Well then, What a night and day, I have not had a rough one in a while. Umm so its kind of like you loose the ability to have a quick thinking mind, the body becomes extraordinary weak. To the extent that a fork is hard to pick up and use. Very very shitty, One of the major things is my heart doesn’t see to work right, its beats feel very weak and I have a hard time getting it up and going. Kind of like I have a governor on my heart that wont let it go above 80 bpm.

Now with that you can imagine that the body when moving feels very weird and limbs have 1/4 the ability to move. Of course very slow thinking and very hard to make choices in the day. Even today my heart is feeling weaker then is should and right now I have to take deep breaths that are kind of conscious effort. Almost as if I have a greater amount of gravity on my chest and I cant fight it. Limbs almost feel foreign and having to move them is a workout that is beyond the ability of the tendons. As if the tendons are over stretched and cannot be tightened again, as if I am trying to use a over used bungie cord. It is just hanging and not able to lift as all tension is gone.

So the weird place to hold my legs is up on a chair and I hold my hands over my chest while sitting up and it gives some kind of comfort. I am just having a tough one is the way I tend to put it, Even though this is more then life ever delt me before op.

So I am going to sit in the sun for a bit so my skin warms and feels less like a 3/4 frozen jell that is very hard to move around and it takes it more to move. So I will have to warm in the sun and keep the body moving so I don’t get stuck in a semi solid state it feels like. I just taking a day to heal, or what ever is going on time to fix, and hope that the day is kind.

Until later my loverlies.

Much Love

Your Friendly Ginger From The Woods.