffee. I am just a simple Ginger with a sore head for the next few hours. I just hope the day clears up so it does not make the head more sore. Then again when the storm passes the fall of the pressure also hurts but much less. I am just happy to be alive and able to chat the wonderful humans of the world.
So the plan is normal as I am going to get the fire going soon and let the chickens out. Just so they can enjoy the last bit of the warmer days. Soon they will want nothing to do with the outside and stay in the coop. I don’t blame the birds as they are just the outcome of how they are treated. Much like me, I rather have the heat and not have a chill down my spine.
So the day is kind of planed out but in a way that leaves me in a place of freedom to do what I want. Just have the fire to get going and the dishes done. Maybe the floors and might even get to cleaning the bathroom today, it needs it. Even with the extra time I am being slow so I am sure there will be things i don’t get done. That is what tomorrow can handle and I must accept that. Not all can be done in a day, but cities can be built in a year. All up to how much you want to get done and how much will power to do it. So I am just happy to exist today, I am just happy to know that the day is laid out for me to dance though.
The tummy is rumbling and I am getting hungry, I am thinking of going to make another coffee and see what kind of leftovers there are to eat up. Just because I am not feeling ambition to cook today. There grabbed a piece of chicken and a new coffee so I am working slowly towards some ambition.
Though the day is nasty I am happy to be alive par usual, Just happy to know that I am able to think and discuss things. To know that I am not alone and that I partake in the world in some way. So I will not become a essence of depression and cult like actions of the unwilling. So I must be off to work on the next project and see if I can get more of the story worked on today too. Just to know I am not being too lazy.
Rise and shine beautiful ones, How the day is wonderful and yet sleeping through the morning did not effect anything too much. Just getting out of the morning mind fog was not as hard as I thought. Times have passed with the day being wonderful with things being taken care of, from the fire burning wonderfully and warming the house. Dogs and cats are doing amazing and are loving as ever, as they are happy critters and thus makes me a happy critter. Just because when they are happy I know the home is a good place to be. A animal is the truest sign of how much love is in the house. With the animals here, the love is a bit too much with treats time to time. Just to make sure that the babies know they are loved and have the good stuff. Just happy critters make me a happy human critter.
The day is moving along with a pace that is slow but intentional, like a tranquil stream giving life to frogs, fish and flying insects all in a harmony of bliss.
Just because I like the idea of a happy pond and the summer dreams that fill my dreams at night. The simplistic life as we view it, is something that we should view with as much adoration that we give to Divinity, Celebrity, Education, Wisdom and Humanities to the simple and wonderful I think the world could be a better place. To know that the fly and the frog, the fish and the dragonfly they have a sense of serenity that is lost in the human condition. Just that the fly is more then us as it soars the skies, the frog is more then us in the sense it lives in families beyond blood. The dragon fly causing the slow air tumbles that cause no difference, yet the very bug feeds the fish that feeds the family. Sometimes life is more then just being alive, more then the latest drama, more then the latest words the hurt the feelings of someone who has never grown. It is the simplicity of life in the smaller world is exactly what we need, to remind us that the life we have is not a complex as we make it to be. Some times the life we desire is just the frog on a lily pad trying to understand the complexities of the air that came out of our asses.
The world with the means to see more then what we are, is our home and I am unsure that our home is ok and it might be having a hard time with us. The world is not a comatose patient, I think the world has a essence to it, has a type of being to it self. I am unsure and maybe I should just be the frog on the lily pad and ponder ass gas, that would be just fine. As the frog has more happiness in its simplicity has a greater value then all the riches mankind could offer. I am unsure, but I like to think a frog has it more figured out then we do.
Good day to you, how I hope the day is kind to you, that the world does not task you in a way that is too much and beyond your resources. To the day I have much to do, from the dishes to the floors, I have to bring wood in and get a fire going and make sure the animals are good to go. The day never ends when it comes to the tasks at hand and now I am out here trying to make sure the most important get done.
The Great and most noble Jimmy is next door and needs to be let out to pee and such, he is a good puppers who is just a big loaf of love. Though he is sometimes a bit pushy, he is all love. The chickens can be let out and the cats need to be fed, our doggos are already taken care of as they get the first mornings love and dedication. As such babies who have been around since what seems the start of time, they are the ones who gave us love and care when we felt the lowest. So that is is just how the things in the morning runs.
The slow jazz music I picked out this morning to listen to has hit the right spot and has given me a sense of peace and energy that is slowly building the means of the day. Coffee is tantalizing to my dreams and wholesome to my thoughts, A gift known to few is the seconds lost to the imaginarium of consciousness. A time that is just for the ones who find it and find the bliss it offers, it is the place that is unique and only seen by each person in their own view.
Tasteless air passes my nostrils as thoughts of the world and of my own world come together, a place of mind and soul. Not the same place I have seen before but the new rooms of the imaginarum that I have never seen but have been there all along. To the vast and to the few, I hope you find this building inside you as it is often locked away in many and the key is lost to logistical death and humility of being happy with your own being. Yeah that is a big thing no one really talks about, people hate it, absolutely hate and I have found no one really likes in others. The complete and fulfilled mind and soul by the things that lie inside, creations of mind and soul bring that content look on ones face that others despise. I think it has to do with the key they lost to the imaginarium and now, now they are stuck outside listing to the joy and racing hearts of those inside who have never let go of that key. They are spiteful and controlling as they are no longer welcomed among the happy as they are naturally removed from it. So they seek to kill the happy and burn down the imaginarium in others. So the black tower that is left of theirs is all that is left for the world to see.
I know in post I have mentioned and discussed the nature of the vast universe and how we need to realize we are unimportant to it. That our lives are not special and we are ones in billions like ants. However, a single ant is allowed to dream and fascinate over the unknown. That is the sign you have broken through the self imposed divinity and have become whole in your own being. You have unlocked the imaginarium and it has welcomed you in with warm arms.
Let not the dark towers of others cast shadows over your imaginarium, let your building of endless wonders shine. Just always remember the reality outside those doors and help the world reach a equal part, imaginarium and discipline. With that I think the universe is endless in possibilities.
In current year, what ever it may be, that is irrelevant. To the fair minded thoughts of the existence, it’s a damnation of being with a noted wick we compare to others. Adding more and more to the twisted infirmary of being is quite cute. Unraviling a slow insanity bound in all things of thought, of being. Each time words are attempted to be bound unto the sensation of sight it is burned from the very essesnce of time. Of what all things are bound to, only bindings of thought are truly free.
Sight lay over a heap bounded paper, folds in barring away any notion of the writings it once held. Slight movement beneath the fibers that give echo to the life beneath it. Burden of life is a echo of past glory, a sent out thought that life its self has become corrupted, almost diseased with knowledge and knowhow of the current existence. Foremost the sun still burns the day away, fore the night still holds the chilled wind that lifts dust to the air the ones cursed with life. Beams of light cut the dust with its reflective ways, a effect of the twisting notion of laws of existence breaking.
The revenant of humanity, lost in hope while waking. To be enfeebled by the lack of proper satiation leaves a mind burdened with dissociation, hope lost to the neathers of the mind. Bones encased in a organic suit, beholder of the thought, a human pulls aside a covering only mold would ever call a blanket. Pale skin, nails yellowed, knuckles stained with the excraments of time. Sliding off the coverings a layer of stale cloth moves within great resistance of the body and mind, a being slowly begins to take form in the rays of light that burn thoughout the broken, stagnate air. Eyes stained by the broken vessels that carry the paternity of this being. Brown hair, though truly not known if its the refuse of the world or if the hair truly held the copper stained bronze filament.
Looking around the small enclosure, once a toll booth, the lad groans in conciouness. Clearing the dried flakes from the corners of his eyes, a sensation each time reminds him he still is cought in the living world. With a raised eyebrow looking around shows a simple enclosure. Like all booths of the past, just medicore in substance with two shelves holding what has become the few edible things left around. A beaten box of hambaerhelper and a can of tuna for breakfast. Not apitozing but knowing what others have done, its not a pet or family member. To that thought the lads idea of breakfast was ended. Reaching out to grab his meager suppilies, tossed into a grain bag, back packs have become unreliable and the time and resources fixing ripped fabric is not feasible. A final groan leaves the lads lungs as reaching out to pull himself up, pained joints and knotted tissues benith the skin leaves much to the wanted. With the boxes sliding off the lower frame, twisting his neck, bending slight over using his hand to bat off what ever dust and grime he can from such a, well, not so wondrful bed last night. Two layers of pants, rips and holes bountful in both, are held together by little give birth to dust and some kind of crums from who knows what fall to the floor. With a final stretch of the limbs the lad looks to the sun through the glass and knows time is limited of to refill his leather water pouch and one would hope more pants. Suprizingly the glass door still holds complete, the world welcomes him with the embrace of the scent of old bodies still in decay, the copper scent still fills the air of last night victems. Animals mostly these days, what humans are left are scarce. To the north is the town that might hold some goods and the east is the bridge the toll booth gave access too. West shows a simple two lane road that leads into the horizon. A grey smog takes away the visablity that would grant some sence of security when heading into the town, cant always have it his way the lads moans under his breath. The thoughts of pushing ahead and trying to find the will to lift his leg, into a unknown war of senses are ahead.
Door, light yet groans from the hinges say time without being maintained signals the door giving way to the world. Air humid with the decay of the dead laying in the window frames of the various shops. Skin, long ago leathered in the sun, holds tight to the bones, only torn strips of the torsos reveil the moist organs inside. Sights like this have long ago stopped curling the stomach, the smell, that scent can never be fought from curling the torsos organs into knots almost forcing vomit forth. The road ahead is covered with the refuse of what was what a race of normalcy. Folded newspapers becoming part of the pavement over the time of rain and being crushed by whatever passed it without notice. Tipped over caution cones and various cars plant themselves where once people did fight back. The chaos however was just as deadly as the takeover was as quicker then anyone could have thought of. Shuffling his bag onto his shoulders the young man looks to his first building he is hoping has some basic supplies he can use.
Strips of rags swinging in the wind as the lad reaches the front of the home hardwear store. Walking at a cautious pace, not knowing if this shop holds something more deadly then the blades once used for box cutters. Beast or man, each of them are just as fearsome as they are both rage filled and hold no quarter for other man or beast. Truly this world has become each for themselves as teams are just enemies who are not currently trying to kill you. With each thought, both adding the weight of fear to the reaching arm to grab the door handle, the door opens without the grace of silence. A moan and scraping of refuse on the ground as the door sweeps the refuse into a pile that will never be picked up. Fearing the waft of decay, the lad holds his breath until the slight discomfort in his lungs reminds him that air is essential for life. With a slight wift of the air a sigh of thanks as the smell it not any worse then the outside, no smell of human waste or the rotting flesh of one of the creatures that only roam the night. Reaching into the right inside pocket a flashlight reviled, pointing inside the shop, entering gave a slight sence of protection yet also a sence of fear of the unseen.
The beam of light cuts into the darkness with fingers of the unknown trying to reach into the light, burned back by a force they cannot understand. Crunching under the slow footsteps, glass callouts the lads location. This give a moment of hesitation as waiting for a call back from mankind or other. Skittering life, most likely some kind rodent or bug running to the various holes in the walls to escape any type of danger. Broken shelves leave little to the hope to find anything in some kind of useful condition. Rolls of tear off rags are ripped apart as if some massive kitten had its play before leaving. Moving further in from the door the smell of oil and other petrol liquids are spilled out on the floor. Soaking into the random objects that littler the floor that allow so. Cans without labels dress the ground with most leaking or emptied by some large creature, much more then a man would be, has taken this place to the hell it came from.
Light reflecting of the smashed aluminum can, a signature of a better time where processing and development and creation. Any idea of any food or provisions crush with the barren can, also brings forth not any worry that encountering anything like him or not like him being around. The wet tile are signatures of the ceiling having holes and letting the world break through a once sheltered home. Stagnate molded air, a departure of the rot that laid assault to the senses outside, was not relief but a migration to another trojan horse of lies in hope of the fresh air. Ending each isle is not but broken and Razors edged by the shearing of the metal. With the quite steps are the agile survivors best way to get around. Each step is not as one would have on the streets of old, more like a balance on the edge waving between the ball of the foot and the every gripping toes as if fearing the ever bounding gravity would fail. Tossed around like a childs toys, avoiding the torn bags and wrappers of each varitiy to suppress any way to aleart the things that may be stalking the isles well.
Sweat beads lace the brow as the lad as the last of the isles are cleared of any other beings that would cause any threat to the lad, a quiet sigh is all that shows the mountain amount of relief. Reaching to the inside of the rags adorned over the lads carapace, a molded leather notebook, a tomb of the minds escape into ideas of a survivors hope. Basic notes are always the best, complications over the basic of ideas are a virus to being able to make it through this new world of cursed existence. Quick look at the graphite scribblings note a need of coffee filters and a hope of finding some charcoal fish tanks filters. Even just those would help with the somewhat purification of water. Shadowed shelves are bent, torn out or even just smashed into the ground by something in a rampage for victims. Torn metal leaves for the reason for the torn flesh of both human and not. What looks like strings of leather but known to really be the dried skin of whatever left this store in its disarray.
Broken railings are a score to the eyes to have a place higher into the building and its habitants. The cloth and debris upon the ground are a softer the not compared to the grounds of broken glass that is still form a foe of the unnoticed if not careful. With stairs covered in a array of cloth and other torn sheets of sorts. Though later they will be gathered and ripped to strips for band-aids, even if they are used as a mock shoe to soften the harden ground. Shoes are not as common as others expect and feet being so delicate. Faux shoes are a necessity in the is land of improbable hope.
Tired stairs are filled with the groans of time and weight as the lad takes slow steps up to the next room trapped in the fog of war, as if a uninvited mist leaks into the rooms and sight of mind is filling each room with a set of unknown figures. Air ripped of its virgin stillness is given to the cracks in the wall that the outdoor wind cuts though and turns dust into tumble weeds of the air. Never the less each step to the upper level is a snapped fine string of sanity, each with the hope of a bountiful room of needs. The darkness only cut with rays of light show the stillness of the rooms gives relief of the mind. Stillness is not a friend of the living, even a breath of the most hidden creatures of light or dark leave the air in turbulence. With the slow wisps of air are a clear sign that the room is holding no creature, friend or foe.
Light steps become, quieter then the sound of the lads heartbeat in his ears. Not seeking to call into the void, from his belt slides out a small metal bar that has a leather handle. With the leather handle in his hand, the steps become lighter with each reaching step. The light is slowly becoming brighter as the eyes adjust, making the upper level. Showing that the shelves were mostly untouched, the shelves having stock. This being a great luck as new clothing and patch work is needed to be done, giving a hope that finding some water would be a great help to refresh for the rest of the day.
The upper floor almost untouched shelves still containing boxes of merchandise, looks to be something of luck to be here. Each step a twisting wind follows the legs, turning the air as micro tornados lift the dust and give temporay life to the dead skin cells again. Death breathers, a running joke, every time you dust or vacuum, the dust in in the air is dead skin cells. Breathing the most likely dead back into your lungs. Disturbing but a notion blind to most. With silent breath each isle is studied carfully by the lad. A broken lamp and tossed boxes seem to be the general malaise of the upper floor. Mindful and aware, eyes darting to each potental box or tipped over container of what looks to be socks and underware. Both would be ran to by anyone of lesser mind. Creatures that roam the twilight and moonless night, abominations that have not a origin of no god or creator of life, but the essence of something made by the hand of mankind. For if made by a god or creator of life, then the life they see is not of kindness or kinship, but the living consuming each other for life. To devour each other so time is not a essence to them. That is not something devout to life, but devout to the ones who own life and consumes the weak to extend it.
Boxes line the walls and shelves, To open each one is a task that the lad would be second thought as the day is still lacking any water for nutrition and hydration. The main floor held no essence of aqua, the blue essence of life. Cracked lips and mouth corners split and showing signs of blood being the only liquid that passed the lips for days now. With fear of this being the last hope of any water to be found, even condensation on glass would be devoured right now to give even the slightest hope that the bone dry lips would feel the love of moisture again. Roaming the isles, a reductionist nightmare, each box contains everything but even the most flavored of fluid. The hope of any fluid quickly leave to be found in another location is not something the lad was hoping for. This turns a hope into the greater fear that death will not come from the mutations of the world, but from simple dehydration. A weak mans death.
Broken shelves leaning and resting on the shelve below, eyeing the various means of inventory, a crinkle was heard though the source was hidden under the fallen shelf. Means of life and knowing the daylights heat is holding most creatures to the shade, with the building destroyed and already cleared, the lad decides to risk noise for hopeful ambition. With steady arms and unforgiving tenacity, lifting the shelf is with groans of bent metal trying to return to its factory shape. Moans of inorganic origins, under the distorted metal, a six pack of water, torn open and only 3 left, this was a gift by the grace of luck, never a gift of god.
Plastic wrapped savior is the results of the tenacity of the lads means to survive, broken hope healed again by the clear fluid that will give another day to fight to just breath in another day.
Taking in the view with slight hesitation of it being a figment of imagination, the plastic felt as if it were a divine being, a lie but a lie that brings forth will to live for a bit longer in the world of rot and disease. Broken windows lay bare the street, wood and fever chance of security is a nightly need to find the next sunrise.
With a last look, taking in things that could be of value, taking of the ragged back pack, slowly sliding in the 2 water bottles and keeping one out to hydrate. Cracking the plastic seal, manufacturing not to be seen again, the cool liquid slightly burns the cracked and torn lips, a wince that is followed by the sense of hydration even the eyes start to water knowing the grace of water will give them the ability to tear up and clean themselves out. Know now that the body is in the mid 90% being of water, most would take the blood of the last living friend and turn the salted penny tasting liquid into a life saving fluid. Life saving for the one to find it in abundance, death to the one who gives this gift.
Seeking another possible source of water or food that is still a option for some kind of consumption. Slowly making the stairway down noiseless and still being observant as always with the death of many being that of preserved safety after clearing a room, once cleared, a room remains cleared for as long as your eyes can see it. After loss of sight, the room might as well be filled with the dominions of rotten and leather backed creatures.
With the door glass laying out on the floor, crunching under the shoes of the wizened lad, the bright mid morning is welcomed with a sigh of refreshment, looking over the small strip mall, each side contains a few buildings with most being nocked down by time and storm. Brick piles with the various blown debris covering the piles of decayed wood. Sun burnt fabric stiffened by years of radiation exposure from the sun. Break down in the very stands of fabric bring forth the dry rot and leaves it not but a pile of undisturbed dust.
With a refreshed mind and sight, looking to the stores that remain, fast food joint, gas station, a family diner that seems to be mostly intact, lastly a old general store that seems to be a old barber and before that unknown. Moans of wind though broken windows give howls of the dead world, a slamming back door gives call to the empty playground that no child would see again. If, if their is any children born again in the world. A travesty would it be called to see a new soul bound to the dust like all others who are pre born of the godless world.
With a dark thought boring its way into the mind of the lad, he steps forward to see what this small strip mall will offer.
The so called General store seems to be of the most use, a defined meaning to have “general Items” Could have a great implementations of life improvement. Well what can be called life improvements, Dry roads of fractured tar and rock mix, a wind with no sound but a scent of rot and decay is a spark to the senses that make for a alerted mind. The gust of wind turn a pile of bones and dust into a whirlwind of dust and fabric toying in the air, as if the wind has fingers to investigate the bones for what little moisture to dry up. Beads of sweat form on the palms of the lad as they are of nervous means when tracing into a new location.
Mid morning light is the means to see if the day will be hot or have some resolve to make sure it is not going to be a day of radiant heat to boil ones sanity away. Discovered by chance the lad standing in the shattered doorway of the store he just quickly searched, looking across the road, what road is left, is not but a door ripped off its hinges and the frame a entrance to a possible interlopers of death and decay. Blood shot eyes and a mind with slight hydration from the bottle of water. A better set of defensive equipment for the longer days ahead of travel to the next small set of buildings to find and hope contain more resources of life and inhabitation.
Stepping through the door the lad takes cautious steps across the ruin laden road, the general store becoming closer and closer that the suns mid morning crest is cut short and the lads figure mixes into the softer shade of a buildings reach.
Shattered windows and blood stained glass, a now blackened fluid that has become hardened with time and heat. Small amounts of vicar of the unknown is also cast upon the ground. Slow methodical steps take the lad from the broken road to the doorway that is but a marked by violence with no hanging door but a frame that is home to no swinging divider. A manifest of what happened lies in the death and ruins of mankind and the devote become the cast of the play that was the opening to the end of everything. They all thought that gods could be kind and understanding, that the creators of this creature known as homosapiens. It is not but the manifestations of creatures simply beyond mankind. When told we were created in the image of god, they were not wrong, gods come in the same shapes as us, the doctrines of racism and hate is theirs as much as mankind, as much if not more does the concepts of love and devotions are not but a mystical means to stray not. That the world was made for the many to see greatness. All a lie in the wake of the death of many, Gods never existed, simply creatures with more knowledge then us, more time to develop, more time to become bored. In there vast and all consuming boredom, they made us, the ultimate and most entertaining thing of all. A planet with the foolish ideals given in what were told to be words of gods, but not so. They are words of creatures of boredom, creatures with the means to create and change a species to watch them aimlessly kill themselves. For their entertainment, we became the very thing we thought we were masters of. Our own humanity.
Thought as this racing through the mind of the lad are not that of truth and the realization why most in this mortal coil decided to kill themselves. Why not, after finding out the one thing you gave devotion to, the one thing you sacrificed so much for a god that really just turns out to be a creature to be treating us like a set of toys. To find out that you are nothing to any greater will, the decline of all morality was at a instant. With so many people devoted to a concept that was the limiter to the devious things inside. Well what happens when all they have to hold close to keep the evil inside is gone, they turned to fellow man and blamed them for the outcry of being mislead. Murder no longer a sin, mankind became bathed in the blood of the truly innocent. The ones who lead a life without a need to limit the truth and being inside. The religions of the world fell in a second and the whom who devoted peace and security became the darkest of us all. Manuscripts held back the demons we all have but some rely on a being of imagination to be good people. This fallacy is not know to the world as one, but known to all. This very thing was the only thing needed to capsulate what the creators acutely wanted. A world devoted to the unknown so they have a fear that keeps them kind. A fear to keep them honest, they laughed as this fear was a lie and it gave way to humanities worst. The devote with nothing to be devoted too. Then they become devoted to the animal inside.
Thoughts pass more and more of the world and how the fall was so quick, the feeling of the sun moving over the smoke blanketed sky and touching his skin again, gave the notice to begin the change in direction and get to finding resources before night falls and the once hidden become into the reality the lad lives in.
Chapter 2
The front door the the ramshackled store was pushed open, the curtain torn and left hanging as a monument of the unknown ravager that gave the fabric its fate. Stepping forward onto the small step before the door way, a look back to make sure that nothing is looking for a new meal in a tight location. The vacant enterence is left with more then enough room for the lads slender frame to slip through, A creaking door being opened, is the sound of a intruder to the living within. If within is a home to the living, the dead or the state of something not either but both. Dust and the remanates of old fill the air, a tense breath brings forth a tickle in the nose and throat that must be halted, sound is nothings friend these times. A focus that is found in the living to stay that way, slowly eyes are ever watchful. Stores sell mortem as much as voids of hope, no longer provisions of life. Shards of the window fallen onto the floor, the torn up mediocre store is not one of hopeful means but no matter what, will be investigated.
Good morning you wonderful creations of random evolution or creationism, how you both have such a great means in life. From your prayers to a god I do not understand, to the evolutionary ones who have a more logistic view of things. You are all so precious, both in body and minds, for you are the things that make life worth living. Without you, what other crazy articles and post could I read. You little nut bars are the best.
The day is starting out so wonderfully that it is hard to think that I am not part of some drug trial. To be enthused by a false means is the fate of so many that fearing this, I had to make sure the world I was jiving with was real and not a drug induced happiness, or dreaming. The results, just happy to be alive and able to read and write so the worlds made up in my head can flourish in reality. I just happy to exist and wish all days could be like this but, in all reality and all means of existence, we can not.
So the day is young and the sun rises and takes the sky as a celestial body, it warms the heart to have such a existence. To be able to see the snow dance in the air, to see the reaching mounds of snow in the crotch of the trees. Just able to know why and how these things can occur is a gift that is not for all but the ones who have the knowledge that is gifted. Not all humans are the same, we are all different, a magical and dark intentions we are not of the same cloth, but of the same plane of existence.
The world is wondering how the next day will come, with great means of production and happiness, or with the calm of silence by arrogance matched by power. They both are a outcome that is of the means of mankind. One will be us rising beyond the ape like emotional intelligence and having a god like weapons or will we be broken down by our hatred of difference, of deities, of laws and of color. How are we so apish and closed eyed to the very basics of mankind. Will one day will we see the horizon of advancement in the scientific and not bound to be limited by divine restrictions but held back by morality of life and death and not the requirements of a restrictive means of fear elevated by the divine and not sanctioned by the views of a book.
One day we can get there, it will take something to happen soon, as we are quickly reaching the tier of both science and religion can work together, soon they will have to separate and one will be the one who leads humanity. That is the scary part as when we once used religion as a divinity to culture, it lead to the death of billions, lets the evolution of mind and technology without the old hands of the divine laden. Let the ones who not see a god to fear but the mortality of humanity be the guiding light. I am tired of all the fear and causalities by the devotions of ones I do not stand beside in belief and how they dictate the evolution of humanity. We got through the divinity stage of development, lets not fall back into it. It was a very bloody time.
However I have to depart and get things done, as life never stops.
Is devotion a manuscript in us all, or do we have to face the reality that being devoted to a subject of life or not, is something we create to have a feeling of being important. The fear of knowing non of us truly matter in the universe, the last time a human was truly remembered was 2000 years ago, what in us thinks we matter that much. Why is the individual so consecrated with bountiful thought but malice is the lustful desires upon the top of manuscripts of humanity. I am just in deep thought of life and Hubertus of humanity creates for its self.
I love humanity, truly think its a blessing in evolution. just to sit here and have a set of words to say, a mind in conflictions enought to debate life. The state of being human is amazing, I am jsut curious, have we become lazy and rely on Neanderthalic means of thought and refuse to evolve that concept as it would lead to existential crisis no one wants to handle so we all stagnated in human development. Are we apes with god like weapons in the world of such advancements within technological means that we deny human evolution. We let the words of bombs and created disease talk, when the voice is slowly dying.
Late hours have a strange honesty to them. The world hasn’t put its mask on yet. Fewer opinions shouting, fewer obligations tugging, just you, consciousness, and that quiet hum that asks uncomfortable but important questions. It’s a good time to be alive if you’re the sort who notices things.
With the hours old and soon to be birthed again in the rotation of what was once considered divine, now a rock with attributes. Why have our perceptions of self evolved just as so.
In current year, what ever it may be, that is irrelevant. To the fair minded thoughts of the existence, it’s a damnation of being with a noted wick we compare to others. Adding more and more to the twisted infirmary of being is quite cute. Unraviling a slow insanity bound in all things of thought, of being. Each time words are attempted to be bound unto the sensation of sight it is burned from the very essesnce of time. Of what all things are bound to, only bindings of thought are truly free.
Sight lay over a heap bounded paper, folds in barring away any notion of the writings it once held. Slight movement beneath the fibers that give echo to the life beneath it. Burden of life is a echo of past glory, a sent out thought that life its self has become corrupted, almost diseased with knowledge and knowhow of the current existence. Foremost the sun still burns the day away, fore the night still holds the chilled wind that lifts dust to the air the ones cursed with life. Beams of light cut the dust with its reflective ways, a effect of the twisting notion of laws of existence breaking.
The revenant of humanity, lost in hope while waking. To be enfeebled by the lack of proper satiation leaves a mind burdened with dissociation, hope lost to the neathers of the mind. Bones encased in a organic suit, beholder of the thought, a human pulls aside a covering only mold would ever call a blanket. Pale skin, nails yellowed, knuckles stained with the excraments of time. Sliding off the coverings a layer of stale cloth moves within great resistance of the body and mind, a being slowly begins to take form in the rays of light that burn thoughout the broken, stagnate air. Eyes stained by the broken vessels that carry the paternity of this being. Brown hair, though truly not known if its the refuse of the world or if the hair truly held the copper stained bronze filament.
Looking around the small enclosure, once a toll booth, the lad groans in conciouness. Clearing the dried flakes from the corners of his eyes, a sensation each time reminds him he still is cought in the living world. With a raised eyebrow looking around shows a simple enclosure. Like all booths of the past, just medicore in substance with two shelves holding what has become the few edible things left around. A beaten box of hambaerhelper and a can of tuna for breakfast. Not apitozing but knowing what others have done, its not a pet or family member. To that thought the lads idea of breakfast was ended. Reaching out to grab his meager suppilies, tossed into a grain bag, back packs have become unreliable and the time and resources fixing ripped fabric is not feasible. A final groan leaves the lads lungs as reaching out to pull himself up, pained joints and knotted tissues benith the skin leaves much to the wanted. With the boxes sliding off the lower frame, twisting his neck, bending slight over using his hand to bat off what ever dust and grime he can from such a, well, not so wondrful bed last night. Two layers of pants, rips and holes bountful in both, are held together by little give birth to dust and some kind of crums from who knows what fall to the floor. With a final stretch of the limbs the lad looks to the sun through the glass and knows time is limited of to refill his leather water pouch and one would hope more pants. Suprizingly the glass door still holds complete, the world welcomes him with the embrace of the scent of old bodies still in decay, the copper scent still fills the air of last night victems. Animals mostly these days, what humans are left are scarce. To the north is the town that might hold some goods and the east is the bridge the toll booth gave access too. West shows a simple two lane road that leads into the horizon. A grey smog takes away the visablity that would grant some sence of security when heading into the town, cant always have it his way the lads moans under his breath. The thoughts of pushing ahead and trying to find the will to lift his leg, into a unknown war of senses are ahead.
Door, light yet groans from the hinges say time without being maintained signals the door giving way to the world. Air humid with the decay of the dead laying in the window frames of the various shops. Skin, long ago leathered in the sun, holds tight to the bones, only torn strips of the torsos reveil the moist organs inside. Sights like this have long ago stopped curling the stomach, the smell, that scent can never be fought from curling the torsos organs into knots almost forcing vomit forth. The road ahead is covered with the refuse of what was what a race of normalcy. Folded newspapers becoming part of the pavement over the time of rain and being crushed by whatever passed it without notice. Tipped over caution cones and various cars plant themselves where once people did fight back. The chaos however was just as deadly as the takeover was as quicker then anyone could have thought of. Shuffling his bag onto his shoulders the young man looks to his first building he is hoping has some basic supplies he can use.
Strips of rags swinging in the wind as the lad reaches the front of the home hardwear store. Walking at a cautious pace, not knowing if this shop holds something more deadly then the blades once used for box cutters. Beast or man, each of them are just as fearsome as they are both rage filled and hold no quarter for other man or beast. Truly this world has become each for themselves as teams are just enemies who are not currently trying to kill you. With each thought, both adding the weight of fear to the reaching arm to grab the door handle, the door opens without the grace of silence. A moan and scraping of refuse on the ground as the door sweeps the refuse into a pile that will never be picked up. Fearing the waft of decay, the lad holds his breath until the slight discomfort in his lungs reminds him that air is essential for life. With a slight wift of the air a sigh of thanks as the smell it not any worse then the outside, no smell of human waste or the rotting flesh of one of the creatures that only roam the night. Reaching into the right inside pocket a flashlight reviled, pointing inside the shop, entering gave a slight sence of protection yet also a sence of fear of the unseen.
The beam of light cuts into the darkness with fingers of the unknown trying to reach into the light, burned back by a force they cannot understand. Crunching under the slow footsteps, glass callouts the lads location. This give a moment of hesitation as waiting for a call back from mankind or other. Skittering life, most likely some kind rodent or bug running to the various holes in the walls to escape any type of danger. Broken shelves leave little to the hope to find anything in some kind of useful condition. Rolls of tear off rags are ripped apart as if some massive kitten had its play before leaving. Moving further in from the door the smell of oil and other petrol liquids are spilled out on the floor. Soaking into the random objects that littler the floor that allow so. Cans without labels dress the ground with most leaking or emptied by some large creature, much more then a man would be, has taken this place to the hell it came from.
Light reflecting of the smashed aluminum can, a signature of a better time where processing and development and creation. Any idea of any food or provisions crush with the barren can, also brings forth not any worry that encountering anything like him or not like him being around. The wet tile are signatures of the ceiling having holes and letting the world break through a once sheltered home. Stagnate molded air, a departure of the rot that laid assault to the senses outside, was not relief but a migration to another trojan horse of lies in hope of the fresh air. Ending each isle is not but broken and Razors edged by the shearing of the metal. With the quite steps are the agile survivors best way to get around. Each step is not as one would have on the streets of old, more like a balance on the edge waving between the ball of the foot and the every gripping toes as if fearing the ever bounding gravity would fail. Tossed around like a childs toys, avoiding the torn bags and wrappers of each varitiy to suppress any way to aleart the things that may be stalking the isles well.
Sweat beads lace the brow as the lad as the last of the isles are cleared of any other beings that would cause any threat to the lad, a quiet sigh is all that shows the mountain amount of relief. Reaching to the inside of the rags adorned over the lads carapace, a molded leather notebook, a tomb of the minds escape into ideas of a survivors hope. Basic notes are always the best, complications over the basic of ideas are a virus to being able to make it through this new world of cursed existence. Quick look at the graphite scribblings note a need of coffee filters and a hope of finding some charcoal fish tanks filters. Even just those would help with the somewhat purification of water. Shadowed shelves are bent, torn out or even just smashed into the ground by something in a rampage for victims. Torn metal leaves for the reason for the torn flesh of both human and not. What looks like strings of leather but known to really be the dried skin of whatever left this store in its disarray.
Broken railings are a score to the eyes to have a place higher into the building and its habitants. The cloth and debris upon the ground are a softer the not compared to the grounds of broken glass that is still form a foe of the unnoticed if not careful. With stairs covered in a array of cloth and other torn sheets of sorts. Though later they will be gathered and ripped to strips for band-aids, even if they are used as a mock shoe to soften the harden ground. Shoes are not as common as others expect and feet being so delicate. Faux shoes are a necessity in the is land of improbable hope.
Tired stairs are filled with the groans of time and weight as the lad takes slow steps up to the next room trapped in the fog of war, as if a uninvited mist leaks into the rooms and sight of mind is filling each room with a set of unknown figures. Air ripped of its virgin stillness is given to the cracks in the wall that the outdoor wind cuts though and turns dust into tumble weeds of the air. Never the less each step to the upper level is a snapped fine string of sanity, each with the hope of a bountiful room of needs. The darkness only cut with rays of light show the stillness of the rooms gives relief of the mind. Stillness is not a friend of the living, even a breath of the most hidden creatures of light or dark leave the air in turbulence. With the slow wisps of air are a clear sign that the room is holding no creature, friend or foe.
Light steps become, quieter then the sound of the lads heartbeat in his ears. Not seeking to call into the void, from his belt slides out a small metal bar that has a leather handle. With the leather handle in his hand, the steps become lighter with each reaching step. The light is slowly becoming brighter as the eyes adjust, making the upper level. Showing that the shelves were mostly untouched, the shelves having stock. This being a great luck as new clothing and patch work is needed to be done, giving a hope that finding some water would be a great help to refresh for the rest of the day.
The upper floor almost untouched shelves still containing boxes of merchandise, looks to be something of luck to be here. Each step a twisting wind follows the legs, turning the air as micro tornados lift the dust and give temporay life to the dead skin cells again. Death breathers, a running joke, every time you dust or vacuum, the dust in in the air is dead skin cells. Breathing the most likely dead back into your lungs. Disturbing but a notion blind to most. With silent breath each isle is studied carfully by the lad. A broken lamp and tossed boxes seem to be the general malaise of the upper floor. Mindful and aware, eyes darting to each potental box or tipped over container of what looks to be socks and underware. Both would be ran to by anyone of lesser mind. Creatures that roam the twilight and moonless night, abominations that have not a origin of no god or creator of life, but the essence of something made by the hand of mankind. For if made by a god or creator of life, then the life they see is not of kindness or kinship, but the living consuming each other for life. To devour each other so time is not a essence to them. That is not something devout to life, but devout to the ones who own life and consumes the weak to extend it.
Boxes line the walls and shelves, To open each one is a task that the lad would be second thought as the day is still lacking any water for nutrition and hydration. The main floor held no essence of aqua, the blue essence of life. Cracked lips and mouth corners split and showing signs of blood being the only liquid that passed the lips for days now. With fear of this being the last hope of any water to be found, even condensation on glass would be devoured right now to give even the slightest hope that the bone dry lips would feel the love of moisture again. Roaming the isles, a reductionist nightmare, each box contains everything but even the most flavored of fluid. The hope of any fluid quickly leave to be found in another location is not something the lad was hoping for. This turns a hope into the greater fear that death will not come from the mutations of the world, but from simple dehydration. A weak mans death.
Broken shelves leaning and resting on the shelve below, eyeing the various means of inventory, a crinkle was heard though the source was hidden under the fallen shelf. Means of life and knowing the daylights heat is holding most creatures to the shade, with the building destroyed and already cleared, the lad decides to risk noise for hopeful ambition. With steady arms and unforgiving tenacity, lifting the shelf is with groans of bent metal trying to return to its factory shape. Moans of inorganic origins, under the distorted metal, a six pack of water, torn open and only 3 left, this was a gift by the grace of luck, never a gift of god.
Plastic wrapped savior is the results of the tenacity of the lads means to survive, broken hope healed again by the clear fluid that will give another day to fight to just breath in another day.
Taking in the view with slight hesitation of it being a figment of imagination, the plastic felt as if it were a divine being, a lie but a lie that brings forth will to live for a bit longer in the world of rot and disease. Broken windows lay bare the street, wood and fever chance of security is a nightly need to find the next sunrise.
With a last look, taking in things that could be of value, taking of the ragged back pack, slowly sliding in the 2 water bottles and keeping one out to hydrate. Cracking the plastic seal, manufacturing not to be seen again, the cool liquid slightly burns the cracked and torn lips, a wince that is followed by the sense of hydration even the eyes start to water knowing the grace of water will give them the ability to tear up and clean themselves out. Know now that the body is in the mid 90% being of water, most would take the blood of the last living friend and turn the salted penny tasting liquid into a life saving fluid. Life saving for the one to find it in abundance, death to the one who gives this gift.
Seeking another possible source of water or food that is still a option for some kind of consumption. Slowly making the stairway down noiseless and still being observant as always with the death of many being that of preserved safety after clearing a room, once cleared, a room remains cleared for as long as your eyes can see it. After loss of sight, the room might as well be filled with the dominions of rotten and leather backed creatures.
With the door glass laying out on the floor, crunching under the shoes of the wizened lad, the bright mid morning is welcomed with a sigh of refreshment, looking over the small strip mall, each side contains a few buildings with most being nocked down by time and storm. Brick piles with the various blown debris covering the piles of decayed wood. Sun burnt fabric stiffened by years of radiation exposure from the sun. Break down in the very stands of fabric bring forth the dry rot and leaves it not but a pile of undisturbed dust.
With a refreshed mind and sight, looking to the stores that remain, fast food joint, gas station, a family diner that seems to be mostly intact, lastly a old general store that seems to be a old barber and before that unknown. Moans of wind though broken windows give howls of the dead world, a slamming back door gives call to the empty playground that no child would see again. If, if their is any children born again in the world. A travesty would it be called to see a new soul bound to the dust like all others who are pre born of the godless world.
With a dark thought boring its way into the mind of the lad, he steps forward to see what this small strip mall will offer.
The so called General store seems to be of the most use, a defined meaning to have “general Items” Could have a great implementations of life improvement. Well what can be called life improvements, Dry roads of fractured tar and rock mix, a wind with no sound but a scent of rot and decay is a spark to the senses that make for a alerted mind. The gust of wind turn a pile of bones and dust into a whirlwind of dust and fabric toying in the air, as if the wind has fingers to investigate the bones for what little moisture to dry up. Beads of sweat form on the palms of the lad as they are of nervous means when tracing into a new location.
Mid morning light is the means to see if the day will be hot or have some resolve to make sure it is not going to be a day of radiant heat to boil ones sanity away. Discovered by chance the lad standing in the shattered doorway of the store he just quickly searched, looking across the road, what road is left, is not but a door ripped off its hinges and the frame a entrance to a possible interlopers of death and decay. Blood shot eyes and a mind with slight hydration from the bottle of water. A better set of defensive equipment for the longer days ahead of travel to the next small set of buildings to find and hope contain more resources of life and inhabitation.
Stepping through the door the lad takes cautious steps across the ruin laden road, the general store becoming closer and closer that the suns mid morning crest is cut short and the lads figure mixes into the softer shade of a buildings reach.
Shattered windows and blood stained glass, a now blackened fluid that has become hardened with time and heat. Small amounts of vicar of the unknown is also cast upon the ground. Slow methodical steps take the lad from the broken road to the doorway that is but a marked by violence with no hanging door but a frame that is home to no swinging divider. A manifest of what happened lies in the death and ruins of mankind and the devote become the cast of the play that was the opening to the end of everything. They all thought that gods could be kind and understanding, that the creators of this creature known as homosapiens. It is not but the manifestations of creatures simply beyond mankind. When told we were created in the image of god, they were not wrong, gods come in the same shapes as us, the doctrines of racism and hate is theirs as much as mankind, as much if not more does the concepts of love and devotions are not but a mystical means to stray not. That the world was made for the many to see greatness. All a lie in the wake of the death of many, Gods never existed, simply creatures with more knowledge then us, more time to develop, more time to become bored. In there vast and all consuming boredom, they made us, the ultimate and most entertaining thing of all. A planet with the foolish ideals given in what were told to be words of gods, but not so. They are words of creatures of boredom, creatures with the means to create and change a species to watch them aimlessly kill themselves. For their entertainment, we became the very thing we thought we were masters of. Our own humanity.
Thought as this racing through the mind of the lad are not that of truth and the realization why most in this mortal coil decided to kill themselves. Why not, after finding out the one thing you gave devotion to, the one thing you sacrificed so much for a god that really just turns out to be a creature to be treating us like a set of toys. To find out that you are nothing to any greater will, the decline of all morality was at a instant. With so many people devoted to a concept that was the limiter to the devious things inside. Well what happens when all they have to hold close to keep the evil inside is gone, they turned to fellow man and blamed them for the outcry of being mislead. Murder no longer a sin, mankind became bathed in the blood of the truly innocent. The ones who lead a life without a need to limit the truth and being inside. The religions of the world fell in a second and the whom who devoted peace and security became the darkest of us all. Manuscripts held back the demons we all have but some rely on a being of imagination to be good people. This fallacy is not know to the world as one, but known to all. This very thing was the only thing needed to capsulate what the creators acutely wanted. A world devoted to the unknown so they have a fear that keeps them kind. A fear to keep them honest, they laughed as this fear was a lie and it gave way to humanities worst. The devote with nothing to be devoted too. Then they become devoted to the animal inside.
Thoughts pass more and more of the world and how the fall was so quick, the feeling of the sun moving over the smoke blanketed sky and touching his skin again, gave the notice to begin the change in direction and get to finding resources before night falls and the once hidden become into the reality the lad lives in.
In current year, what ever it may be, that is irrelevant. To the fair minded thoughts of the existence, it’s a damnation of being with a noted wick we compare to others. Adding more and more to the twisted infirmary of being is quite cute. Unraviling a slow insanity bound in all things of thought, of being. Each time words are attempted to be bound unto the sensation of sight it is burned from the very essesnce of time. Of what all things are bound to, only bindings of thought are truly free.
Sight lay over a heap bounded paper, folds in barring away any notion of the writings it once held. Slight movement beneath the fibers that give echo to the life beneath it. Burden of life is a echo of past glory, a sent out thought that life its self has become corrupted, almost diseased with knowledge and knowhow of the current existence. Foremost the sun still burns the day away, fore the night still holds the chilled wind that lifts dust to the air the ones cursed with life. Beams of light cut the dust with its reflective ways, a effect of the twisting notion of laws of existence breaking.
The revenant of humanity, lost in hope while waking. To be enfeebled by the lack of proper satiation leaves a mind burdened with dissociation, hope lost to the neathers of the mind. Bones encased in a organic suit, beholder of the thought, a human pulls aside a covering only mold would ever call a blanket. Pale skin, nails yellowed, knuckles stained with the excraments of time. Sliding off the coverings a layer of stale cloth moves within great resistance of the body and mind, a being slowly begins to take form in the rays of light that burn thoughout the broken, stagnate air. Eyes stained by the broken vessels that carry the paternity of this being. Brown hair, though truly not known if its the refuse of the world or if the hair truly held the copper stained bronze filament.
Looking around the small enclosure, once a toll booth, the lad groans in conciouness. Clearing the dried flakes from the corners of his eyes, a sensation each time reminds him he still is cought in the living world. With a raised eyebrow looking around shows a simple enclosure. Like all booths of the past, just medicore in substance with two shelves holding what has become the few edible things left around. A beaten box of hambaerhelper and a can of tuna for breakfast. Not apitozing but knowing what others have done, its not a pet or family member. To that thought the lads idea of breakfast was ended. Reaching out to grab his meager suppilies, tossed into a grain bag, back packs have become unreliable and the time and resources fixing ripped fabric is not feasible. A final groan leaves the lads lungs as reaching out to pull himself up, pained joints and knotted tissues benith the skin leaves much to the wanted. With the boxes sliding off the lower frame, twisting his neck, bending slight over using his hand to bat off what ever dust and grime he can from such a, well, not so wondrful bed last night. Two layers of pants, rips and holes bountful in both, are held together by little give birth to dust and some kind of crums from who knows what fall to the floor. With a final stretch of the limbs the lad looks to the sun through the glass and knows time is limited of to refill his leather water pouch and one would hope more pants. Suprizingly the glass door still holds complete, the world welcomes him with the embrace of the scent of old bodies still in decay, the copper scent still fills the air of last night victems. Animals mostly these days, what humans are left are scarce. To the north is the town that might hold some goods and the east is the bridge the toll booth gave access too. West shows a simple two lane road that leads into the horizon. A grey smog takes away the visablity that would grant some sence of security when heading into the town, cant always have it his way the lads moans under his breath. The thoughts of pushing ahead and trying to find the will to lift his leg, into a unknown war of senses are ahead.
Door, light yet groans from the hinges say time without being maintained signals the door giving way to the world. Air humid with the decay of the dead laying in the window frames of the various shops. Skin, long ago leathered in the sun, holds tight to the bones, only torn strips of the torsos reveil the moist organs inside. Sights like this have long ago stopped curling the stomach, the smell, that scent can never be fought from curling the torsos organs into knots almost forcing vomit forth. The road ahead is covered with the refuse of what was what a race of normalcy. Folded newspapers becoming part of the pavement over the time of rain and being crushed by whatever passed it without notice. Tipped over caution cones and various cars plant themselves where once people did fight back. The chaos however was just as deadly as the takeover was as quicker then anyone could have thought of. Shuffling his bag onto his shoulders the young man looks to his first building he is hoping has some basic supplies he can use.
Strips of rags swinging in the wind as the lad reaches the front of the home hardwear store. Walking at a cautious pace, not knowing if this shop holds something more deadly then the blades once used for box cutters. Beast or man, each of them are just as fearsome as they are both rage filled and hold no quarter for other man or beast. Truly this world has become each for themselves as teams are just enemies who are not currently trying to kill you. With each thought, both adding the weight of fear to the reaching arm to grab the door handle, the door opens without the grace of silence. A moan and scraping of refuse on the ground as the door sweeps the refuse into a pile that will never be picked up. Fearing the waft of decay, the lad holds his breath until the slight discomfort in his lungs reminds him that air is essential for life. With a slight wift of the air a sigh of thanks as the smell it not any worse then the outside, no smell of human waste or the rotting flesh of one of the creatures that only roam the night. Reaching into the right inside pocket a flashlight reviled, pointing inside the shop, entering gave a slight sence of protection yet also a sence of fear of the unseen.
The beam of light cuts into the darkness with fingers of the unknown trying to reach into the light, burned back by a force they cannot understand. Crunching under the slow footsteps, glass callouts the lads location. This give a moment of hesitation as waiting for a call back from mankind or other. Skittering life, most likely some kind rodent or bug running to the various holes in the walls to escape any type of danger. Broken shelves leave little to the hope to find anything in some kind of useful condition. Rolls of tear off rags are ripped apart as if some massive kitten had its play before leaving. Moving further in from the door the smell of oil and other petrol liquids are spilled out on the floor. Soaking into the random objects that littler the floor that allow so. Cans without labels dress the ground with most leaking or emptied by some large creature, much more then a man would be, has taken this place to the hell it came from.
Light reflecting of the smashed aluminum can, a signature of a better time where processing and development and creation. Any idea of any food or provisions crush with the barren can, also brings forth not any worry that encountering anything like him or not like him being around. The wet tile are signatures of the ceiling having holes and letting the world break through a once sheltered home. Stagnate molded air, a departure of the rot that laid assault to the senses outside, was not relief but a migration to another trojan horse of lies in hope of the fresh air. Ending each isle is not but broken and Razors edged by the shearing of the metal. With the quite steps are the agile survivors best way to get around. Each step is not as one would have on the streets of old, more like a balance on the edge waving between the ball of the foot and the every gripping toes as if fearing the ever bounding gravity would fail. Tossed around like a childs toys, avoiding the torn bags and wrappers of each varitiy to suppress any way to aleart the things that may be stalking the isles well.
Sweat beads lace the brow as the lad as the last of the isles are cleared of any other beings that would cause any threat to the lad, a quiet sigh is all that shows the mountain amount of relief. Reaching to the inside of the rags adorned over the lads carapace, a molded leather notebook, a tomb of the minds escape into ideas of a survivors hope. Basic notes are always the best, complications over the basic of ideas are a virus to being able to make it through this new world of cursed existence. Quick look at the graphite scribblings note a need of coffee filters and a hope of finding some charcoal fish tanks filters. Even just those would help with the somewhat purification of water. Shadowed shelves are bent, torn out or even just smashed into the ground by something in a rampage for victims. Torn metal leaves for the reason for the torn flesh of both human and not. What looks like strings of leather but known to really be the dried skin of whatever left this store in its disarray.
Broken railings are a score to the eyes to have a place higher into the building and its habitants. The cloth and debris upon the ground are a softer the not compared to the grounds of broken glass that is still form a foe of the unnoticed if not careful. With stairs covered in a array of cloth and other torn sheets of sorts. Though later they will be gathered and ripped to strips for band-aids, even if they are used as a mock shoe to soften the harden ground. Shoes are not as common as others expect and feet being so delicate. Faux shoes are a necessity in the is land of improbable hope.
Tired stairs are filled with the groans of time and weight as the lad takes slow steps up to the next room trapped in the fog of war, as if a uninvited mist leaks into the rooms and sight of mind is filling each room with a set of unknown figures. Air ripped of its virgin stillness is given to the cracks in the wall that the outdoor wind cuts though and turns dust into tumble weeds of the air. Never the less each step to the upper level is a snapped fine string of sanity, each with the hope of a bountiful room of needs. The darkness only cut with rays of light show the stillness of the rooms gives relief of the mind. Stillness is not a friend of the living, even a breath of the most hidden creatures of light or dark leave the air in turbulence. With the slow wisps of air are a clear sign that the room is holding no creature, friend or foe.
Light steps become, quieter then the sound of the lads heartbeat in his ears. Not seeking to call into the void, from his belt slides out a small metal bar that has a leather handle. With the leather handle in his hand, the steps become lighter with each reaching step. The light is slowly becoming brighter as the eyes adjust, making the upper level. Showing that the shelves were mostly untouched, the shelves having stock. This being a great luck as new clothing and patch work is needed to be done, giving a hope that finding some water would be a great help to refresh for the rest of the day.
The upper floor almost untouched shelves still containing boxes of merchandise, looks to be something of luck to be here. Each step a twisting wind follows the legs, turning the air as micro tornados lift the dust and give temporay life to the dead skin cells again. Death breathers, a running joke, every time you dust or vacuum, the dust in in the air is dead skin cells. Breathing the most likely dead back into your lungs. Disturbing but a notion blind to most. With silent breath each isle is studied carfully by the lad. A broken lamp and tossed boxes seem to be the general malaise of the upper floor. Mindful and aware, eyes darting to each potental box or tipped over container of what looks to be socks and underware. Both would be ran to by anyone of lesser mind. Creatures that roam the twilight and moonless night, abominations that have not a origin of no god or creator of life, but the essence of something made by the hand of mankind. For if made by a god or creator of life, then the life they see is not of kindness or kinship, but the living consuming each other for life. To devour each other so time is not a essence to them. That is not something devout to life, but devout to the ones who own life and consumes the weak to extend it.
Boxes line the walls and shelves, To open each one is a task that the lad would be second thought as the day is still lacking any water for nutrition and hydration. The main floor held no essence of aqua, the blue essence of life. Cracked lips and mouth corners split and showing signs of blood being the only liquid that passed the lips for days now. With fear of this being the last hope of any water to be found, even condensation on glass would be devoured right now to give even the slightest hope that the bone dry lips would feel the love of moisture again. Roaming the isles, a reductionist nightmare, each box contains everything but even the most flavored of fluid. The hope of any fluid quickly leave to be found in another location is not something the lad was hoping for. This turns a hope into the greater fear that death will not come from the mutations of the world, but from simple dehydration. A weak mans death.
Broken shelves leaning and resting on the shelve below, eyeing the various means of inventory, a crinkle was heard though the source was hidden under the fallen shelf. Means of life and knowing the daylights heat is holding most creatures to the shade, with the building destroyed and already cleared, the lad decides to risk noise for hopeful ambition. With steady arms and unforgiving tenacity, lifting the shelf is with groans of bent metal trying to return to its factory shape. Moans of inorganic origins, under the distorted metal, a six pack of water, torn open and only 3 left, this was a gift by the grace of luck, never a gift of god.
Plastic wrapped savior is the results of the tenacity of the lads means to survive, broken hope healed again by the clear fluid that will give another day to fight to just breath in another day.
Taking in the view with slight hesitation of it being a figment of imagination, the plastic felt as if it were a divine being, a lie but a lie that brings forth will to live for a bit longer in the world of rot and disease. Broken windows lay bare the street, wood and fever chance of security is a nightly need to find the next sunrise.
With a last look, taking in things that could be of value, taking of the ragged back pack, slowly sliding in the 2 water bottles and keeping one out to hydrate. Cracking the plastic seal, manufacturing not to be seen again, the cool liquid slightly burns the cracked and torn lips, a wince that is followed by the sense of hydration even the eyes start to water knowing the grace of water will give them the ability to tear up and clean themselves out. Know now that the body is in the mid 90% being of water, most would take the blood of the last living friend and turn the salted penny tasting liquid into a life saving fluid. Life saving for the one to find it in abundance, death to the one who gives this gift.
Seeking another possible source of water or food that is still a option for some kind of consumption. Slowly making the stairway down noiseless and still being observant as always with the death of many being that of preserved safety after clearing a room, once cleared, a room remains cleared for as long as your eyes can see it. After loss of sight, the room might as well be filled with the dominions of rotten and leather backed creatures.
With the door glass laying out on the floor, crunching under the shoes of the wizened lad, the bright mid morning is welcomed with a sigh of refreshment, looking over the small strip mall, each side contains a few buildings with most being nocked down by time and storm. Brick piles with the various blown debris covering the piles of decayed wood. Sun burnt fabric stiffened by years of radiation exposure from the sun. Break down in the very stands of fabric bring forth the dry rot and leaves it not but a pile of undisturbed dust.
With a refreshed mind and sight, looking to the stores that remain, fast food joint, gas station, a family diner that seems to be mostly intact, lastly a old general store that seems to be a old barber and before that unknown. Moans of wind though broken windows give howls of the dead world, a slamming back door gives call to the empty playground that no child would see again. If, if their is any children born again in the world. A travesty would it be called to see a new soul bound to the dust like all others who are pre born of the godless world.
With a dark thought boring its way into the mind of the lad, he steps forward to see what this small strip mall will offer.
The so called General store seems to be of the most use, a defined meaning to have “general Items” Could have a great implementations of life improvement. Well what can be called life improvements, Dry roads of fractured tar and rock mix, a wind with no sound but a scent of rot and decay is a spark to the senses that make for a alerted mind. The gust of wind turn a pile of bones and dust into a whirlwind of dust and fabric toying in the air, as if the wind has fingers to investigate the bones for what little moisture to dry up. Beads of sweat form on the palms of the lad as they are of nervous means when tracing into a new location.
Mid morning light is the means to see if the day will be hot or have some resolve to make sure it is not going to be a day of radiant heat to boil ones sanity away. Discovered by chance the lad standing in the shattered doorway of the store he just quickly searched, looking across the road, what road is left, is not but a door ripped off its hinges and the frame a entrance to a possible interlopers of death and decay. Blood shot eyes and a mind with slight hydration from the bottle of water. A better set of defensive equipment for the longer days ahead of travel to the next small set of buildings to find and hope contain more resources of life and inhabitation.
Stepping through the door the lad takes cautious steps across the ruin laden road, the general store becoming closer and closer that the suns mid morning crest is cut short and the lads figure mixes into the softer shade of a buildings reach.
Shattered windows and blood stained glass, a now blackened fluid that has become hardened with time and heat. Small amounts of vicar of the unknown is also cast upon the ground. Slow methodical steps take the lad from the broken road to the doorway that is but a marked by violence with no hanging door but a frame that is home to no swinging divider. A manifest of what happened lies in the death and ruins of mankind and the devote become the cast of the play that was the opening to the end of everything. They all thought that gods could be kind and understanding, that the creators of this creature known as homosapiens. It is not but the manifestations of creatures simply beyond mankind. When told we were created in the image of god, they were not wrong, gods come in the same shapes as us, the doctrines of racism and hate is theirs as much as mankind, as much if not more does the concepts of love and devotions are not but a mystical means to stray not. That the world was made for the many to see greatness. All a lie in the wake of the death of many, Gods never existed, simply creatures with more knowledge then us, more time to develop, more time to become board. In there vast and all consuming boredom, they made us, the ultimate and most entertaining thing of all. A planet with the foolish ideals given in what were told to be words of gods, but not so. They are words of creatures of boredom, creatures with the means to create and change a species to watch them aimlessly kill themselves. For their entertainment, we became the very thing we thought we were masters of. Our own humanity.
Oh how the day has been, Well a day, I have so much to catch up on with you guys and the recordings. As I slept most of the day and have no desire to do much, I must attend to the ones who are bountiful in my life. From the simple desires to say hello, to the various desires of moments that make me wonder how such wonderful humans exist.
Listing the world as it turns, to the music that is played outside when the wind blows. The creaking trees give majestic music that is only found in the frigid cold, the hollow calls of the wimpering wind through the leafless trees. Undead in the form of reaching to the sky in a wooden prayer. To the bought in the arms of the warmth, we are not alone and being here by myself, I do seek the warmth of another, to have the skin bound to me in a sense of warmth, a sense that I matter. Broken asunder is my name and I weep for the chest is lonely without another’s hand upon it.
Fatigue of mind and soul is not something that is bound to the ones who are surrounded by thousands. To the ones like myself that I find my self alone and thinking at night how valued one would be if here with me. A token of the hand that I wish to hold in eternity, one I hope to die with in means of not life but in tragic moments that only the alone can suffer but only the pair can solve. How I wish to read my books not just online, but to the one who would be bound in blankets in my bed surrounded by the comfort of pillows and stuffies. To have the mind lost in words of spoken means, Though not lost to me. Though wondering how the world will become is not a task for the simple, though many seek its answers. As I have become more in the reasons of body and mind, soul weeps for another.
I am not here to risk my being, but just to ask why, why and how come we are not found in better times. A odd question, but a question in honesty, a question in missed devotion. So I will hope to seek a chance to have a moment in life that changes the state of my being, to have one of another become one who finds me as a desirable as my heart finds the very sense of them a blissful narration of angelic divinity, of the bliss that is found in two hearts beating as one.
This is something that I think we all feel, Something I think we all fear most of all but speak not of it as it is a banquet of fears. To feast is to face them with the verbosity your heart desires another.
Rise and shine, How I hope the day has woken you with both grace and integrity. With the dawn I watched the sun rise with glittering ice on tree limbs, the ground is covered in snow, the chickens are still roosting in their heated coop. Just a wonderful day to wake up too, I am just a happy clam.
The day has many tasks planned for it, I have dishes to do, floors, get fire started and the driveway cleaned off. I am just happy to exist today and I have a lot of things to so and its just happy to be alive today. Its odd to say sometimes but I am not always in these jovial moods and when I am, I am just happy. Here is to hoping you have the same type of day.
So the plan is to get as much done as I can as I have to catch up after being sick for a couple days. I have to say my room stinks like sickness, that is nasty. So after the other jobs are done, I can have a hot shower and make sure to have a good non sick sleep, so I am just happy to be here and happy to be alive. I am wondering if the snow would be packable and I could start making a igloo. I make one every year just for fun and great exorcise. That and it is a lot of fun to do.
With that I am also tasked with making sure the dogs are happy and the kitties too, they are just as important as all other critters around here. That is just the way it is, the animals are loved deeply here and I am to make sure they know that. As all good animals, they get the best pets and the best loving moments as I am proud that they trust me.
I also want to fill the house with wood and get a good fire going so the parental units are happy to come home. A warm and clean house is a big win when you have a chance to relax. It makes the world a better place when people have a person at home to help keep things clean and warm so that when they are not fighting to find comfort after a long day. Just makes a good day, a happy home, a good life.
But I must depart to get things done and will be back later. Your not lucky enough to get rid of me.
So ummmm, What happened, the internet just seemed to turn into a cry space. A don’t touch me there, though I said to let me touch you there, of conceptual and real things. I am very confused as to when the the human race became so weak, did I shift to a plane of existence that is not my own and I am now in a world of constant involuntary babies who cry as they are not the reason for human, phycological, Para social and incestuious common place of the so called intellectuals. Like wow, just wow.
So when I speak of this I don’t mean the foodies and the travelers, nor the ones who read or the ones who make wonderful renditions of music. They are seemingly still stable, for now. However these things like what is going on with this Candice Owens, just to start with her, causing a isidium among the vegetables of humanity. Just a growth of malignant and viral outcropping of disease and hateful manners of collaborations.
To have the words to bring callous to the very death of a human being, to award the inceptives and devolved, a system of not truth or logic, even being wrong can be logical, but a system of raising the (metaphorical) decayed body to the world to say “look, it was this person or this person who did it.” With nothing attributing to the reasons of this but pain. The only reason this is being done, well for idolization as the feeling of being the golden cow is failing.
From that to the whole shooting at Tim Pools Compound and what it has turned into. A vicious disease that spreads here as well is the disease of feeling like you matter. You don’t, honestly 99% of all people born and deceased mean nothing. You get one out of 2000 years roughly who become a notion of change or development. Trillions of people before you did not matter and trillions more after you will not matter. You will change nothing, you will have no impact on the human landscape and due to this, people do things that they think will matter forever. Old Timmy boy is not a actor of malice, though sometimes wrong and sometimes belligerently cruel it is his way. Though some things he says are involuntary conkers, like all of us who say odd shit, it is not enough to warned death to a man who speaks. Even jesters can be right. So why become one of these sociopathic, unimportant, never to be remembered, never to be thought of in pride do such a thing to some one in the same boat. Timmy may have lots of money and lots of people watching him, he will mean nothing in 50 years, less then a life time will make him irrelevant, he knows that I think. Why I hope the only thing in the world that he finds worth living for is his family.
The might Peirce Morgan has become a home bound name has become the mockery of all. From his wife telling us all the dirt she feels for him and yet he holds some kind of social predication. I don’t get it, Well I have to mention also not just that but his character and his motive have become a slime ball. To try and become what is not, is to become a fool that is the mockery of all your intentions. Why are people like him and his fall down more important then the rape of a lot of the children of his county men. Oh that is right, according to them, the rapes are not ‘Really” happening, they just need to accept the culture of others more and it will stop. We can see it in our own streets, the screams and horrors of a corrupted nations come to your home and you do nothing, then the payment you make is a loved ones innocence. I think we need to come back to a old idea. I really think that we as a western culture have one thing left and if not, then we are screw. We have to remember, “violence against a invader is not a solution, but it is the answer.”
I am just really confussled about this thing we are creating, a viral outbreak of humanity against the grain of acceptance. Will you sacrifice your humanity for the notion you are of acceptance, or will you protect your humanity and stand as one who must be accepted. I think the former is the one a lot have taken.
Good morning you wonderful creatures of life, I do hope you find yourself in some good sense today. For the day is somewhat what better as I am not as sicky and nasty feeling. Yesterday was horrible, today is not so bad, still feeling rough and feel like I got the shit kicked out of me, yesterday was worse, like I got ran over. So as it goes I am trying to get things done slowly today and the sun is starting to rise and it gives me a bit of drive to get things finished. I have to order in some instant coffee and creamer. I am currently living off it right now as food is really undesirable right now.
I am thinkin of getting up and doing some things around here, I am going to snowblow the driveway and make sure that the parental units are able to drive in without worry. Just to make sure they are safe. Last thing I would want to do is make it so they are suffering as I am sick. Life as a adult who is sick means you only get the minimum of sympathy as it is required to exist but is not something that should be eaten daily. Makes for weakness as fighting the illness is just as much mental as it is physical. Refusing to give up is half the battle, we have to fight to keep going, just how much we fight is next to how good we do.
However though quite short, for that I apologize. I must be off to get things done that are needed before the meds wear off and I feel like death again.
In current year, what ever it may be, that is irrelevant. To the fair minded thoughts of the existence, it’s a damnation of being with a noted wick we compare to others. Adding more and more to the twisted infirmary of being is quite cute. Unraviling a slow insanity bound in all things of thought, of being. Each time words are attempted to be bound unto the sensation of sight it is burned from the very essesnce of time. Of what all things are bound to, only bindings of thought are truly free.
Sight lay over a heap bounded paper, folds in barring away any notion of the writings it once held. Slight movement beneath the fibers that give echo to the life beneath it. Burden of life is a echo of past glory, a sent out thought that life its self has become corrupted, almost diseased with knowledge and knowhow of the current existence. Foremost the sun still burns the day away, fore the night still holds the chilled wind that lifts dust to the air the ones cursed with life. Beams of light cut the dust with its reflective ways, a effect of the twisting notion of laws of existence breaking.
The revenant of humanity, lost in hope while waking. To be enfeebled by the lack of proper satiation leaves a mind burdened with dissociation, hope lost to the neathers of the mind. Bones encased in a organic suit, beholder of the thought, a human pulls aside a covering only mold would ever call a blanket. Pale skin, nails yellowed, knuckles stained with the excraments of time. Sliding off the coverings a layer of stale cloth moves within great resistance of the body and mind, a being slowly begins to take form in the rays of light that burn thoughout the broken, stagnate air. Eyes stained by the broken vessels that carry the paternity of this being. Brown hair, though truly not known if its the refuse of the world or if the hair truly held the copper stained bronze filament.
Looking around the small enclosure, once a toll booth, the lad groans in conciouness. Clearing the dried flakes from the corners of his eyes, a sensation each time reminds him he still is cought in the living world. With a raised eyebrow looking around shows a simple enclosure. Like all booths of the past, just medicore in substance with two shelves holding what has become the few edible things left around. A beaten box of hambaerhelper and a can of tuna for breakfast. Not apitozing but knowing what others have done, its not a pet or family member. To that thought the lads idea of breakfast was ended. Reaching out to grab his meager suppilies, tossed into a grain bag, back packs have become unreliable and the time and resources fixing ripped fabric is not feasible. A final groan leaves the lads lungs as reaching out to pull himself up, pained joints and knotted tissues benith the skin leaves much to the wanted. With the boxes sliding off the lower frame, twisting his neck, bending slight over using his hand to bat off what ever dust and grime he can from such a, well, not so wondrful bed last night. Two layers of pants, rips and holes bountful in both, are held together by little give birth to dust and some kind of crums from who knows what fall to the floor. With a final stretch of the limbs the lad looks to the sun through the glass and knows time is limited of to refill his leather water pouch and one would hope more pants. Suprizingly the glass door still holds complete, the world welcomes him with the embrace of the scent of old bodies still in decay, the copper scent still fills the air of last night victems. Animals mostly these days, what humans are left are scarce. To the north is the town that might hold some goods and the east is the bridge the toll booth gave access too. West shows a simple two lane road that leads into the horizon. A grey smog takes away the visablity that would grant some sence of security when heading into the town, cant always have it his way the lads moans under his breath. The thoughts of pushing ahead and trying to find the will to lift his leg, into a unknown war of senses are ahead.
Door, light yet groans from the hinges say time without being maintained signals the door giving way to the world. Air humid with the decay of the dead laying in the window frames of the various shops. Skin, long ago leathered in the sun, holds tight to the bones, only torn strips of the torsos reveil the moist organs inside. Sights like this have long ago stopped curling the stomach, the smell, that scent can never be fought from curling the torsos organs into knots almost forcing vomit forth. The road ahead is covered with the refuse of what was what a race of normalcy. Folded newspapers becoming part of the pavement over the time of rain and being crushed by whatever passed it without notice. Tipped over caution cones and various cars plant themselves where once people did fight back. The chaos however was just as deadly as the takeover was as quicker then anyone could have thought of. Shuffling his bag onto his shoulders the young man looks to his first building he is hoping has some basic supplies he can use.
Strips of rags swinging in the wind as the lad reaches the front of the home hardwear store. Walking at a cautious pace, not knowing if this shop holds something more deadly then the blades once used for box cutters. Beast or man, each of them are just as fearsome as they are both rage filled and hold no quarter for other man or beast. Truly this world has become each for themselves as teams are just enemies who are not currently trying to kill you. With each thought, both adding the weight of fear to the reaching arm to grab the door handle, the door opens without the grace of silence. A moan and scraping of refuse on the ground as the door sweeps the refuse into a pile that will never be picked up. Fearing the waft of decay, the lad holds his breath until the slight discomfort in his lungs reminds him that air is essential for life. With a slight wift of the air a sigh of thanks as the smell it not any worse then the outside, no smell of human waste or the rotting flesh of one of the creatures that only roam the night. Reaching into the right inside pocket a flashlight reviled, pointing inside the shop, entering gave a slight sence of protection yet also a sence of fear of the unseen.
The beam of light cuts into the darkness with fingers of the unknown trying to reach into the light, burned back by a force they cannot understand. Crunching under the slow footsteps, glass callouts the lads location. This give a moment of hesitation as waiting for a call back from mankind or other. Skittering life, most likely some kind rodent or bug running to the various holes in the walls to escape any type of danger. Broken shelves leave little to the hope to find anything in some kind of useful condition. Rolls of tear off rags are ripped apart as if some massive kitten had its play before leaving. Moving further in from the door the smell of oil and other petrol liquids are spilled out on the floor. Soaking into the random objects that littler the floor that allow so. Cans without labels dress the ground with most leaking or emptied by some large creature, much more then a man would be, has taken this place to the hell it came from.
Light reflecting of the smashed aluminum can, a signature of a better time where processing and development and creation. Any idea of any food or provisions crush with the barren can, also brings forth not any worry that encountering anything like him or not like him being around. The wet tile are signatures of the ceiling having holes and letting the world break through a once sheltered home. Stagnate molded air, a departure of the rot that laid assault to the senses outside, was not relief but a migration to another trojan horse of lies in hope of the fresh air. Ending each isle is not but broken and Razors edged by the shearing of the metal. With the quite steps are the agile survivors best way to get around. Each step is not as one would have on the streets of old, more like a balance on the edge waving between the ball of the foot and the every gripping toes as if fearing the ever bounding gravity would fail. Tossed around like a childs toys, avoiding the torn bags and wrappers of each varitiy to suppress any way to aleart the things that may be stalking the isles well.
Sweat beads lace the brow as the lad as the last of the isles are cleared of any other beings that would cause any threat to the lad, a quiet sigh is all that shows the mountain amount of relief. Reaching to the inside of the rags adorned over the lads carapace, a molded leather notebook, a tomb of the minds escape into ideas of a survivors hope. Basic notes are always the best, complications over the basic of ideas are a virus to being able to make it through this new world of cursed existence. Quick look at the graphite scribblings note a need of coffee filters and a hope of finding some charcoal fish tanks filters. Even just those would help with the somewhat purification of water. Shadowed shelves are bent, torn out or even just smashed into the ground by something in a rampage for victims. Torn metal leaves for the reason for the torn flesh of both human and not. What looks like strings of leather but known to really be the dried skin of whatever left this store in its disarray.
Broken railings are a score to the eyes to have a place higher into the building and its habitants. The cloth and debris upon the ground are a softer the not compared to the grounds of broken glass that is still form a foe of the unnoticed if not careful. With stairs covered in a array of cloth and other torn sheets of sorts. Though later they will be gathered and ripped to strips for band-aids, even if they are used as a mock shoe to soften the harden ground. Shoes are not as common as others expect and feet being so delicate. Faux shoes are a necessity in the is land of improbable hope.
Tired stairs are filled with the groans of time and weight as the lad takes slow steps up to the next room trapped in the fog of war, as if a uninvited mist leaks into the rooms and sight of mind is filling each room with a set of unknown figures. Air ripped of its virgin stillness is given to the cracks in the wall that the outdoor wind cuts though and turns dust into tumble weeds of the air. Never the less each step to the upper level is a snapped fine string of sanity, each with the hope of a bountiful room of needs. The darkness only cut with rays of light show the stillness of the rooms gives relief of the mind. Stillness is not a friend of the living, even a breath of the most hidden creatures of light or dark leave the air in turbulence. With the slow wisps of air are a clear sign that the room is holding no creature, friend or foe.
Light steps become, quieter then the sound of the lads heartbeat in his ears. Not seeking to call into the void, from his belt slides out a small metal bar that has a leather handle. With the leather handle in his hand, the steps become lighter with each reaching step. The light is slowly becoming brighter as the eyes adjust, making the upper level. Showing that the shelves were mostly untouched, the shelves having stock. This being a great luck as new clothing and patch work is needed to be done, giving a hope that finding some water would be a great help to refresh for the rest of the day.
The upper floor almost untouched shelves still containing boxes of merchandise, looks to be something of luck to be here. Each step a twisting wind follows the legs, turning the air as micro tornados lift the dust and give temporay life to the dead skin cells again. Death breathers, a running joke, every time you dust or vacuum, the dust in in the air is dead skin cells. Breathing the most likely dead back into your lungs. Disturbing but a notion blind to most. With silent breath each isle is studied carfully by the lad. A broken lamp and tossed boxes seem to be the general malaise of the upper floor. Mindful and aware, eyes darting to each potental box or tipped over container of what looks to be socks and underware. Both would be ran to by anyone of lesser mind. Creatures that roam the twilight and moonless night, abominations that have not a origin of no god or creator of life, but the essence of something made by the hand of mankind. For if made by a god or creator of life, then the life they see is not of kindness or kinship, but the living consuming each other for life. To devour each other so time is not a essence to them. That is not something devout to life, but devout to the ones who own life and consumes the weak to extend it.
Boxes line the walls and shelves, To open each one is a task that the lad would be second thought as the day is still lacking any water for nutrition and hydration. The main floor held no essence of aqua, the blue essence of life. Cracked lips and mouth corners split and showing signs of blood being the only liquid that passed the lips for days now. With fear of this being the last hope of any water to be found, even condensation on glass would be devoured right now to give even the slightest hope that the bone dry lips would feel the love of moisture again. Roaming the isles, a reductionist nightmare, each box contains everything but even the most flavored of fluid. The hope of any fluid quickly leave to be found in another location is not something the lad was hoping for. This turns a hope into the greater fear that death will not come from the mutations of the world, but from simple dehydration. A weak mans death.
Broken shelves leaning and resting on the shelve below, eyeing the various means of inventory, a crinkle was heard though the source was hidden under the fallen shelf. Means of life and knowing the daylights heat is holding most creatures to the shade, with the building destroyed and already cleared, the lad decides to risk noise for hopeful ambition. With steady arms and unforgiving tenacity, lifting the shelf is with groans of bent metal trying to return to its factory shape. Moans of inorganic origins, under the distorted metal, a six pack of water, torn open and only 3 left, this was a gift by the grace of luck, never a gift of god.
Plastic wrapped savior is the results of the tenacity of the lads means to survive, broken hope healed again by the clear fluid that will give another day to fight to just breath in another day.
Taking in the view with slight hesitation of it being a figment of imagination, the plastic felt as if it were a divine being, a lie but a lie that brings forth will to live for a bit longer in the world of rot and disease. Broken windows lay bare the street, wood and fever chance of security is a nightly need to find the next sunrise.
With a last look, taking in things that could be of value, taking of the ragged back pack, slowly sliding in the 2 water bottles and keeping one out to hydrate. Cracking the plastic seal, manufacturing not to be seen again, the cool liquid slightly burns the cracked and torn lips, a wince that is followed by the sense of hydration even the eyes start to water knowing the grace of water will give them the ability to tear up and clean themselves out. Know now that the body is in the mid 90% being of water, most would take the blood of the last living friend and turn the salted penny tasting liquid into a life saving fluid. Life saving for the one to find it in abundance, death to the one who gives this gift.
Seeking another possible source of water or food that is still a option for some kind of consumption. Slowly making the stairway down noiseless and still being observant as always with the death of many being that of preserved safety after clearing a room, once cleared, a room remains cleared for as long as your eyes can see it. After loss of sight, the room might as well be filled with the dominions of rotten and leather backed creatures.
With the door glass laying out on the floor, crunching under the shoes of the wizened lad, the bright mid morning is welcomed with a sigh of refreshment, looking over the small strip mall, each side contains a few buildings with most being nocked down by time and storm. Brick piles with the various blown debris covering the piles of decayed wood. Sun burnt fabric stiffened by years of radiation exposure from the sun. Break down in the very stands of fabric bring forth the dry rot and leaves it not but a pile of undisturbed dust.
With a refreshed mind and sight, looking to the stores that remain, fast food joint, gas station, a family diner that seems to be mostly intact, lastly a old general store that seems to be a old barber and before that unknown. Moans of wind though broken windows give howls of the dead world, a slamming back door gives call to the empty playground that no child would see again. If, if their is any children born again in the world. A travesty would it be called to see a new soul bound to the dust like all others who are pre born of the godless world.
With a dark thought boring its way into the mind of the lad, he steps forward to see what this small strip mall will offer.
The so called General store seems to be of the most use, a defined meaning to have “general Items” Could have a great implementations of life improvement. Well what can be called life improvements, Dry roads of fractured tar and rock mix, a wind with no sound but a scent of rot and decay is a spark to the senses that make for a alerted mind. The gust of wind turn a pile of bones and dust into a whirlwind of dust and fabric toying in the air, as if the wind has fingers to investigate the bones for what little moisture to dry up. Beads of sweat form on the palms of the lad as they are of nervous means when tracing into a new location.
Mid morning light is the means to see if the day will be hot or have some resolve to make sure it is not going to be a day of radiant heat to boil ones sanity away. Discovered by chance the lad standing in the shattered doorway of the store he just quickly searched, looking across the road, what road is left, is not but a door ripped off its hinges and the frame a entrance to a possible interlopers of death and decay. Blood shot eyes and a mind with slight hydration from the bottle of water. A better set of defensive equipment for the longer days ahead of travel to the next small set of buildings to find and hope contain more resources of life and inhabitation.
Stepping through the door the lad takes cautious steps across the ruin laden road, the general store becoming closer and closer that the suns mid morning crest is cut short and the lads figure mixes into the softer shade of a buildings reach.
Shattered windows and blood stained glass, a now blackened fluid that has become hardened with time and heat. Small amounts of vicar of the unknown is also cast upon the ground. Slow methodical steps take the lad from the broken road to the doorway that is but a marked by violence with no hanging door but a frame that is home to no swinging divider. A manifest of what happened lies in the death and ruins of mankind and the devote become the cast of the play that was the opening to the end of everything. They all thought that gods could be kind and understanding, that the creators of this creature known as homosapiens. It is not but the manifestations of creatures simply beyond mankind. When told we were created in the image of god, they were not wrong, gods come in the same shapes as us, the doctrines of racism and hate is theirs as much as mankind, as much if not more does the concepts of love and devotions are not but a mystical means to stray not. That the world was made for the many to see greatness. All a lie in the wake of the death of many, Gods never existed, simply creatures with more knowledge then us, more time to develop, more time to become board. In there vast and all consuming boredom, they made us, the ultimate and most entertaining thing of all. A planet with the foolish ideals given in what were told to be words of gods, but not so. They are words of creatures of boredom, creatures with the means to create and change a species to watch them aimlessly kill themselves. For their entertainment, we became the very thing we thought we were masters of. Our own humanity.
Ugh. The sickness has found me, for this I am feeling the most icky, Thus you must suffer me and the cute pictures to show how awful I feel. Yes I am rather dramatic when sick, just because I don’t get sick often, so when I do it is rather nasty. Ugh I am such a weenie right now, just as I am trying to get stuff done the will dies quickly. Its not just any cold, its a man cold, they are just different.
As the night moves forth and I am slowly coming to terms with the idea that tonight is no recordings but because my voice sounds like a graded cat. Not good at all, very horrendous, very ugh.
Moving to the slightly better news is that I am going to work on the story on here. I am hoping to make it so the world is more developed and something of a cleared idea of what happened. Just to develop the mind of the world. Just so that a idea can form over the mind of the book, just as a person, a book changes over time being read, so during the change it must be noticed and develop more personality, to keep ones mind racing for the end. A end that is both satisfying and seems to have grown with you as you read it. Sounds odd but as we age, we notice that things change for the individual even if the many cannot see. Words seem to become the timeline and the feelings devout and morose. So we must make sure that when we create things, these things in life, they grow with each reality for each person, the most of the world cannot fathom this, they cannot fathom that their world is not the core of all people. Just them and it is devastating when they become aware that they just don’t matter to the others core world that they live with. Not the collations of we all live in a equal world. That is the greatest joke of all time. Just waiting on people to realize they are the punch line.
Just a random thought from a sicky who is debating on the world and himself.
Good day you wonderful creatures of life and love, how I am so happy to embrace the snow and see how the world turns. The snow is falling and I love it so much, though my head hurts like a bastard I am happy that the Christmas will be white for the kids. They will be happy to play with the snow and make things as the wrapper they ripped open lays on the floor. Toys are located in every room and joy fills the room, it is a good time of year. The only downside is the merchandising of the holiday, that is something we all are victims and guilty of.
Well I am back, yes I got messed up in sleep schedules again, so me up all night while the world (concurrent to my location) rest in the slumbers of a nights blanket. A devoted and loving sense when under the blankets, a far sought comfort afforded to the few who know its meaning. Not in sexual desires, not in the wrappings of another human. Alone in the the fabric humanicide of your essence and you have a unshielded core that is shivering in the fear of acceptance. Under the impenetrable fabric weaving your soul out of you like a yarn ball becoming smaller in the use of creating something new. The heart is no longer what beats, its the souls beating the walls down to the embrace the fabric wonderland that is the cave of consolations of gods. In this fortress of wonder and truth is the only time ones heart no longer beats to the drum of life, it beats to the very natural fears of all beings of thought. The fear of importance, the fear of not being special. Then the truth is in the loathsome truths we all fear to face even in a battalion of warriors. The fact in the end of all great things the singular matters not, not one king or queen will ever be remembered by the indagate future evolutions of our species. Who can recall the last great king or queen of unremarkable empires. The ones who are forgotten yet the whole life of the being is to be remembered as a great leader. In time, the memorial of man will be forgotten too. Forgotten to the wastes of a unfilled sky, to the starless night, to the cast of the cosmos. We must find and defeat these realities not in the vast wars of mankind for a religious win, not in the blood of the ones who slay for the land masses classed greater then others. We face this wretched reality when the night comes to claim our wakeful thoughts and drift us into the very honesty of the micro second before sleep. That one moment in the vast thoughts of all mankind, So sorrowful that you even shed a tear unknown to the conscious mind, that tear is that remaining hopes against the walls of insecurity knowing the truth, we are as the sand. Gracious and kind to some, the breeding grounds of many, but one thing the grain of sand will be, is forgotten.
These are truths I think we all face and have much to deliberate when facing such gravatas of a realization. Fear not for it is not for the future to remember and love us, it is the right now we have to show that we do matter. That in a moment of time in this seemingly endless universe of cold and uncaring empty voids, this very second, very micro second, you matter to me. Become that for someone else. Not the memoriam of the life that once was, but for the very moment you become a essence in their life. For that may be the moment that saves them from the abyssal reality of the universal truth, that we are more then what we are to each other, we are the ones who become the lost and forgotten, but never the ones who did not share in its endless horror and finding peace in that.
Good morning you wonderful creatures of life and thought, how I do love that you have come across this little world of mine, As it is showing that even in nameless distance, you have found my silly little world and have a part in it.
The morning has become a ritual of coffee and dreams being echoed in the mind as they slowly become the basis of my tales. To have a memory become a tale of wonder and loss, that is something we should see in ourselves, that the world is not a prison of limited life and succulence on devotions. That it should be a gift that is not born of life or death, but is found in sincerity of the human condition.
Lie, cheat, steal, take life, give life they all have the same outcome to all, death and the dive into the twilight of mastered eternity. We are not ones to discuss and facilitate the truth of death and its realm. For the living are ones bound to life and death is meant for the ones who have the chance to dance in the river of eternity. Either by your god, your goddess or your benevolence of existence causality, the river is not a place for the living, it is the place that souls and gods of men dance.
Even the days have become the vastness of my thoughts of the world, no longer do I ponder at night the valuations of existence. Finding the transportations of thoughts and human considerations, bounty has been my reward. Bounty in thoughts and manifestations of the people out in the world created timelines and faculties that are not my own but effect me as a human of insecurity finds it in the command of others. Little do they know that the securities that they created in control is the very constructs of the downfall. Hope in constructions to lead to adorations that would give the masses the means to forget or blindly focus on the developed and not the rotten, quite the world we live in.
BRB Coffee Refill!!!!!
Ok back, The coffee is good, coffee is life.
Looks like we are getting more snow and that is ok as I got the snow blower fixed and it is ready to go. So bring it on snow!! I shall be the victor of this icy battle of wills. That and I have to get a fire going in the house and in the tent. Then I want to make sure that things are all warm and toasty. That way the day is comfy and not devolved into racing for heat and hope. As both are tied together and have a tendency to become one.
The soft academia music plays in the background and is giving a sense of wonder and hope as the hot coffee passes my lips. Gazing out the window and resting the coffee cup on my chest the heat warms my heart and brings a warmth of life and love to my soul. Just a loving and hopeful morning that is trying to become a great day, might just happen.
One of the best recent investments is a coffee cup warmer, it is just a simple plate warmer that keeps me happy and warm on the inside, the way life should be.
But I must depart as the day is asking for me and I must answer her, So until later.
Good morning most wonderful beings of life and love, for how I am so happy that you are alive. For things in the world would changed so much just from your presence not being here. We change so much just by existing that the importance of your being is beyond fathomable.
The morning is starting out hungry and I am thinking of making a egg wrap with bacon bits in it. Very good and filling, yes I am going to make one, if we have wraps. Hmmmmm, I shall be right back;
Ok, back and yes it was damn good and I think I might make another one shortly. Just because I do have lots to do today and having the foods in me to support a busy like day. That and its cold out and I don’t want to burn through all the reserves of energy and I also need to put on fat for the winter. Just to help keep warm and not run out of energy when trudging through the snow.
So what is the day turning out to be, well I have to bring in loads of wood and make sure the house is warm, then I have dishes to do, chickens, kitties and the usual. Oh have to put the cover on the snowblower as it is all fixed and I have much to so in moving snow. So really just a normal day and maybe some extra to be done but never too much when you have a good morning, with good food and good coffee gives you a great day.
Oh when I have the chance I have a video to edit and make sure I get the next video up. The book I am reading is all about the tales of specters, cyprids, horrors of all accounts in the very early Americas. It is a very good book and in the nights post tonight I will have the title and author, as it is quite the good book.
To the morning I must be tasked too, So I will be back and hope to have a tale of adventure or two for you loverly people.
Good day to you wonderful creatures of life and thought, how I am all so glad you have become part of this chaos we call life and love. For being a critter of life, it is wonderful to be alive and having the chance to just exist. It may be a odd thing to say but I would wonder if we are able to live and know of existence of mind trapped in a world of no sensations. That would be a hell like no other, to crave and desire just a touch, even pain would be desired as it would be at least a touch from another existence and not left to a void of all but you.
Onto the more happier things of the day, I have fixed my audio so I no longer have such a horrendous sounding recording. Some how a child voice over was added and on top a weird hissing noise. So now it is all fixed and sounds so much better and not a insult to the ears. It was that for sure, a heinous creation of vocal and recording that was out to murder the ears of all. So I hope I put down all recordings of it and now it lays in the decay of forgotten disease.
The rest of the day and most likely the night will be turning into more production time and used to make sure all other things are moving along like a sweet taste of the lozenge of love from grandmother. A task that is not brought through the menial, a task of memories, a task of dreams of younger humans that we once were before. That we wish we could become again, not beholden to time but a essence of timeless ambitions. Truly is a wonderful thing, regret and monitions of the past. We are the regrets of our past and the hopes that a future is not bound in the exiles of human thought, but in the heretic glow of change and devotions to bettering the world. However is that not what we have always been, a acidic breakdown of historical rhetoric to be a future of rhymes and notations of us all.
The day however has been kind and productions of the dailies is amazing, from puppy snuggles and cat leg bumps, to the fish who are always watching us and have thoughts of self grander much like us just in a smaller universe. The windows are beginning to slightly frost on the outside, thus I must check the fire downstairs to make sure the coals of life are not out. For the constraints of a house to the cold is strong but never infallible. For passages of glass leak such heat into the wild yonder of the white frozen landscape. Melting not but becoming the cold air and linking in fractals of ice. I wish the beauty of this land to all as I have begun to see why such things were mysteriums of both past and future minds. To have the entrapment of ice and snow to be the death of many in the tree wells but yet a preserver of life with insolation based in the same frozen water particulates, is a home under ground of the smallest of creatures. Warmth in the bosom of earth and yet we are to be the ones to build things ever so high in the wind of Icelandic spears and become even softer then the most smallest of our mammalian kingdom. We are human and human is what we will be.
But I must depart as par the usual is to be done, for night is my sacrifice to the world of of tranquility as it may give me yet more time on this world.
How life has become a great giver of the things I crave. How the nourishments of the mind have become the many and I have great pleasure in the basking of the human race. Not withstanding the fact I am one of the human race, I want to observe and see the curious toiling of all the things we hope and wish for.
How the world has become a thing of wonder and beauty, to see the outcome of the minds and the souls of so many become one. It is beautiful, almost in a horrific way, not disturbed by the insecurities of the many who make a set of gods to give right to the lives of not believers. I have to say I am becoming a wonderer of these things that are not of good or bad, but of the things humans just do for what ever reason. I have become the investing mind when one human on a land mass that is not ones home, but is the land mass of another human, same being, same evolution, same blood, same skin, yet the beheading of one to the other as to make the ones who make gods among men. To have a great kingdom in the bath of blood. Odd and we are innocent even as the babes of the womb. We are not a dictation of freedom, but bound to the skin color we are born to, to have the world broken by the eyes that look upon you and not by the life you have. To be taken by one and be viewed as a monster and to have another see one as a goddess. It is very human and very disgusting when you have such creatures with out the commodity of language and without the reasons of complications of community, yet have more humanity if we want to call it that then the very humans the word is divined from. How hypocrisy has become thy clothing.
I just want to show humanity what it is and not what it thinks it is, to see past the devoured into the concepts of humanity but the truths of humanity. The reality that the world is devised by the ones with the same communion that bask in the greatest numbers. I want to know why when such humans are so devised to kill and subjugate the ones who speak with different words or have different friends above, so they are to be taken and killed for the sanctity of ones own people yet not to look at another in the same devotion they would give a unseen being. They have a great way to say why, but never a great way to ask why, fear is a powerful thing.
But I must depart as I am becoming a fool of thought and must have another coffee and break through the malaise of the waking hour.
Good evening dwellers of the night, for the suns reflection on our planetary offspring. It too is not forgotten as we who bask in its wonder often see more the days silken blue can never show. A shattered sky of the mind of a mad man, colors and events we try to prescribe a meaning too; to slow to realize that those events are not of what we see, they are what once was. Never to be what we see it as again, stars of creatures long beyond our mindset or comprehensions, burned by the violence of a dead star. Death not to one or two of the greatest species and greatest minds that have become the understanding and development of the cures to time and the devoid minds of the stunted. For they are the last to see such things as before the minds are to become shared to the infinite expanse. It burned away into the obscurity of broken atomic structures that have no memory, only a shattered sphere of rock and stone wrapped around a still burning core.
With boundless ideas that are not always to our own kind, to have such a unnatural and devout mindset to ones own glory, it is not but a vacant reproduction of thoughts once had in the infinite. They are brought forth by the ends of strings of once was a greater mind then all of us bound to one. Much as the time has granted us the world of wonder and development, it is not but a micro second to the vast interloper that is the cosmic misanthropes who are but the ones who are not here to help or hurt. Not to develop nor to destroy, they seek not us in the vast nexus of our little patch in our galaxy, they leave us to what we are, the very senseless roaches we are to them. Why become the god of roaches, why become a greater being that these mistakes of evolution that gave way to the destructors of atomic mass to just kill the ones, who, in the wars they create, take life of more then just the ones they call friends not twenty years in the later. This is the bounded truth, something we all fear and have created gods that would be the savior of such truths.
These are the thoughts that the night bring when looking into the devoid skies as are only to see what primitive eyes looking into a old and timeless expanse that has seen a endless sets of these very eyes are the harbored of endless woe. Yet the ones who are not yet gifted with this, they are yet to see greatness in the abyss. They see the potential as each day is not but a black void turned into memories of the past. Each day to face the dark and shapeless unknown is to give it memoriam of a named being, a construct of mind and sight. They become less then what they wore and cemented into the name bounded to it by our language. It is given a title and reason of existence.
This is what I fear more and more every day, that the sight of the many will take the beautiful dark mysteries and the cosmic abyss becomes not but a name title that takes away all its glory in shadow. It becomes humanified, it becomes boring. So lets not name all things that sail the nights skies just yet, let not the sails of the wonder and timeless expanse become not but a torn vail that hides nothing more.
Good day to you and your wonderful existence, with the world turning ever so gracefully and without task that has become a grain of sand in the silken life you wish to accomplish. For the trials like the paths we walk, have given us both the chance to fight with force and to declare wonder before the questionable.
The day who I have much love for, has become a gift to the many as we have sun light in the cold, snow covered ground, to warmth we seek a fire and a sense of being. Winter is not the depression that we are blaming the long nights for. For they are the thoughts that have always been there and only become more apparent as you seek the light in the darkness. For this we must learn, the darkness is not the harboring master of our downfalls. It is the things we feed into the darkness and when the hunger grows and we have no more light to feed the darkness, then it becomes our thoughts that we must feed the darkness. Then we feel its true weight and medicate it away. Never a fix, never a solution, never a reason to seek a medicated being to not fear what we are.
So in this I often debate in myself that have humans become the very thing we create in our dream, demons of darkness living in the light. The very beings we fear is exactly what we become, letting the light hide the truth that is only reveled in the darkness. Think of it as the things we are once told are fairy tales and mystical beings are just the recognitions of what the things we are, Fairies are but the ones who love and dissection of humanity and has become not but a small infection that spreads a greater means of destruction and manipulation, The ones who are the bringers of the undergrowth of insidious beings are not but a foreign things, much like the elves of mindsets, they are not real but are the past down though out the families and religious means to dictate a monstrosity of all others. They are the ones who beseech you to dismay and faulty means of thought. Then these elves become the leaders of our own downfall. For we will see what they see by illusions. That they are the godly ones and we are insectoids of creation. A lie to create a mindset of suitability only to devotions that are a lie. The greatest creature that lies in the dark we try to hide is not a fantastical creature, not a being of human creation in mind and body. It is our own reflections of who the skin hides and the soul sees. Bountiful seductions.
More then just our hopes and dreams die in these hands and I only wish the rebirth of these wonderful things when the humans understand, that we are the reproductions of human frailty. For that we must take our cracked beings and repair them not with the sacrafice of others. Only in the training and self reasoning can the crack that has become our being. It is a journey that only wondering the darkness inside will find a being that lights of the spiders eyes, are the lights we need to find peace with.
I must depart and keep the day rolling as much is to be done and more is to be allocated some time to internal debate.
Good evening to all who come to pass this threshold of time and space, without you the existence of mind is flaccid and remorse of any meaning. For without compiled thought and mind set, would we be even here to read or write anything. That is why I thank you in Chibi-Thulu ways. For I have found a peace in his and Chibettes creation and spreading stories with them as a social face. Just to have them take visual stories that tell a tale separate from the spoken tale.
They are a creation that I want to keep going as it shows a very existence that we are not alone in the creations, we have made many things that have become in a sense a life of their own. From art to tales, from creation to destruction, art and beauty can be found in all of them.
The nights have begun to chill and the hopes and dreams of warm nights are not here until the new year comes and takes hold on the directional alignment of the planet and we again face the sun. For many a days will be filled with the cold infrequent nights of icy and reformed water, a distinct and formulated science to manifest snow and icicles on the ice bound trough, A sincere development of fractals and devoured heat. They are beautiful and they hold the times of transference that we will never have the hope to understand. For to understand the non experienceable is a impossible task, for to know the feeling of a exoskeleton is not ours to know, to have the scales of a snake is not ours to manifest in mind. To have the ice take our blood and tissue and not have it take to the destructive means, impossible. So we must not bask in the facilities of the other but have the minds to understand we have not become what our minds are capable of. We are but the protoplasmic of the evolutionary chain that we understand. To process more then what we are is to be a fool of fools. We are mighty, we are bound, we are human.
Tasks of the night beholden me to a task set that is not of mind and worry, but of means to become a set of minds that I have been able to separate in my own consciousness to become what I am needed to be, A fool, a manifest, a creator and destroyer. Symptomatic to the means of the world yet a creator of my own is stronger. To have these things is not of value but of sincerity, as what we are is a lie and a untold truth, we are the discovers of lands and existence. We have taken bounds to the great unknown as a species, yet we hate and kill as individuals, even so the many have become in both religious means and social means to rape the context of humanity out of each other. Truth is decorum is not a truth but a absence of honesty and humanity, many times in the most recent of years, decorum has become the means to kill and mutilate little girls, to have the boys taken as concubines and yet we still hold onto the devolutions that skin makes a difference. What makes a difference is humanity and not validate the means of incest and child rape as a means of a god (imaginary friend) say it is a good thing. This is the true human inside us, a depraved and molest devolved species in many ways. As a disease to me they should not be sanctified in a prison like we do but tend to the gardens as they become compost.
The light in us all is not found by a greater being, not found in the sacrifice of any others body or mind, the light is not found in the crimson tides of slain warriors, it is found in the self when you take the hostility of malice and turn it into a justified way to have more then the absence of light take form and you become its eliminator. I would feel nothing to take the life of a monster who hurts the young for own lustrous means. To have the chance to have a reflective metal with a edge so clean that cutting out such beings, would leave no stain and leave not remorse, but revelations of removal of such a diseased animal. That is to us what we have always done, culled the sick and the diseased, why not bring it forth to the ones who hurt the ones we talk to and not just the ones we feed upon. Are we more caring to the meat then we are to the child, have we become protectors of food and salesmen of lust and depravity. I see not how we can be much more then that as a whole. Why I have become what I am, a remover of disease, a hollow man of undescriptive means to eradicate disease and have all bodies who posses it, they will be cured with the flames of both wood and fuel. To soak them in the refinement of natural oil is to purify the body of all will to hurt. As we all scene and all know even with eliminations of desires and hope, disease is still disease.
The day is starting out wonderfully, From the coffee to the morning snuggles from dogs that are just looking for a warm lap to snuggle in. All the way to the world bound to the exterior and the cold sense of snow and ice have become the master of vanishing ground. The icy substance is a sign of planetary orbital means, to show us the very thing we live on is a shifting and twisting sphere of mechanisms not all understand. From tribes back in time seeing the changing seasons as a godly influence to now, knowing its a rotational effect of the planet. When we used to see a white kingdom waiting to be built, now many see a menace to be moved, a kingdom of back pain and devotions to making it out of a driveway. Sometimes things don’t change but our view of them do. We just become a bit to jaded at times, time to see the snow as we did as kids, a creators dream. Maybe things would be better if cynicisms is not considered a natural evolution into adulthood.
Woot woot fresh hot coffee and now extra time to sit and relax for a few more mins and have a bit of time to think and ponder the day, just to see what I plan to get done. Driveway and the kitchen is normal of course, then having some time to make sure the house is cleaned and warm and the other things will be tasked to the day.
I am wondering what I should do first, dishes or the driveway, I am still having breakfast and coffee so I am debating the process until I get there. Then I will be happy with the out come. The day seems to be struggling to get going but I am also just getting into second coffee, so I might be waiting for the first to hit the spot and give me some get up and go. Just as of right now the get up and go has got up and gone.
With the morning taking till now to be light outside I could say it is that and the shift to get to used to less sun and more night, now if I could just record and make stories that would be different, however I would not get anything else done and that would be quite bad. I would suffer immensely so they must be done. I wish not to suffer in life more then I do (as I should as all life, is not meant to be easy).
All though I would love to stay I do have to get up and get things started, from dishes to the floors, then the fire and such. So I will be back maybe tonight to see how you wonderful humans,
To the day is greatness as I am slowly working towards being up 24 hours, Again. That is ok as I am trying to make sure to get lots done and more thoughts and production to videos and images. Much like the one above it will be a tale told in pictures and the tale will be told through the recordings. Each scene will display more adventures and events that are big in the Chibi-Thulu world. As happy as I am with them and I have pride in the creations I have made.
Onto the day, the snow is coming and I am getting ready for the winter, as we all should. Just as all things that are locked in the short term memory, people forget that snow is slippery, that ice is not all that great to drive on. Ditched cars and trucks, fender benders, more and more bumpers piled up in snow mounds from people not remembering that concrete stops are in front of parking spaces. Just things that are funny to me, they have a habit of doing that to me, humans making me laugh at, and with them in the turmoil we create in our own existence. Just a thing I love, humans are funny creatures, devastations’ in simple errors, great horror in truth, fear in the known, just funny critters.
Oh yes I have gotten a much better mic and I am happy to say it sounds so much better and much more clear. So I am very happy with that and I have much to record now that I have a better mic, just had some tough times with certain books and or speech was hard to come through clean. So now it does and the happiness is out-worldly. That and just having a good day and got lots done and even fixed a snow blower today. Just a wonderfully productive day and having lots more to do in the future. Time is the thing needed and me having enough left to get this stuff done, it will make my family happy.
Though short I have to go as I am burning on fumes being up for 28 hours in the past 32 hours. I need to get things tied up and done for the night.
Fear the Chibi-Thulu, For he is all knowing and is the greatest of the elder gods, That and I just love him so much. I have made a friend in him and though that is odd to say it is important that friends exist not just in the physical but in the heart and in the mind.
One thing I should do is make him a friend to have. Even if its a tiny Elephant or something that is obscure but still holds a cute factor that matches its eldrich monstrosity.
So I did it, Chibi-Thulu has a gf now and she came out wonderfully.
She turned out wonderfully and I could not be happier with how it came thought. I am going to have to make up lots of pictures of them two together and have them grow as a couple. Just in snap shots of life and how things will grow. Just to have them around is kinda neat, they will help become a source of joy and life to the stories. Maybe one day I will write one that is the story of chibi-thulu ark and how he and her came together. Hmmm Something else I should do is have a name difference. So it will be Chibi-Thulu and Chibette-thulu. Just because I am happy and I like them. They are a creation of mine and might just have to make a time line. Something sweet but tragic, a decor of freedom of the shifting realities but still hold a tangential amount of horror to them. Just because all things in life need love. Not just the things we consider alive, but the things we create too. so they have a meaning to our hearts. If a god of man can be created and found in a book, why cant god of the Thulu’s become something more then just a page stained in ink.
However I need to warm up my coffee and get ready soon to record more stories that will find their way online soon enough. I just hope that one day, just one day, we can find ourselves in the contemplations of love and exploration, not seeking divinity and adoration of false means. Just one day, just once, we see that we are encompassing a fate we choose to make ourselves. When do we stop creating turmoil where humanity could flourish.
Good you wonderful creations of life and hope, how I hope the day tickles your fancy and you have a wonderful day.
Behold the creator of all cat-tostrophys, hehehehe, I am such a nerd I love it.
So the day is going along in a sense that I am a happy critter. I think I have gotten a good sequence underway and I am a bit on the late side but I am feeling the jive, its a good jive.
There; The fire is going and the dishes are going, the house will soon be a warm blanket of love and wood heat, a great start to the day and I know 1:30 pm is not the start most think of, but I am up quite late most nights trying to make something of myself with my book readings. I am trying and that is all we can do, is the best and try to make it for your family.
So the world is still turning and we are still alive and that is a good thing to some, others may not agree, but that is the concept of human kind. To exist and and have various minds we do is something extradentary, if we are alone in this, who knows, but to have a planet that we are inhabiting and communicating across is. Quite the state, to have the world bellow out fingers yet to be beholden to figures of fantasy, quite the state indeed.
Hehehehehe I love the chiboidis-thuluist. The species I have created and I am happy to bring it to the world. For he is a great creature of many skills and has many things to prove to his eldrich family that he is able to rule with both mysterium and divinity. He has become something special to me. Because, because he is the way I get to show some of then things inside that I can’t explain but have a big part of me shown in these little guys.
Things like this are showing more then I could ever imagine, a simple art that is not just a picture but a idea that came within, a great story told not in words but in depictions of life and hope. Just a happy thought and a happy scene to show the insides I have such a hard time talking about.
All in all I am a happy critter with lots to do and lots to think about. I am also getting a bit on the hungry side and I am curious as to what the fridge holds. Hmmm Might even makes some toast, maybe, some eggs, who knows but I am a critter with a hope that the world is not done with us just yet, not just yet.
I am thinking of maybe going out and seeing how the world is turning and how the animals are doing. Just to make sure they are doing good and that I am not too worried about them as it is nice out but having some fresh air. The chickens and cats are always doing good but I have to make sure as they are outside and they have the heat and such but I wish to make sure they are good and happy.
Before I go I will bring forth a picture of the chibi-thulu, Just because I love them and he is a big part of my life now.
He is such a great idea and I wish the best for him in future ideas that come forth and see if I can make a bit of a story for him. Just because, I don’t know but it just seems right.
Oh the day tasks me today, weakness and inability haunt my existence, inability to walk any distance and stairs are impossible. For this is my existence today and sleep is but the only escape. How these days task my mind and yet to task me is to knock me into a firnification of both sleep and weakness.
However I do wake to find myself missing the blog post and seeing how words seem to come out. So with that I am happy to be here, even though I can not keep mind and body as one, I am to become a writer in mind and time with effort takes my fingers to write my story. Minds and body are not the same and I am trying to figure out, how and why each step takes the fortitude of a army and yet to move is a impossibility that haunts my existence.
To the day I will come to a benign and forgiven to the weakness of ailment, the broken lines of my body cannot carry the fortitude required to function today. For sleeping is not a answer, never is, but is the reality I must not conquer the day, but wait in perseverance to allow repair of the neuropathic highways to find my body in mind of my own.
Tranquility is not the found, is not the lost, it is the knowledge of the have and have nots are one in the same simply divided by time. To the broken the rich are not but a memory, and to the rich the broken are tales of the foretold of the grievous errors to take a man of gold, to a man of broken means.
Without the means of location transfer I am bound to this spot. Even the functions of eliminations of waste are not in function and I have to make sure to time my day, even if I have no success I have to go and try every couple hours or so. Sound disgusting I know but on these days it is a must, as I am unable to feel such desires. I have much to think and say but the link to the words and the hands are not broken but hang on the thread of the last thought and not the last subconscious means. Even breathing becomes first hand, I must try to remember to breath or they become gasps every couple minutes or so. Even if those happen not, I simply pass out and have not the power to waken until the highway of information is functional again.
This is not fun, but is a part of my life and I shall not become divided from life and death, but become a existence of both and know that I am not the world of function and development, but one of contemplations.
However all things cannot continue and this too shall pass, but in time. For this I must depart and get more done in sense of reason and writing.
Good day you wonderful creature of life and love, I do hope your day has begun with the hopes that mine has. Here is to hoping that you are able to find the one thing today that makes you smile. For the day is a opportunity to be ok with life, to be ok with how the day has become what you have needed and what you have desired. For the day is ours to create in it what we desire and hope for.
So the day has been wonderful so far and many plans to get as much as I can so I can work on my stuff tonight. I am also busy with keeping up with animals and other things. Just life is good, having things to do and making sure the life we lead is busy as to not fall into the trap of the never ending cycle of human inadequacy. I am just happy to be able identify that without cause we are a very destructive species if we are left to our own minds. We lack a fortitude that was once ours to hold tight and never shaken.
Fire is going and warming the house, parents are moving the living room around and I could go back to bed and sleep the day away. Just a tuckered day I guess. That is ok as a Sunday is another day with just a bit difference on how it starts. Just how the week goes, long days, short days, tired days and days of boundless energy. Today is just not one of those days and I am fine with that. As I can nap and then work on videos later tonight. I have to make sure to take care of the Jimmy as well. Oh that is right, who is Jimmy, The neighbors dog and I watch over him when the owners is at work. Just to help out and make sure the fur babies of the world are taken care of.
Also with the day I am to work along the side of this little tablet and get some more things done in the art of making sure I have the next book ready to go as the one I am reading has on but a few chapters left in it and I don’t want a delay in jumping into the next book. I am thinking another horror type book but make sure it is a enjoyable read. Not a over induced in the physical graphic but a story to toy with the mind of the listener and reader. Just so I am enjoying it as well as the rest of the humans.
All in all a good day, a lazy day and that is ok as I am ready to make sure the house is good and animals are happy, other then that I have some readings to do later on and then that is it. Just because I want to have days when recovery of body and mind are taken into serious account. For without them I am nothing more then a set of digital code that is flowing evermore in the sea of incomprehension. For that would be a death that is feared by all.
However I must depart, things are to be done and I must not hold back the need to………. nap. Ugh, mind weak and body slow. Time to rest. Time to work in a chair and not a disturbed essence walking around attending to the other things.
The beach, Just for me it is the last place the truly Unknown is left on our planet, How I would hope the sea holds a secret to unity but I find that to be a dream of great distances. However when the sea becomes the ones who own the land, when time comes that the land is not a place of life anymore. I hope the imagined life of the deep sea lives on, for they are the ancestors of all life here, we are but the children of time, they are the children of life’s determination. We are so different in the means and hopes of life, yet eternally inclined to be one in the same when the cosmic scales come to weigh the view of life.
It is a mystical adventure in to the depths of what we once called home, the things we call monsters are the things that have had millions of years to evolve. They are the perfection of the evolutionary change they needed. We are the monsters of evolutions outcome, not yet finished, not yet set in stone, millions of years await us to find such a being in us. If we make it to the time that evolutions has perfected us, as we have determined perfection is in the eye of the beholder. Not the reality we live in.
Good evening you wonderful things that give existence to thought and discussion, For your minds are my gifts to penetrate with odd writings and thoughts that you are not or you are, a greater being of life and liberty. To bask in the millions of souls that have a chance to see suck simple words I write are but a dream of mine. Letting these words and the works of visual stimulation have become a way to have ones of greater and lesser mind then myself to think. To have a tranquility of mosaic thoughts and never be part of a standard that is not of my own making. To dwell into the night and see the great bosom of nature and planetary divinity on a disc of evermore wonder. Inside a vast and truly our minds must call it endless as we cannot conserve of such a place. It is a blanket of comfort we are hear in a steady rotations of a stable luminary. We are to be the ones who see this and become invalid or become a boundless one, to become the ones who not see the hopelessness of structural incompetence to its vastness.
A beauty of death and life, a unconscious clock, a forgotten and forgiven twilight blanket. If we are to be casual and not to be the things we call sick and disastrous, then we are the devout to the ones who came before us. Not in worship of godliness, not to bound the dead in a memoriam of sin or gracious means. All these things we give such a grandeur meaning and never the truth and suffer the incipience of past and future. That we are all born scared and alone, the warmth of the fluid and body of your mother torn from you and cold world of unknown intrusions of body and soul. A slap to the behind and then laying on a familiar and yet foreign sensations. Torn from our world of development and security, to the world cold and alone. Alone in thought, speech, emotions and sight. Understood by none, fear in these things that manipulate and twist your body into a course and cold wrap. Then sounds that are common to the monsters of indiscretion and mutilations, body parts cut from me and what look like the veins of life are every where, powering things unknown to the child and the innocence. Yet we are raised to be more, thought and minds are to be of the common and never to the beautiful. A world where beauty is not but the past inked onto parchment, the art of a man or woman divine not in matter, but memory. Truly we are a creations of means and not of thou in mindset to become more.
Even in the most wonderous minds we are still bound to the real, how this is tormented by the soul all so creative, by the mind that still grasps the invaluable thoughts of one and uncorrupted by the means of ridicule. Feats of greatness are bound in the minds who state that generality and modernity is a state we created and for its creation we pay in all our ability to created and imagine. The modern world is not of passion and desire, but fractals of families that now hold hate over bounded blood, who hold the divine in the internet as a greater being then all who become our caskets carriers, we devout to hostilities and yet expect the ones we curse with immorality to be the morel ones to carry us to our final resting place. Soon enough, those who bask in modernity become the ones who become ash as not one is bound to the love that would once carry you to your grave. Yet now we rather the cold touch of a incinerator then the final looks of love and hope you found peace in death. With all the bounded to technology, we are all bound to a loveless death.
All this I chose not to be, I chose are not to be my beings means, they are means of the many, I rather suffer the few.
Let this be a means to communicate love and devotion to the flesh and not the material. Bound in hearts of the few is more important then remembered by the many as a creator of lifelessness in steel.
Until later these thoughts are boundless and yet have become to be know only to me in this form of flesh.
Humans!!!!!!! It is a good day, A chilled day, A lovingly crisp day, A Chibi-Thulu day.
So I may have missed the past couple days of writing in but I was taken aside by some things that had to be done and took over the days I woke up too. The night was blissful and mine, I like it that way as I am able to get lots done and able to make sure that I am not missing out on talking to you lovely people. Just a good day and I think I am finally in the groove of having the day and night time set like a champ, just to get lots done and might have to see if I can double my blog post. One in the morning and one at night. Just to have a bit more out and have time to think and have time with you.
Of-course I am to oblige the ones who are part of this journey with me and I hope that the kinship, the tales I give is not to be seen as a grab for attention but a call to the ones who find the trials of humanity and the devotions to a semblances of “correct life” and find the bliss of a comfort in the procured obscurity of thought of more then human reasons. More then the reasons for life and seeking the different in the world and not the usual. Dark books written by a torn mind, the world of disconcerted jesters and broken knights who have not been home in a lifetime, rusted plates cover the bones of the past.
Hehe I love Chibi-thulu, He is the best thing I have come up with in a very long time. He is a good guy just trying to make it through the day like the rest of us. Bring hope and joy to the ones he loves and the ones he has yet to know.
So the the day is wonderful and the sun is breaking through the clouds and making the light through the window warm and comforting. A kind of the warmth that heats not just the skin but the soul as well. A kind of heat that is natural and something that is meant to be. Kind of like the feeling of the darkness around you abraded by the light of a camp fire, light pure of creation and life. Fallen wood to dry and make a great reliever of fear and the pain brought by the unknown and the things our minds create when we cannot see through the blanked twilight.
For the day is coming along and the night is to come yet to the world I find home. Many things to attend to and many ideas to write and books to find. I only hope the day comes when spoken word is a loved as muted riches.
For I must depart, for the night is coming and I have much to do before the twilight calls my eyes home.
Good morning you wonderful creatures of planetary development and means. How this day may task you, You are worth more then the effort ever put into the task before you. Besides how else do we grow as humans. We tried killing each other, (still trying that one) we tried religions and that just lead to the first thing we tried. Then we tried countries and boarders, then people were not happy with what they are given and then move to other countries to infect it with a culture not born of such land. To covert the old with the new is to be a means to kill knowledge with adaptation, truly a massacre of mind and body. To bask in the world we are to be apart of, is the oddness that we have yet to become whole as a planetary existence.
Onto the more wonderful things of life, I do hope you have a life you are happy with, having things is not happiness, owning land and having proprieties of investments. All things I have seen once before and all I have seen be a burden to all and never and source of true personal happiness. True personal happiness comes from the sigh of the morning or tea passes your lips, a momentary set of brief seconds the peace known only to the simple and formulated with not a means to be a cure, but to be a moment, a moment that is yours. This is much as the time that we are finally found something worth existing for.
Though I have very uncultured and venomous thoughts time to time, we must accept these as the being of thought that we are, we must become aware of things even those that burn us in instant awareness, the scar left behind is the knowledge of the old ones. The ones who have lived many lives before us. The ones who have taken life and the ones who granted life, they know the pain of existence. Seen both the start and the end, they are the ones who take life into their bosoms and hold with care each second. For each second is a death and a birth, each second is a defined moment of both cure and disease. This is not a causations of the human condition. From cancer to black holes, from the birth of a child and the moment being told the cancer is gone. These fears, destructions of life and of many things we hold close. They are the things we should not fear for the sake of loss, but respect and become aware of the end of things is not the end of mind or consciousness, just a change of being and how acceptance of things brings pain and joy.
Oh how the day is wonderful as things are becoming complete. Chickens are let loose and the fire is gong like a burning essence of the hells heart, just a wonderful morning that is leading into a wonderful early afternoon. I have much to do still and should get off my buttocks and find the next thing to attend too. Such as dishes, floors and more then I care to mention. As they are the task to be done that helps hold a house together. Born ascended we are ones who can change the very world we live in. Change is not happiness, but happiness is the culture of change. Adaptations and fulfilling the desires of the broken, minds weakened by disease and bodies formed in ways that are not casual. They are things that will either be us or become a instant in life that changes things, puts things to sleep and keep some things awake inside us. Pity is not a gift but a burden to them, kinship and formality of humanity is one of the things sought by the ones beholden to the curses of being human.
We are all human, but that does not mean the correlations and the means of death and life are equal to all, some are part of the prosses of both and some have never seen the events that takes those words as their own. In scrutiny we think we possess the means above others, yet never show acceptance of the ones who hold them up. Devotions are not meant to become the outcomes of others declining in life, but to enrich the lives of the ones who still stand under you supporting your being. Shit not on them or the ones bellow them, Shit upon the ones above and prove you are the betterment, you are the observer of declinations, the creator of life and inseminator of death. All of us are. We just have to be a bit better then the last ones.