Good morning humans. What a sleep I just had, Kinda just gave up on my birthday and went to bed about 3 yesterday. After years of no wishes and disapointed in the ones who call me family but can never remember something so important to me. So I honestly stopped counting my age and just gave up. I dont know why each year I hope someone who is not my mom would care enough to remember me. I have to stop doing that. It is nothing but a failure of hope so I just think I will sleep through them from now on. Not a fan of the feeling that after so long helping others, I am forgotten to the wayside.

So with that I have to say that day today is a new day and I have to find the things that I am able to do and one day have to myself. Just to live up north and forget about all of this. I have grown tired of the world and now have come to conclutions of my being that is not meant for this place anymore. By that I truly mean leaving this world and bnot have the bindlings to it as I still have a few. 2 more years and those bindings age out and no longer are able to hold me. Not dictation or law at that point will be able to see me as anything. For that, I cannot wait.

So I do have a dream, a dream that is to be me and the animals to live in a place where we are able to be us. To be not incased in a world that is not a home to us. I just want a home, a place I made with the love and care others give to the ones they love. I want all that into a house that I create and not have a place in the world where we are forgotten. I rather be remembered by my Antatres then the ruler of the world at this point. The one who rules the world is still human and a animal, they will dictate to the ones who love that being and make them stay in the mind. When Antares is the recipical of my being, He is love and caring, compassion and hope. All the things I strive for but cannot find in humanity.

So with that I have become much more attuned to the things we as humans do to animals. I am in a mind that I am full of aggravations as last night not one persin decided to feed the cats and dogs. They just decided that it was not important. One day I only hope they feel the hunger and pain of not being able to eat for a day then when they see food and people who can serve it. That they are left staring at the food, with no way to eat. That pissed me off so much that it makes me love the animal like dogs and sucn much more then any human. We are gifted with the ability to love and care for the ones who we shelter, it is sickening when they dont take care of the ones they say they love.

So the plan for the day is to clean up the inside and get a fire going. Then see what I wanna eat, or jsut stick to bean juice right now.

Now just thinking of this, the past 15 years something I have become aware of, Humans gave up in being better then they once were. They have become satiated in fantasy and self devoured importance. Life beyond them is not but a causality and not someething they are effecting directly. Cry when a animal or pet dies but wont feed them accordingly. Hipocrates and denyal is so strong these day that truth has taken their place. I only hope enough see this so a change can be made.

Untill the next time we meet.

Much Love

Your Friendly Ginger From The Woods.