Good day humans!!!! Yeah I am back and feeling better, I do apologise for being such a ass, It was not my intent and to be honest I Don’t really have anyone here to talk to. People just get too emotional here and cant handle conversations of things that bother me. This really sucks but people get bitchy and take everything personaly when trying to tell them how things bother me. Then they take is personally, in the wrong way. So if you tell them that it really gets under your skin when you do alot to get things together and ready to be done, then they decide to change the plan, the plan that was made long ago and ready to go then they say well this, or well that. Umm wtf, You know how shit drives me nuts, my head gets confused and pissed when they fail their part. Then all the work and effort I put in was for nothing. Then they get pissy when you mention it. So I just stopped trying to make them happy.

So the best thing I have done in a while is just to take things and pull them together and let them fall apart, in front of them and then say you did this. You were the one who said that things were relying on to be done but drinking became more important. At least I still get shit done when I am stoned. Fuck that drives me nuts. No wonder their marrage and the time they spend together is either drunk or working on being drunk around each other. Well all I can do is try to make sure that the things that matter to me are protected. From the little fur nuggets to the big fur nuggets.

So with all of that I just had a really hard time because I try to hold humans to a higher regard then humans should I guess. I really thought people were better then the bacterium mold that is ecoming better at describing our existence then anything else. Nature is better then us, why I am convinced we are not good things. We think we are the good ones ass all things that are the ones examaned, of course they think they are the good ones. How could one see themselves as bad as they just do everything that their species have done before. Seeking acceptance from a God they believe in has come from meditations and peaceful gatherings to slaughters under the name of the God they kill others for. If any God were to command the death of anything or represents the only being and all others should die in heresy. Sounds like everyone believes in the devil and God has died from screaming into the void to call them back.

Having no ambition to teach or question those things I try to love the fur and non fur nuggets in the world, anything non human, really. Knowing I am trying to be a better Human, I often wonder if the word human has become the most inhuman thing to be. Maybe human was once a title given to us to early or that human was never meant to be given to us so soon. Might it be a title that we are not yet diserving of.

Though I have been weak and broken over the ideals I have tried to hold up. I thinks that I am going to be ok. I know I am one of many being called Human I just don’t think I want to be called one.

much love and trying to be better

your friendly ginger from the woods.