Good very eairly morning and I hope this day has brought you both joy and hope in the world. We often try to sybolize this past week a new start to a year. Oddly I never really thought much about new years. Just another rotation around the sun. To be honest I am just trying to find were I belong and where I am to exist in a sence where I have a change to the things around me. I have lots to improve on and I thing the things I need to improve on. This comes with developing a more drivin personality, that and quit smoking, I am broken in many ways in the mind and choose not to face them from fear. Though this sounds very human, I think that if I am to become a better being, I must face them.

So to start I am going to try and quit smoking and face the world without things making it less ridged. I know that the world flows not like a river, though I have thought that for many years. I think life is just what it is, a concious existence that is defined by the existence of our defined reality. I have wished for hope that we have a great journey of some kind, that after death I have had thougths we went somewhere, that I have a chance to continue on thought this concious thought that I still have. I have begun to think through the debvelopment of religious ideals throughout the timeline, they have all been a conception of ways to dignify the horrors of having a ablility to dream and create reasonings that make these things acceptable. From a devil that is to blame for the edges we dance on and when we fall off and become vile, a push from the devil is blamed. When a chance incounter with a doctor when then a heartattack is taken care of, a random even that is contributed to a gift from god, not that the doctor goes there every day to drink away his horrors of debt. That the man lives down the hall from the doctor and us being creatures of habbit and socal accord. The man and doctor just started absorbing each others habbits and just that, no act of god saved him. The very aspect of being a animal of social accord saved him. A thing that might be wrong but even in historucal documents I have yet to see a reason to have a belief in a god. More that we recorded things that happend and reasoning of the reality was not as easy to have a being of god to have created these actions and yet we can with simple thinking now. All events are easily explaneable, in the throws of death I think religious means of the world have started to see this and have begun to use violence to justify their god, or deity.

As I was a foolish man in time past, trying to race to the finish line and have a life that has a finishline we all have to make it too, though many have short cuts, others have taken the long way. Yet a goal to have things in life acording to a ideal. Not a matter were you are the wold infects us all with thoughts of the future ideals of the current enviroment, To manifest ideals of the location not the being is the events of pouring the human into a glass. Locations dictate hate, love, devinity and yet less time taken to cook a turkey, you land in a place that is your view of hell and debatchery. How devided we become with a reason that is not even proveable or definable, just things we were told is true so much that we now define other humans as demons and creatons of filth. How unevolved, how child-like, how animalistic. Until we devour such things and turn them to the refuse that we use toliet paper to clean off. We will be defined as the very refuse by neighbours on a coast to coast when we attmept to dream of a future.

I am a man with no answers, just a broken individual and might not be able to see the devine, what if I am the one who sees though the things we have created. Do we not historically devine the individual as they are the ones to lead us to a greater sence of being. Why have we not had one for 1000s of years. What has become the very capper of no longer finding gods. What if the cap is just constructive and beyond animal thinking yet we clung onto the religions to define what we do as godly when the blood of fellow man fall before us. That is a hypocrite view of the reasons we do things. Being forgiven by saying a couple words, honestly is that not the most child ike thing we ever used as a punshishment. “Now go say sorry to your sibling as it will make things better and they know your sorry” Is very comparible to “now pray to (what ever god) and seek forgivness in your heart by letting god in so your faith knows you are sorry” It just seems like something a parent would do to teach kinship, Not a being allocating the very thing we say is a esssence of forever.

These are things that pass my mind and leave in in a quarry with myself and the concious world.

Who knows and if they did, would that not be peak insainity.

Much Love

Your Friendly Ginger From Then Woods.