Good evening you beautiful creations of life.

Things have gotten much better since taking the extra pill. I often wonder what people think of me and i have to realixe that me staying away fromm them is not anomosity to them. I hdont have a particular group of existence i dont like. I just had to come to realize that they needed to be protected from me. That is part of the reason i live alon in the woods.

how can i say such a thing and not be fanatical about me being a super villan or hero gone bad. That is the easy part, last night when trying to fight off the devil inside i was concidering and got close to cutting off my pinky finger with a ae. Why would anyone of sain mind even concider this. I wasnted to hurt the demon inside so i could use the pain to fight even harder. Find a source of grip in the pain of a lost finger is something i dont think anyone would understand. I would accept that anyone would call me crazy, I would accept that because how do you explain to someone that the dforces inside me are sometimes greater then the will have have to keep them down. That sometimes the pain of being human is enough to fight back. Sometimes pghysical pain is the only way to hurt enough to have the will to ppush it back down. Like i said a reason that is far not understood. I get that, just want people to know that sometimes, just sometimes they should realized the ones who want to be alone for a bit are not trying to hide away. They are trying to protect you.

I am no hero, I am no victor over armys. when i have ever boasted such things is a question i ask myself. I say that because some days i am a hero and a victor over a army greater then ever concieved by mankind.

I fight the demon that is who i am.

Sincerly and asking for the fogivness of the souls of the world

Your Friendly Ginger From The Woods